Does anyone else feel they are past their due date?

[TearStainedSunsets]

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Does anyone else feel like they are past a point in life where you should have left already? everyday feels like im just stalling my inevitable demise

Absolutely I do. I feel like my life should have ended when I was 14. That was the last time I was ever happy or content. I felt back then like my life could have actually ended and I would be just fine with that but this many years later and everything has been at a stand still ever sense. I often wish my last attempt was successful so I wouldnt have to feel so...Stagnant.

 

[Username1359751]

Definitely past my expiration date...
I'm no longer expired milk; I'm molded cheese on the verge of becoming an antibiotic.

 

[J&L383]

Yes, 10 months, 8 days and 56 minutes but who's counting

Just months? Ugh. I think I'm 10 years past my due date.

Absolutely I do. I feel like my life should have ended when I was 14. That was the last time I was ever happy or content. I felt back then like my life could have actually ended and I would be just fine with that but this many years later and everything has been at a stand still ever sense. I often wish my last attempt was successful so I wouldnt have to feel so...Stagnant.

Wow. I think it was even earlier than that for me (to be happy and content) maybe age 9 or 10. Unfortunately it seems like for many people the joy of life ends quickly.

 

[crowghost]

i had a lot of uninformed failed attempts to ctb in the past but my closest to succeeding was when i was 19, i'm 31 now and have always felt like there was some kind of mistake and i was supposed to never wake up after that particular attempt years ago, like i haven't been truly alive since then. i think i was really supposed to die that day, and a lot of the time i really wish i had so it'd be over with already.

i can also relate to the joy of life ending quickly and i'm sorry that's been the experience of others here too. that attempt at 19 was the closest i came to succeeding but the first time i attempted i was 6 years old. i've basically never had that joy i guess, but having it at one point only to lose it sounds awful too and i empathize.