Does anyone else have children?

[Tired9090]

I have an 8 year old... Sometimes I wonder how it will affect him but I think he would be okay... He's a daddy's boy and absolutely prefers his father over me... He also has some special needs and I don't think he will really understand...

 

[Johnnythefox]

I have a son and daughter I don't see, they're in their early twenties but hey ho.
Cest la vie

 

[RememberWhatUCameFor]

i think there was an indian woman here who killed herself and her son

 

[TiredHorse]

I have an 8 year old... Sometimes I wonder how it will affect him but I think he would be okay... He's a daddy's boy and absolutely prefers his father over me... He also has some special needs and I don't think he will really understand...

I hate to be the negative one here, but 1) prefering one parent over the other does not mean your absence won't be felt keenly, and 2) not understanding probably won't make it any easier for him, just more perplexing, a question that won't ever go away.

Think of yourself at 8, and how it would have affected you (did affect? I don't want to make too many assumptions) had your mother --or just the parent you weren't as close to-- ctb.

Search out and have a look at some of @longingforrelease 's posts. He is deeply concerned for his 10-year-old daughter, and I think some of his insights might serve you well.

 

[TAW122]

No I don't nor do I plan on having any children (I'm an antinatalist here) since the world is horrible and bringing more people to suffer isn't something I want. I am also struggling to get by in life as well.

 

[Taylor]

No I don't nor do I plan on having any children (I'm an antinatalist here) since the world is horrible and bringing more people to suffer isn't something I want. I am also struggling to get by in life as well.

I agree with this completely. I love my unborn kids so much that there's no way I would bring them into this horrible, suffering and dying world.

 

[Itstimeforpeace]

I have children too. They are definitely one of my reasons for staying in this world. It's hard not to think they would be better off without me though. I don't really feel like I'm that great of a person. So I understand....

 

[Lunaemoth]

I feel bad enough leaving behind my dog, even though I know my mother will take care of her. I don't think I could do that to a child...

There was a time that I wanted nothing more in the world than to be a mom... Now I'm glad I never subjected a child to myself or to this world.

 

[bigj75]

No kids. But ive studied the psychology behind how parent deaths effect children. Its a tough road for you guys with kids and being in this situation. Hope it works out for all of yall.

 

[NotWorthLiving]

No partner, no children, and even if I did have children they would have been taken away cause I'm underage

 

[Jiva]

Yes. I have a son and a wife. But he is nearly adult and i have big pains. So i don´t see any another way. I am still here, because i don't have courage meantime. It is the one reason.

 

[15dec]

I don't plan on living long enough to have children. It's funny, a few months ago there was nothing I loved more than the idea of having kids, watching them grow, things like that. It'd be selfish of me to procreate, though. I'm probably more likely to have PND because of my existing mental health, and if my suspicions of a genetic link are correct then I'd probably just pass it on to my kids and they'd grow up suffering like me.

 

[killing me softly]

I have an 8 year old... Sometimes I wonder how it will affect him but I think he would be okay... He's a daddy's boy and absolutely prefers his father over me... He also has some special needs and I don't think he will really understand...

i have a young son too. my love for him is just about the only thing that gives me pause in making this decision. i know he will be well cared for so i take comfort in that. but it absolutely kills me to think about his pain, his unanswered questions, any sense of responsibility he may come to feel. (just writing about this and i'm finding myself having a good cry).

as a result i am slowly and carefully putting together a plan that will *hopefully* result in my death not being ruled a suicide. my plan is to use N but to take it while on a two week hiking trip where i won't be missed for that time period. i hope to be remote enough i won't be found for as long as possible and that an autopsy ultimately doesn't pick up the N (pph lists undetectability as 4/5). i have no idea how realistic this is to hope but hope i will.

 

[JustAboutDone]

i have a young son too. my love for him is just about the only thing that gives me pause in making this decision. i know he will be well cared for so i take comfort in that. but it absolutely kills me to think about his pain, his unanswered questions, any sense of responsibility he may come to feel. (just writing about this and i'm finding myself having a good cry

Sending you the biggest hug
I, too, have a son and that is what makes me hesitate. I feel your pain x

 

[MsM3talGamer]

I agree with this completely. I love my unborn kids so much that there's no way I would bring them into this horrible, suffering and dying world.

I'm an anti-natalist and your comment hit the nail on the head.

