yami9292
a sleepy loner
- Feb 20, 2019
- 34
For me that means that when things feel really bad or something bad happens I just think "I'm gonna ctb soon so who even cares" and then I kinda feel better after. Like none of this matters since I'm content with dying and nothing truly matters after death but I guess that goes into the good things too but normally its for the bad stuff. It's a weird feeling of being really unhappy and then feeling a little better knowing I'm gonna die anyway or at least hope so. I'm usually pessimistic but optimistic that when I try to ctb it'll go well and I'll die on the first try.