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Tired9090

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Dec 21, 2018
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I have an 8 year old... Sometimes I wonder how it will affect him but I think he would be okay... He's a daddy's boy and absolutely prefers his father over me... He also has some special needs and I don't think he will really understand...
 
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Johnnythefox

Johnnythefox

Que sera sera
Nov 11, 2018
3,129
I have a son and daughter I don't see, they're in their early twenties but hey ho.
Cest la vie
 
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RememberWhatUCameFor

RememberWhatUCameFor

dont cry for me im already dead
Nov 20, 2018
590
i think there was an indian woman here who killed herself and her son
 
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TiredHorse

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Nov 1, 2018
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I have an 8 year old... Sometimes I wonder how it will affect him but I think he would be okay... He's a daddy's boy and absolutely prefers his father over me... He also has some special needs and I don't think he will really understand...
I hate to be the negative one here, but 1) prefering one parent over the other does not mean your absence won't be felt keenly, and 2) not understanding probably won't make it any easier for him, just more perplexing, a question that won't ever go away.

Think of yourself at 8, and how it would have affected you (did affect? I don't want to make too many assumptions) had your mother --or just the parent you weren't as close to-- ctb.

Search out and have a look at some of @longingforrelease 's posts. He is deeply concerned for his 10-year-old daughter, and I think some of his insights might serve you well.
 
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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
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No I don't nor do I plan on having any children (I'm an antinatalist here) since the world is horrible and bringing more people to suffer isn't something I want. I am also struggling to get by in life as well.
 
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Taylor

Taylor

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Dec 23, 2018
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No I don't nor do I plan on having any children (I'm an antinatalist here) since the world is horrible and bringing more people to suffer isn't something I want. I am also struggling to get by in life as well.
I agree with this completely. I love my unborn kids so much that there's no way I would bring them into this horrible, suffering and dying world.
 
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Itstimeforpeace

Itstimeforpeace

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Dec 20, 2018
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I have children too. They are definitely one of my reasons for staying in this world. It's hard not to think they would be better off without me though. I don't really feel like I'm that great of a person. So I understand....
 
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Lunaemoth

Lunaemoth

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Dec 14, 2018
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I feel bad enough leaving behind my dog, even though I know my mother will take care of her. I don't think I could do that to a child...

There was a time that I wanted nothing more in the world than to be a mom... Now I'm glad I never subjected a child to myself or to this world.
 
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bigj75

bigj75

“From Knowledge springs power."
Sep 1, 2018
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No kids. But ive studied the psychology behind how parent deaths effect children. Its a tough road for you guys with kids and being in this situation. Hope it works out for all of yall.
 
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NotWorthLiving

Enlightened
Dec 8, 2018
1,264
No partner, no children, and even if I did have children they would have been taken away cause I'm underage
 
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Jiva

Jiva

I want ...
Nov 18, 2018
493
Yes. I have a son and a wife. But he is nearly adult and i have big pains. So i don´t see any another way. I am still here, because i don't have courage meantime. It is the one reason.
 
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15dec

15dec

ember in the dark
Dec 7, 2018
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I don't plan on living long enough to have children. It's funny, a few months ago there was nothing I loved more than the idea of having kids, watching them grow, things like that. It'd be selfish of me to procreate, though. I'm probably more likely to have PND because of my existing mental health, and if my suspicions of a genetic link are correct then I'd probably just pass it on to my kids and they'd grow up suffering like me.
 
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killing me softly

killing me softly

don't wake me, i plan on sleeping in
Dec 28, 2018
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I have an 8 year old... Sometimes I wonder how it will affect him but I think he would be okay... He's a daddy's boy and absolutely prefers his father over me... He also has some special needs and I don't think he will really understand...

i have a young son too. my love for him is just about the only thing that gives me pause in making this decision. i know he will be well cared for so i take comfort in that. but it absolutely kills me to think about his pain, his unanswered questions, any sense of responsibility he may come to feel. (just writing about this and i'm finding myself having a good cry).

as a result i am slowly and carefully putting together a plan that will *hopefully* result in my death not being ruled a suicide. my plan is to use N but to take it while on a two week hiking trip where i won't be missed for that time period. i hope to be remote enough i won't be found for as long as possible and that an autopsy ultimately doesn't pick up the N (pph lists undetectability as 4/5). i have no idea how realistic this is to hope but hope i will.
 
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JustAboutDone

Illuminated
Jan 1, 2019
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i have a young son too. my love for him is just about the only thing that gives me pause in making this decision. i know he will be well cared for so i take comfort in that. but it absolutely kills me to think about his pain, his unanswered questions, any sense of responsibility he may come to feel. (just writing about this and i'm finding myself having a good cry

Sending you the biggest hug
I, too, have a son and that is what makes me hesitate. I feel your pain x
 
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MsM3talGamer

Voluntary deletion
Nov 28, 2018
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I agree with this completely. I love my unborn kids so much that there's no way I would bring them into this horrible, suffering and dying world.
I'm an anti-natalist and your comment hit the nail on the head.
 
