Does anyone else feel that this site is bad for them, and their mental health?

[JamieJambo]

I'm a big believer in what you consume has an effect on our minds

Like if we watch too much porn, or watch too much violence is will effect us poorly,

I think a lot of the time when I come away from researching ways to die, I come away even worse, and more off in my mood

I know that in some ways this site is useful, but would anyone else have noticed that it might not be healthy, hearing people talking about killing themselves and also finding different methods of how to etc?

 

[hungry_ghost]

I've been spending a little less time here, and more time in "gnostic" communities.

I am trying to make a bit of an effort to self-improve spiritually/manifest positive vibes.

Doesn't mean I don't want to exit this world, because I do, but in the meantime I can maybe feel less like shit about it.

 

[JamieJambo]

I've been spending a little less time here, and more time in "gnostic" communities.

I am trying to make a bit of an effort to self-improve spiritually/manifest positive vibes.

Doesn't mean I don't want to exit this world, because I do, but in the meantime I can maybe feel less like shit about it.

Sounds like we are pretty similar in outlook then...

 

[Worndown]

I do not see this site as something to be consumed. It is more a group meeting where real issues are discussed and support given.
I assume you are here as a participant and not a spectator.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

No, it is a safe p[ace to share my feelings with very little gaslighting, unlike in the real world. Moreover, this site has helped me my research for a suitable method to end my suffering, which I otherwise wouldn't have found.

This site also gives the option to recovery for those that want it. It supports both who want out and who want to fight.

 

[LastLoveLetter]

Truthfully, I'm in a position where this environment is no longer good for me (it helped a lot in some ways initially and I am grateful for that, but it has also been harmful in other ways). However, I can't bear to be isolated with nowhere else to go either. I still plan to die at some point and fear going through that alone.

 

[Sibyl Vane]

If you ever feel too overwhelmed with the amount of methods or the more "explicit" suicide content you can always stop looking at these for a moment and engage in other discussions and topics that happen in the forum until you find the need to look at them again.

 

[NothingElseMatters]

no

 

[Worndown]

Truthfully, I'm in a position where this environment is no longer good for me (it did help in some ways initially), but I can't bear to be isolated with nowhere else to go either. I still plan to die at some point and fear going through that alone.

Understood. This is a place where you can find a shoulder to lean on or to cry on. The virtual world can only do so much. I hope you find the solution that best serves your needs.

 

[DynamicDepression]

If you ever feel too overwhelmed with the amount of methods or the more "explicit" suicide content you can always stop looking at these for a moment and engage in other discussions and topics that happen in the forum until you find the need to look at them again.

Exactly. By going into your Preferences, you can hide the Suicide Discussion forum and only get updates from the Recovery one. I believe there is a place here for everyone, no matter which path they decide to take.

 

[Shu]

Yeah, but I plan to die soon so it doesn't matter to me.

 

[JamieJambo]

Truthfully, I'm in a position where this environment is no longer good for me (it did help in some ways initially), but I can't bear to be isolated with nowhere else to go either. I still plan to die at some point and fear going through that alone.

I hear you there.... I kind of know this site isn't good for me, but I keep coming back

 

[FuneralCry]

Not bad exactly, instead I would say pointless. I would rather read about suicide than read about stuff associated with living, reading about people enjoying life is extremely depressing. This website is just a way to pass time, that is all. I am trapped in this world as ctb is so difficult for me personally, and sometimes reading about hanging reminds me of what I cannot achieve and then I get scared of failing the method.

I feel like at this point, the only thing that would be good for me is a peaceful and reliable way to exit this world. That is what everyone deserves the option of. If euthanasia was legalised, then this website would not even need to exist in the first place.

