
PrincessInWhite
I just want to sell out my funeral
- Feb 21, 2019
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None of my top 3 choices are secure and/or feasible and it makes me wanna ctb even more because I feel so trapped.
My first choice is obviously N, but the whole "impossible to find/illegal to ship" thing kind of puts a damper on that.
Second choice is SN, but I have drawbacks here too First is that I am very concerned about lasting damage if I fail. I do NOT want to get medical attention whatsoever, both for financial reasons and other complicated reasons. So if I fail and wake up, I will forever be terrified of the long term implications of an attempt with no medical treatment. Second is that I don't have access to one of the recommended antiemetics. I have hydrxyzine which is far better than nothing, but still not the best.
Third choice is the exit bag but it's honestly a horrible method for those who live with others or aren't good with their hands, both of which apply to me. Not to mention if interrupted or done incorrectly this method has a much higher chance of brain damage is SN. I had some hope about the rebreather method because it seemed much easier to set up and get in the house, but the risk of brain damage still remains.
I guess I am asking , how do you all deal with the drawbacks of your methods? How do you address them? Have you found any methods you feel safe and comfortable with?
Thanks for being here!!
My first choice is obviously N, but the whole "impossible to find/illegal to ship" thing kind of puts a damper on that.
Second choice is SN, but I have drawbacks here too First is that I am very concerned about lasting damage if I fail. I do NOT want to get medical attention whatsoever, both for financial reasons and other complicated reasons. So if I fail and wake up, I will forever be terrified of the long term implications of an attempt with no medical treatment. Second is that I don't have access to one of the recommended antiemetics. I have hydrxyzine which is far better than nothing, but still not the best.
Third choice is the exit bag but it's honestly a horrible method for those who live with others or aren't good with their hands, both of which apply to me. Not to mention if interrupted or done incorrectly this method has a much higher chance of brain damage is SN. I had some hope about the rebreather method because it seemed much easier to set up and get in the house, but the risk of brain damage still remains.
I guess I am asking , how do you all deal with the drawbacks of your methods? How do you address them? Have you found any methods you feel safe and comfortable with?
Thanks for being here!!