Does Anyone Else Have No Choice But to Ctb?

[lizzywizzy09]

I see a lot of users here talk about the option for recovery and I'm so envious. Is there anyone here for who recovery just isn't an option?

 

[timetodie24]

Not an option for me as I'm the problem, not an illness or situation. No cure for being defective. But I don't want to 'recover' anyway so not envious, just want death

 

[lizzywizzy09]

I'm defective as well, in a literal, physical sense. I'm sorry it came to this for you too.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Me. I mean, I technically have a choice. You always have a choice; otherwise it's not suicide. But for all pragmatic intends and purposes I don't.

 

[unnamed2]

@lizzywizzy09, for me there is no cure. I can only accept that my life will be miserable or i can choose ctb.
With SAD, GAD, dismorphopobia, depression i will nothing achive in my life.

 

[2806]

Me. Ruined social life, career. Cant fix anything because of mental illness and place I have come to.

 

[goodoldnoname923]

I see a lot of users here talk about the option for recovery and I'm so envious. Is there anyone here for who recovery just isn't an option?

Honestly am i ever going to recover from the lose of blue? No,will i ever be able to replace her or fill the void she left,extremely unlikely and not worth the hassle on both myself or whomever would have to go through that…it's not fair on them and i have full awareness of that

In a way i'd love to get her back but alot of me realises thats far from gone and all i can do now is put myself to rest apologise to those i hurt,those i will leave be hind and hope for her and everyone else i still hold concern for to be happier without me

 

[FallFromGrace]

My deformities have burnt my bridge to happiness. I could technically choose to keep living, I guess, but to do so would be to condemn myself to a life in which I know nothing but anguish. To me, a life devoid of joy is not one which is worth living, so that's my answer.

 

[lizzywizzy09]

My deformities have burnt my bridge to happiness. I could technically choose to keep living, I guess, but to do so would be to condemn myself to a life in which I know nothing but anguish. To me, a life devoid of joy is not one which is worth living, so that's my answer.

I feel the same. Very, very few people know this particular brand of torture. I'm so sorry. <3

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Yes, I have no option but to ctb because, unfortunately, work is unavoidable for the average person. The average person has to work for decades until they suffer and die via old age but I don't want to experience that. I don't want to work at all. The first year of university has already overwhelmed me massively and I can tell that I'm at my limit. I just don't have the capacity, motivation or the skills the progress ahead. And honestly, even if I did have the skills to progress further, I still wouldn't want to progress further because I don't want to suffer...


...which leads on to my next point that I don't want to suffer. Is not suffering possible whilst being alive? No. Every living being suffers because that's how life is designed to be like. The only way I can not suffer is by being dead because dead people can't suffer. Recovery won't get rid of my suffering but death would.

I just don't have a desire to live through life nor do I want to live through life. Recovery makes no sense for me to try and do because I don't want to live to begin with.

Also, even if I did try and recover, I can't because I have autism which is incurable. Even if I could recover, I wouldn't because it's life itself that I need to recover from rather than from being a failed normie

 

[lollblanca]

Same here. Actually I messed up my situation on purpose.. I did it all beacuse I do not want to make other options but to ctb. I'm too weak and I do not want to despair anymore, rn I have nothing and now I think I truly can ctb. No regrets

 

[Mi Mi]

I see a lot of users here talk about the option for recovery and I'm so envious. Is there anyone here for who recovery just isn't an option?

I desire to die
But I also don't have a choice
This is my only chance to die at home like I planned before things fell apart

 

[endofme0001]

My reason is situational. I wish it was just a matter of recovering or feeling better. My business has tanked after 26 years and I can't pay my bills. I'm about to lose everything. Never thought it would come to this. I don't really want to die yet, but I don't see any way out of this as a middle aged person. I don't know how to start over. I'm pretty bad at everything and' don't have many people to rely on in a crisis situation.

 

[littleearthquakes]

I have degenerative chronic illnesses and disabilities that will only keep getting worse and have no treatments that help or I tolerate, no cures, even if I could treat one of them it wouldn't help the rest and too much damage has already happened. The pain and limitations will never get better, only worse. So I feel I have no choice and at a certain point I'll need to end it due to the pain being truly unbearable. It already is but somehow I'm still here so far, but there will be a line where I stop being scared to try and it'll feel worth any risks.

 

[lizzywizzy09]

I have degenerative chronic illnesses and disabilities that will only keep getting worse and have no treatments that help or I tolerate, no cures, even if I could treat one of them it wouldn't help the rest and too much damage has already happened. The pain and limitations will never get better, only worse. So I feel I have no choice and at a certain point I'll need to end it due to the pain being truly unbearable. It already is but somehow I'm still here so far, but there will be a line where I stop being scared to try and it'll feel worth any risks.

I feel this. I'm so sorry. Healthy people have no idea how good they have it.

 

[outrider567]

I see a lot of users here talk about the option for recovery and I'm so envious. Is there anyone here for who recovery just isn't an option?

No option, zero option, not when you lose somebody to death after 35 years

 

[ecliptic]

I see a lot of users here talk about the option for recovery and I'm so envious. Is there anyone here for who recovery just isn't an option?

I won't recover because of the demons in my head.

 

[Vicolo cieco]

I'm beyond saving, I have too many issues.