 

[IWillSmileWhenIDie]

I just recently discovered this site, I can see that there will be a time I'd be better off leavin this place, but I really like the idea of this site it brings me some hope...You see...I want to go on 2 pararell pathways 1. Reaserch and acquire a means of dying minimizing suffering and with high af lethality to die wheneva the fuck I want without fear 2. At the same time tryin to enjoy life as much as I can even tho lately it's hard. Also it would be great to support other people along the way and get better or helpin catchin the bus toguether. I wish you all can do WHATEVER THE HELL YOU WANT either live and struggle or die with some fuking dignity. Peace!

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I think it's soothing to commiserate with fellow suicidals. Don't know if it's constructive towards recovery however.

 

[ornitier199]

No. Its literally the only i have left to so much even get working methods

 

[Siterfau]

IMO, I don't spend enough time on this site for it to have significantly affected my mental health.

And to digress a bit, I also agree with FuneralCry. More "positive" communities just make me feel pressured and defeated.

 

[ornitier199]

I've also been on other 'positive' sites and its the worse.
I do not feel understood and the toxic positivity is horrible and obvoiusly couldn't get info on working methods.

 

[Deformationalplagio]

Not really. I dunno about that consumers shit tho even if i wasnt here it wouldnt take the suffering from my facial disfugerment away. Atleast here i can openly talk about it

 

[Klo]

If it is bad for you then you should not use it but this is the only place some people are able to speak freely about their true feelings. It comes down to personal responsibility and everyone needs to decide for themselves what is good or bad for them.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I wholeheartedly agree. I really do. Porn addiction in my early 20s, and masturbation as well as watching suicide YouTube videos has really ruined me. I am destroyed mentally

 

[absolute]

Too much of anything is not good

 

[NobodyKnowsMe]

Don't know if it's constructive towards recovery however.

Likely not -- at least not this particular section -- but many of us aren't necessarily here for recovery anyway.

 

[Brianiskillingme]

No I like this site. Its the only place I can go that most of you understand.

 

[milkginger]

In faço, this is all very recent and very new to me. I've always thought about how and when to "go", but the idea of feeling pain really scared me.
I must confess I'm surprised with all love, understanding and solidarity I've found here.

At the moment I'm fine, I've accepted the fact that I can't leave of my own accord while my son is so dependent on me. He's the only person I really care about and I don't want him to suffer.

Sorry for the English, but it's not my native language and I need to practice a little more, I haven't communicated in that language for a while.

 

[xaea13]

It helped me tbh. It made me feel safer knowing that there were people like me out there supporting each other who understood me and wanted to help me find an exit.

If I didn't have this group, my approach to CTB would've been more desperate and irrational, and I would've probably ended up surviving with lifelong injuries. Instead I was able to get good info, formulate a good plan, and then try to recover IRL with the assurance that I had an exit if that failed.

 

[sfabians]

There is a recovery sub forum:

Receive support, help others in need, form partnerships to get better, or just spend some time breathing in positivity.

 

[ornitier199]

Yeah rendering this whole thread kinda of...?
im sorry

 

[Lost Magic]

I do agree that you can consume too much of anything. However, this site and community has given me a voice and method knowledge that would be hard to obtain otherwise. I am eternally grateful to all the participants and moderators who listened when few else would. Having said that, I do believe in balance. I don't think it is good to spend too much time on anything we consume. Just take a break every once in a while and all will be good.

 

[GentleJerk]

Since I already got what I was after within the first few months of being here, I tend to mostly avoid the suicide section and just fill in the time by browsing my favourite members comments and activity, shit posting and joking around in offtopic etc. So it actually has had a positive effect for me. I can see how if I was someone who was suicidal for reasons that I could recover from, some of the content on here wouldn't be very helpful. But then it would be up to me to avoid that content.

Atm the worst thing about this site for me, is that I'm on here a lot when I should be busy doing other stuff. It's addictive and I waste a lot of time on here. But even saying that, when I really look at it, everybody else is wasting time doing something like watching TV, facebook, yadda yadda. So choosing this forum as my current time waster really isn't any worse. Nothing is stopping me from actually doing the shit I should be doing, so I must be enjoying myself.