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Jenna

Jenna

Experienced
Nov 21, 2018
234
I too have a son. He's a young adult but still makes it really hard.
 
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killing me softly

killing me softly

don't wake me, i plan on sleeping in
Dec 28, 2018
171
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Aesthler

Aesthler

Death is the only God who comes when you call
Sep 25, 2018
416
It's strange to think about actually but I did almost have kids, they all were early term miscarriages though. It was probably for the best, really.
 
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Tired9090

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Dec 21, 2018
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i have a young son too. my love for him is just about the only thing that gives me pause in making this decision. i know he will be well cared for so i take comfort in that. but it absolutely kills me to think about his pain, his unanswered questions, any sense of responsibility he may come to feel. (just writing about this and i'm finding myself having a good cry).

as a result i am slowly and carefully putting together a plan that will *hopefully* result in my death not being ruled a suicide. my plan is to use N but to take it while on a two week hiking trip where i won't be missed for that time period. i hope to be remote enough i won't be found for as long as possible and that an autopsy ultimately doesn't pick up the N (pph lists undetectability as 4/5). i have no idea how realistic this is to hope but hope i will.
I really wish there was a way that nobody would know it was a suicide... I have thought about hiring a hitman to do the job for me... But that is a fantasy...
 
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JustAboutDone

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Jan 1, 2019
3,532
I really wish there was a way that nobody would know it was a suicide...

@gingerplum - what's the easiest way to bring on a fatal heart attack?
 
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gingerplum

gingerplum

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Nov 5, 2018
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@gingerplum - what's the easiest way to bring on a fatal heart attack?

I'd say be an obese 60 yr-old male, with a history of high blood pressure, excessive smoking, high blood cholesterol, and diabetes. Double bonus points if you're in complete kidney failure.

A heart attack is a myocardial infarction-- an area of heart tissue becomes ischemic (oxygen deprived). It's very painful and not a fun way to go. Symptoms include dizziness, fatigue, lightheadedness, clammy skin, cold sweat, sweating, anxiety, nausea, vomiting, pressure, feeling of impending doom, palpitations, and shortness of breath.

It's nearly impossible to induce an MI in an otherwise healthy heart; people have suggested overdosing on caffeine, which would have to be incredibly terrifying and distressing and probably wouldn't work. Heart attacks also aren't necessarily fatal, and surviving a serious one will leave you with permanent disabilities and co-morbid conditions.

Stabbing yourself in the chest would be a better plan, but I don't recommend that, either. Nope the fuck away from this idea, please.
 
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LongSeason

LongSeason

Member
Dec 14, 2018
83
I'm still 18 so it's still early for me to start a family but I'd really love that.
But only if things get better and I find someone that genuinely cares about me, so I guess that's never going to happen.
 
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SadFather

SadFather

Member
Nov 25, 2019
5
I have a 2.5 year old daughter and I agree that this makes everything a lot more difficult but I do believe at this age , her neuro-plasticity will kick in and she will forget and overcome any potential damage suicide may cause her.
 
marcusuk63

marcusuk63

CTB
Mar 24, 2019
1,735
it`s complicated .
I have a 32 year old son who has 4 daughters who haven't seen for over 18 years apart from at my brothers funeral a few months ago
I also have a 28 year old daughter to my ex wifes sister , who i have only seen once who has a daughter ,
and i have a 22 year old step-daughter from a girl friend i went out with 15+ years ago but we always remained very close and i get on with her new husband.:wink:
out or her real dad and her other step dad i`m her favorite dad lol and she come and stays at mine most weekends .
I`m also bisexual so have had b/f`s too , two being transgender. but too old for that sort of thing now so just have play days with my ex and her husband now lol
told you it was complicated it`s like a badly written soap opera , no wonder my life is fucked but you cant help who you are .
 
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Manja

Can't wait to die
Nov 27, 2019
182
Thank God no...otherwise I could never ctb
 
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Spooks

Spooks

Member
Nov 27, 2019
8
Yes, I have 4 children. The oldest is 19 and the youngest is 7. At the moment I am very numb, my main concern is that they won't have my guidance and protection. The nihilist in me says that doesn't really make any difference and people live out their own stories.
 
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TheDevilsAngel

TheDevilsAngel

LetMeFree
Apr 22, 2019
768
Yes I have two children aged 7 and 6.....i love them too much to leave anytime soon....
 
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Mloureiro

Student
Oct 7, 2019
128
That is what clings me to not CTB, although I have everything I need: my kids. They did not ask to be born either and I am responsible for them and can't imagine that by CTB I could be making them one day feel the same way....
 

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