 

[Jenna]

I too have a son. He's a young adult but still makes it really hard.

 

[killing me softly]

Sending you the biggest hug
I, too, have a son and that is what makes me hesitate. I feel your pain x

thank you. right back at you.

 

[Aesthler]

It's strange to think about actually but I did almost have kids, they all were early term miscarriages though. It was probably for the best, really.

 

[Tired9090]

i have a young son too. my love for him is just about the only thing that gives me pause in making this decision. i know he will be well cared for so i take comfort in that. but it absolutely kills me to think about his pain, his unanswered questions, any sense of responsibility he may come to feel. (just writing about this and i'm finding myself having a good cry).

as a result i am slowly and carefully putting together a plan that will *hopefully* result in my death not being ruled a suicide. my plan is to use N but to take it while on a two week hiking trip where i won't be missed for that time period. i hope to be remote enough i won't be found for as long as possible and that an autopsy ultimately doesn't pick up the N (pph lists undetectability as 4/5). i have no idea how realistic this is to hope but hope i will.

I really wish there was a way that nobody would know it was a suicide... I have thought about hiring a hitman to do the job for me... But that is a fantasy...

 

[JustAboutDone]

I really wish there was a way that nobody would know it was a suicide...

@gingerplum - what's the easiest way to bring on a fatal heart attack?

 

[gingerplum]

@gingerplum - what's the easiest way to bring on a fatal heart attack?

I'd say be an obese 60 yr-old male, with a history of high blood pressure, excessive smoking, high blood cholesterol, and diabetes. Double bonus points if you're in complete kidney failure.

A heart attack is a myocardial infarction-- an area of heart tissue becomes ischemic (oxygen deprived). It's very painful and not a fun way to go. Symptoms include dizziness, fatigue, lightheadedness, clammy skin, cold sweat, sweating, anxiety, nausea, vomiting, pressure, feeling of impending doom, palpitations, and shortness of breath.

It's nearly impossible to induce an MI in an otherwise healthy heart; people have suggested overdosing on caffeine, which would have to be incredibly terrifying and distressing and probably wouldn't work. Heart attacks also aren't necessarily fatal, and surviving a serious one will leave you with permanent disabilities and co-morbid conditions.

Stabbing yourself in the chest would be a better plan, but I don't recommend that, either. Nope the fuck away from this idea, please.

 

[LongSeason]

I'm still 18 so it's still early for me to start a family but I'd really love that.
But only if things get better and I find someone that genuinely cares about me, so I guess that's never going to happen.

 

[Sweet emotion]

i think there was an indian woman here who killed herself and her son

What?!?! She killed her son? Why?

 

[JohnUK]

What?!?! She killed her son? Why?

There was one in this country (UK) earlier this year and she jumped off Beachy head cliffs because she lost a custody battle with her ex husband.

 

[SadFather]

I have a 2.5 year old daughter and I agree that this makes everything a lot more difficult but I do believe at this age , her neuro-plasticity will kick in and she will forget and overcome any potential damage suicide may cause her.

 

[marcusuk63]

it`s complicated .
I have a 32 year old son who has 4 daughters who haven't seen for over 18 years apart from at my brothers funeral a few months ago
I also have a 28 year old daughter to my ex wifes sister , who i have only seen once who has a daughter ,
and i have a 22 year old step-daughter from a girl friend i went out with 15+ years ago but we always remained very close and i get on with her new husband.
out or her real dad and her other step dad i`m her favorite dad lol and she come and stays at mine most weekends .
I`m also bisexual so have had b/f`s too , two being transgender. but too old for that sort of thing now so just have play days with my ex and her husband now lol
told you it was complicated it`s like a badly written soap opera , no wonder my life is fucked but you cant help who you are .

 

[Manja]

Thank God no...otherwise I could never ctb

 

[Spooks]

Yes, I have 4 children. The oldest is 19 and the youngest is 7. At the moment I am very numb, my main concern is that they won't have my guidance and protection. The nihilist in me says that doesn't really make any difference and people live out their own stories.

 

[TheDevilsAngel]

Yes I have two children aged 7 and 6.....i love them too much to leave anytime soon....

 

[Mloureiro]

That is what clings me to not CTB, although I have everything I need: my kids. They did not ask to be born either and I am responsible for them and can't imagine that by CTB I could be making them one day feel the same way....