 

[MeowTheFlemishCat]

Nah, I have no way out either even though I REALLY want to live and bar for a few things it would've happened

 

[007Bob]

I see a lot of users here talk about the option for recovery and I'm so envious. Is there anyone here for who recovery just isn't an option?

Psychiatrists murdered me. I led an anti-psychiatry project and psychiatrists retaliated. I got force medicated with the very same poisons that I was denouncing to health authorities in the first place. I now have permanent brain damage, damaged eyes, damaged gut and damaged hormonal system. Psychiatrists also sterilized me. I feel completely handicapped now. I have no other choice but to CTB because I cannot have a normal life anymore. Here is my full story:
=> https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...ics-neuroleptics-now-ctb.167335/#post-2549786

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I choose to kill myself

I will take this win

I didn't bring myself here to be imprisoned into this evil world and into the abomination that is a small animal body. A small animal body that can suffer unbearable pain. A small animal body that has to feed itself constantly at great expense of energy time work money for no reason ....

I didn't put myself into these horrible situations. But I sure am going to escape

I will kill myself and so I will win

 

[Unknown21]

I see a lot of users here talk about the option for recovery and I'm so envious. Is there anyone here for who recovery just isn't an option?

Are you talking about me, Lmao?

This is exactly my situation, and this is what causes me this psychological pain and indecisiveness. There are still tingles of false hopes, but unfortunately my situation is desperate.

I do not suffer from many health problems, only money, mental illness, and the fact that I live in a backward country and I cannot leave it.

Yes, I have no option but to ctb because, unfortunately, work is unavoidable for the average person. The average person has to work for decades until they suffer and die via old age but I don't want to experience that. I don't want to work at all. The first year of university has already overwhelmed me massively and I can tell that I'm at my limit. I just don't have the capacity, motivation or the skills the progress ahead. And honestly, even if I did have the skills to progress further, I still wouldn't want to progress further because I don't want to suffer...


...which leads on to my next point that I don't want to suffer. Is not suffering possible whilst being alive? No. Every living being suffers because that's how life is designed to be like. The only way I can not suffer is by being dead because dead people can't suffer. Recovery won't get rid of my suffering but death would.

I just don't have a desire to live through life nor do I want to live through life. Recovery makes no sense for me to try and do because I don't want to live to begin with.

Also, even if I did try and recover, I can't because I have autism which is incurable. Even if I could recover, I wouldn't because it's life itself that I need to recover from rather than from being a failed normie

Totally agree, work is my eternal nightmare.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I choose to kill myself

I will take this win

I didn't bring myself here to be imprisoned into this evil world and into the abomination that is a small animal body. A small animal body that can suffer unbearable pain. A small animal body that has to feed itself constantly at great expense of energy time work money for no reason ....

I didn't put myself into these horrible situations. But I sure am going to escape

I will kill myself and so I will win

I see a successful death as a win too in my case. Of course though, with each passing day, the win is getting slightly less and less because, with each passing day, that's still a day full of suffering which could have been avoided. However, in the end, we'd still potentially be missing out on decades of suffering which is a win in that regard

 

[albstr1403]

I have severe cfs, a med injury, and narcolepsy. I'm basically a potato and super med sensitive. I'm backed into a corner and if I don't end it myself, I'd probably get sent to some psych facility and get tortured until I give out over a long period of time.

 

[Z-A]

Staying alive will only prolong suffering on top of everything I'm dealing with, that is unacceptable to me. There's no recovering from this while staying alive.

 

[totheendofinfinity]

I really feel like my hand has been forced...

 

[sserafim]

Ctb is the only way to escape work and wageslavery. My parents keep pressuring me to get a job and they keep saying that they should just kick me out. It's NEET or rope for me. I don't want to have to work for a living or become a slave to the system. I'd rather die. I just don't see the point in working if it's not for yourself. It's cucked to work for an employer. I would only ever be self-employed. I'd be my own boss, as I would hate to have to answer to anyone. I hate people telling me what to do. I also don't want to work away my life. I don't see the point in working 50 years just to die in the end. You reach the same fate as those who have never worked in their life, so why work and expend extra effort? It doesn't make any sense to me. My parents are well-off enough to let me NEET for life, yet they believe that it's wrong for me to be "lazy" and "unproductive". I guess this is a case study in societal brainwashing and conditioning. They should be happy that I don't have to work. Why are they trying to force me to get a job? Honestly insane

 

[thebelljarrr]

Yes, not even envious, I want to go

 

[brokeandbroken]

For me it does seem that way to an extent. I was worked hard got into medical school albeit overseas (Poland, I am American)... Was the victim of crimes. Now I am homeless. My family basically abandoned me. I have no friends really. If I am ever going to have a normal life it's going to come down to the Poland's prosecutory and court system. I cannot afford a lawyer so they'd have to give me one. Despite some shred's of hope it is still wishful thinking at best. I have 160k in debt. Can't really even get a 40k a year job where all my money would just go to loans basically. Yeah my situation is pretty desperate and dire. I just watch as my life is slowly drained from me. Like my prime of my life taken. While I am just in hell and miserable. So yeah CTBing you know feels like my only choice a lot.

Even in the best case scenario I will have lost some of the most important years of your life, I won't have family as they have shown to mostly not give a shit, and I won't have friends.

 

[set0553]

Realistically I tried antidepressants therapy and family therapy, doesn't work... dog therapy works, alcohol works, drugs work, nothing else works, period..