Discussion Does anyone else intend on CTB in a distant location so that your loved ones won't see your body?

[VegasLyra]

I'm currently saving up for a rope (over 200 dollars but it's worth it as it's a climbing rope and will 100% support my weight), and when I get it, I plan on going to the woods to CTB. I could do it at home--it would be way more comfortable--but I just don't want my family to see me like that. It would be traumatizing. And I know I shouldn't care as I won't be there to see the effect it would have on them, but I do care. Anyone else?

 

[thelostautistic]

You aren't alone in caring about your family. I don't know where I want to ctb yet but it won't be at home. I agree with you in that it would be more comfortable at home but I don't want my family to find me either.

 

[FoxSauce]

Yes, I plan to if I ever decide to I dont wanna hurt anyone else by my actions.so they dont have to suffer anymore beacuse of me.

Ofc I know it'll impact them regardless but I dunno how to explain to them that they weren't the problem

 

[cbtvvxxvvv]

yes completely. that is my exact plan as well actually. don't need to ruin their life as i've ruined mine

 

[knowledgeseeking]

I have the same concerns about them finding my body. My plan is to setup a delayed text after enough time has passed to save me and advising them to call the police and send them over.

I know some people have justifiable reasons to not care about putting the people in their lives through this, but just not caring because they won't here to deal with it selfish as fuck.

 

[scarredheart]

ive thought about this before; but i realised id rather they have closure about what happened instead of me becoming an unsolved missing persons case

I'm currently saving up for a rope (over 200 dollars but it's worth it as it's a climbing rope and will 100% support my weight), and when I get it, I plan on going to the woods to CTB. I could do it at home--it would be way more comfortable--but I just don't want my family to see me like that. It would be traumatizing. And I know I shouldn't care as I won't be there to see the effect it would have on them, but I do care. Anyone else?

 

[Reeds]

Same, I don't want anyone wasting time looking for me.

ive thought about this before; but i realised id rather they have closure about what happened instead of me becoming an unsolved missing persons case

 

[NotSoEnchanted]

I'm also planning on doing it in the woods, in remote and challenging terrain to decrease chances of someone finding me or intervening. Last attempt I had wasn't nearly remote enough, so this time around I'll be hiking further into the woods.

Do keep in mind that SAR dogs and police K9 teams may find you. This is my only hesitation with doing it in the woods. I hate to waste resources and worry about being tracked down before I can follow through with my method. I also don't want to be found after I've departed, I strongly prefer to return to the earth rather than be processed.

 

[Melancholys]

I'm not planning to do it somewhere remote exactly but I'm gonna do it in a hotel room. I know realistically I'm going to be found so I'd rather it be someone other than my family honestly, I don't want them to go through the guilt of finding their child's body dead.

 

[eggsausagerice]

actually curious: why would you spend that much on a climbing rope when you could buy a much cheaper mooring rope that can support the same amount of weight?

i'm going to do a similar thing. i've gone to my ctb location in the forest multiple times when contemplating hanging in the past, but i'm thinking about scouting again later. i don't know that many nature parks that let me sneak in at night, and i can't visit that many places because i don't have a car. i'm thinking about going pretty deep into the woods, but it might be harder when i'm fasting for the sn protocol. maybe it matters less when i do it late at night, because no one will be out there. i'm also worried about coming across wild animals.

 

[kitkatt]

I'm currently saving up for a rope (over 200 dollars but it's worth it as it's a climbing rope and will 100% support my weight), and when I get it, I plan on going to the woods to CTB. I could do it at home--it would be way more comfortable--but I just don't want my family to see me like that. It would be traumatizing. And I know I shouldn't care as I won't be there to see the effect it would have on them, but I do care. Anyone else?

Yeah I joke with my roommate I won't do it in the house but I mean it. It'll be some random location off in the woods where hopefully nobody finds me. At least until there's nothing traumatizing left behind then someone can find me I suppose. And hopefully when I'm found is ages past the times in which those I cared for resided in

 

[americanoomad]

I was just thinking about this when I came across your thread... It's truly a blessing to have many people around who care for and love me. Still, when it comes to having depressive episodes and ideations, it becomes a double-edged sword as I feel tied to so many and obligated to stay healthy for the sake of others. It would be awful if my parents found my body, and I couldn't imagine the pain they would go through and the aftermath of it all (all my fault, and I just leave them to deal with it??).

 

[VegasLyra]

actually curious: why would you spend that much on a climbing rope when you could buy a much cheaper mooring rope that can support the same amount of weight?

i'm going to do a similar thing. i've gone to my ctb location in the forest multiple times when contemplating hanging in the past, but i'm thinking about scouting again later. i don't know that many nature parks that let me sneak in at night, and i can't visit that many places because i don't have a car. i'm thinking about going pretty deep into the woods, but it might be harder when i'm fasting for the sn protocol. maybe it matters less when i do it late at night, because no one will be out there. i'm also worried about coming across wild animals.

2 reasons: 1) I've had 2 failed attempts where the rope broke and just cannot trust any rope at this point other than a climbing rope (also idk where to get a mooring rope lol). And reason 2).... I know it's gonna take me a while to save up enough money, and I can use that time to do some more things I want to do with this life. Truth be told if I had a button in front of me right now that would end my life, I don't think I'd press it.

 

[black_iris]

i wanted to ctb far away for the longest time but honestly i dont think i could do it. i had a really great foolproof plan of ctbing off a 700ft bridge far away but i couldnt do it in the end.

i want quick methods because they dont spare me time to regret and mourn my decision, but traveling somewhere far away gives me a lot of time.

i changed my plan and im now going to ctb in april.

another worry though with doing it far away from your family is that they could report you missing and now everyone is tracking you if you take more than a day or two.

 

[mold]

I'm currently saving up for a rope (over 200 dollars but it's worth it as it's a climbing rope and will 100% support my weight), and when I get it, I plan on going to the woods to CTB. I could do it at home--it would be way more comfortable--but I just don't want my family to see me like that. It would be traumatizing. And I know I shouldn't care as I won't be there to see the effect it would have on them, but I do care. Anyone else?

Yup, I love my mom too much, and while I don't live with her anymore, she's staying in the country for a bit, so I decided I'd CTB after she left. Also my real estate agent is a really good, young guy who is only in his 20s, and he mentioned to me that if anything was cause for concern, he had a spare key and would come inside if necessary, and I don't wanna traumatize someone like that. He'd been nothing but nice to me and he's so young, I genuinely can't do that to him.

I'm going out of my way to book a hotel in another city too, just because I genuinely don't want anyone I have any sort of emotional connection with see me and also so I don't hesitate.

 

[lysergamide]

If SN fails I plan to take a trip to the south of my country, make a mix of Weed, a flash, a beer and valium and try shallow water blackout in the sea

 

[tiredofbeingme]

No i want them to know it's their fault, i'll make sure to write that in the note. they probably won't give a fuck but it's something

 

[Zyntkalla]

I am going to do it in a forest not because I care about them. I just don't want to be found. I just want nature to take me back. I know I am a waste of space but my body won't go to waste in the forest.

 

[meddle]

i actually think the absence of body is worse, since they wont have any funerals, any closure