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Ilfryth

Ilfryth

No Longer Human
Jun 9, 2026
12
Like idk, sometimes I'm just laying down bored or something and I stop breathing. I have to kind of force myself to breathe again. It doesn't feel physical (as if there was something wrong witj my lungs) more like my brain forgets or doesn't bother to anymore.

Anyone else with constant ideation had/has this ? I feel like even my subconscious is trying to kill me now
 
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CarbonBased

CarbonBased

The Nothing
Jun 18, 2026
215
What do you think would happen if you didn't force yourself to breathe? Do you think you would just pass out?
 
Ilfryth

Ilfryth

No Longer Human
Jun 9, 2026
12
No idea honestly, I'm inclined to believe so but while getting closer it's likely I'd panic and gasp for air
 
revivals

revivals

im afraid to not exist. arent you?
Jul 10, 2026
21
all the time. when i was a kid i would hold my breath to dissociate or to stop making any noise and now i do it without intending to. whenever im stressed i have to remind myself how to breathe normally, hahaha
 
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Awesomefoid67

Awesomefoid67

she/it, terminally silly :3
Sep 10, 2024
907
only when i get like super stressed. sometimes i get panic attacks that are kinda weird cus i don't hyperventilate i just basically completely stop breathing (and sometimes my heart rate slows instead of rising? idfk.) and have to like force myself to take breaths cus it feels like i cant breathe
 

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