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Samuel

Samuel

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Apr 25, 2018
243
Death is all I think about anymore.
 
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Karenbaker

Member
Jun 17, 2018
63
Death is all I think about anymore.
I think if you don't fear death your not a rational person - everyone perhaps fears death because for me two things, fear of the unknown although I suspect death is pretty much like being under during an operation in a hospital you have zero knowledge of anything ... and fear of the pain your going to leave behind with other family members
 
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Samuel

Samuel

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Apr 25, 2018
243
I fear the unknown.
 
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bygone

Member
Jun 3, 2018
13
Fear is the only thing keeping me alive right now. I have everything I need to be able to end it. Every day I hope today will be the day I overcome my fear and end it. I've spent the whole morning just trying to psyche myself up to be able to do it.
 
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Samuel

Samuel

Wise
Apr 25, 2018
243
Fear is the only thing keeping me alive right now. I have everything I need to be able to end it. Every day I hope today will be the day I overcome my fear and end it. I've spent the whole morning just trying to psyche myself up to be able to do it.
What's your method?
 
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wanttodie

wanttodie

Enlightened
Apr 19, 2018
1,784
me to samuel Death is all I think about anymore.
 
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angie

angie

need to exit
May 25, 2018
480
Fear is the only thing keeping me alive right now. I have everything I need to be able to end it. Every day I hope today will be the day I overcome my fear and end it. I've spent the whole morning just trying to psyche myself up to be able to do it.


i know the feeling im scared too ,wish i could just get over it like others have
 
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millefeui

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Mar 31, 2018
1,035
I am way past being scared. Whatever comes after death doesn't scare me anymore and the act of dying in itself is nothing to be feared.
 
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Tiburcio

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Not exactly. I want to escape life but ever I try it something pushes me back. I can't override it and it's very fucked.
 
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bag.of.cats

bag.of.cats

depressed cats
Apr 10, 2018
96
No, I get very sad, because I wish my life was more than this, but because of circumstances that are out of my control, I have no choice.
 
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Tomasnil

Tomasnil

Mage
Apr 24, 2018
519
Scared yes ..... but im more scared of failing or living.
 
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angie

angie

need to exit
May 25, 2018
480
if i was sure i wouldnt fail id go ahead but i worry sooo much about the amount anti emetics to take ?
will they make meill n prevent me taking the N ?
will the N be so awfull i wont be able to drink it ? all these things r my dilemma ,sure its same for others if i knew it would be ok i wouldnt hesitate , i just cant think of another way apart from hanging and i probably would get it wrong ,least u dont need to worry about anti emetics or horrible taste stuff lol
 
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Inhibited yes, scared no.
 
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angie

angie

need to exit
May 25, 2018
480
if anti emetics affected me badly id be rushed into hospital then probably a nut house lol
 
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angie

angie

need to exit
May 25, 2018
480
has anyone ever taken 60mg anti emetics in one stat dose .thats what ppeh niscke recommends
 
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musicislife

Student
Jun 15, 2018
159
if i was sure i wouldnt fail id go ahead but i worry sooo much about the amount anti emetics to take ?
will they make meill n prevent me taking the N ?
will the N be so awfull i wont be able to drink it ? all these things r my dilemma ,sure its same for others if i knew it would be ok i wouldnt hesitate , i just cant think of another way apart from hanging and i probably would get it wrong ,least u dont need to worry about anti emetics or horrible taste stuff lol
That's what terrifies me about the stuff it's a hell of a lot if money to throw down the drain if it's simply undrinkable !! Keep reading it tastes like rotten milk I mean c'mon really ??? Do a taste test let some milk go warm and off date and take a sniff if you can drink that you can drink N sadly I'm too weak
 
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RainAndSadness

RainAndSadness

Administrator
Jun 12, 2018
2,104
No. I'm kinda excited to finally escape all that suffer. All the pain and struggle will be gone. And knowing I'll have a peaceful and painless death with N really takes away all fear from leaving this world forever.
 
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Decker

Member
Jun 12, 2018
91
if i was sure i wouldnt fail id go ahead but i worry sooo much about the amount anti emetics to take ?
will they make meill n prevent me taking the N ?
will the N be so awfull i wont be able to drink it ? all these things r my dilemma ,sure its same for others if i knew it would be ok i wouldnt hesitate , i just cant think of another way apart from hanging and i probably would get it wrong ,least u dont need to worry about anti emetics or horrible taste stuff lol
 
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VanHeineken

Experienced
Apr 10, 2018
270
Our brains are hardwired with the survival Instinct. Overcoming the fear can be a hard fight. But I am very committed. This life is shit!
 
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Erik

Erik

Member
Jun 21, 2018
6
Definitely. Not knowing what's gonna happen afterwards is one of the main reasons I'm still alive.
 
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FTL.Wanderer

FTL.Wanderer

Enlightened
May 31, 2018
1,785
As other here have already said, fear alone is keeping me around. Hope died quite a while ago. No friends. No relatives. No community. Work online--and I'm not needed there, just a laborer. When my cash runs out, though, ctb will be far, far, far more appealing a choice than homelessness.

My fantasy is for a state to start allowing us to just walk into a clean, compassionate, welcoming clinic to have it all painlessly taken care of. I wouldn't even mind being pre-wrapped in plastic.
 
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Imaginos

Imaginos

Full-time layabout
Apr 7, 2018
638
No. Quite the opposite, really. Thinking about suicide/death can be really quite comforting. Truth be told, it's one of my favorite (if only) past times at this point. Actually doing it, however. That's a different story. In the moment, right as I'm about to take the last step. That's where my fear would strangle me into submission. I'm too weak & lazy to even get that far, frankly. Taking it all in is more depressing than anything else. As I sit here I'd say I'm more scared of how much worse life is going to get for me as I continue to age & decay, squatting in the ruins of my dark corner, rotting away on a fucking worthless rock that I wish with all my being could just disappear forever. What can someone like me do in the face of all this? What?

 
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Definitelyworried

Definitelyworried

Member
Jun 19, 2018
551
Yes I get very scared. But why do I keep thinking about it. Must be something even more scary that leads me to that thought.
 
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