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forgotten15

forgotten15

Specialist
Aug 24, 2021
332
Yes, i feel awkward and stressed a lot of the times I am out. I have social anxiety so it's quite hard for me to be in public. The fact that I have a job forced me to control these feelings a bit. At work it's not that much of a problem because I got used to the environment over time, but in other places I do often get anxious. There are many times when even if I have to go just take the trash I get very anxious thinking I might meet other neighbours. Also the fact that I can work from home a lot has made me more awkward when I have to go out after staying in a few days.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,389
I've actually been feeling a lot more confident while out in public in recent years because of all the mask mandates. I find it much easier to interact with people when I can hide my face don't have to be afraid of how they're going to react to my disgusting shame.
 
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Huntfish34

Huntfish34

Enlightened
Mar 13, 2020
1,619
Pretty much how I am but.... I also have a job in which I have to interact with numerous people, give a speech / presentation from time to time...., go to AA meetings in person / zoom ( sometimes I'll talk ) but Usually just sit there with my head down hoping I don't get called on to share with the topic at hand, being in a store / gas station or w/e..

It all freaks me the Fck Out but things " usually " turn out relatively okay imho. With Dankk bud, bars, and sometimes alcohol / liquor,. I've been able to overcome most of my fears with the whole public / anxiety deal and drive through it which can still be Difficult depending on the situation. The masks , 6ft + distancing/ Covid protocols , Certainly help as well!

Best of luck to you all,

Butch
 
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ImpulsiveFreak

Member
Feb 18, 2022
40
Yes! Every time I go out I obsess over the idea that everyone hates looking at me or talking to me or if to hear what I have to say. Although I have to keep reminding myself that's not true and that everyone more or less doesn't give a shit about me and most likely is more worried about themselves. But that thought is always there
 
rehtsedead

rehtsedead

Member
Feb 13, 2022
23
I've always felt weird. It's hard for me to fit into some group of people
 
Istanbulite

Istanbulite

Member
Jan 14, 2022
564
Not weird per se. I feel like I'm much more clever than most of the members of society. This gives me some edge. So I belittle them a little.
 
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Spiritual survivor

Spiritual survivor

A born again but occasionally suicidal
Feb 13, 2022
510
May I ask how? I would love to go to a restaurant or coffee shop just to avoid rotting in my apartment for days. Or to sit on a park bench without being worried about someone making fun of me for sitting by myself.
For me it took accidentally finding a home Christian fellowship. There they taught me how valuable we are in God's eyes. I never really viewed myself in the way God sees us. Unfortunately we are judged by other humans in our society but their judgement of us is often flawed or inaccurate. So u cannot allow other flawed human beings to determine your value. The reason we are flawed is because we are descended from Adam and Eve who made a mistake and lost the Holy Spirit. After that happened all human beings became ruled by their body and soul only. This is the root cause of why we are all jerks and sinners, also the main reason our societies are messed up. There is one other reason that our societies are messed up and that's because (Lucifer) aka the devil controls our physical world not God the creator who loves us. I don't know if this will help, but trust that u are important and decent humans will take interest in wanting to know and love u. Your value to God is not how much money u have or your status according to society. It is a completely different set of things that God views as being valuable than what your society considers valuable.
 
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ClownMe

ClownMe

Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
Apr 7, 2021
20,561
I hate leaving the house, im really self conscious.
 
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Littlepaws

Littlepaws

Member
Sep 4, 2021
60
I've felt awkward in public for much of my life. When I do venture out, it is always a case of getting from A to B as quickly and efficiently as possible. Beanie on, earphones in, head down and as little eye contact with others as much as possible. God forbid if people don't take the hint with all the anti-social cues and starts asking me for directions :notsure:

During the pandemic I've felt much more relaxed about being in public due the general lack of people, but as things are opening up and returning to "normal" again, I can feel the awkwardness creeping up on me again.
 
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doli_o

doli_o

Member
Feb 12, 2022
14
Sometimes, yeah - it can be hard to leave my room and I'm often ashamed of that. I get tired/sad/embarrassed from trying to think of reasons to go outside, and it feels like I emanate loneliness/shame (even though rationally I know no one is paying any real attention!). I haven't socialised in a long time but if I go out for walks, I tend to go when it's dark and the weather is shitty enough to put others off. I recently joined a gym too, which hasn't been too difficult yet because most people are also alone there.
 
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Heartaches

Heartaches

Don't say a prayer for me now
May 6, 2021
270
My GAD makes it so that I constantly feel uncomfortable in public, especially at school where I constantly feel like everyone hates me regardless of how true or false it is. I've gotten better at managing my anxiety when I'm in public but I can never truly shake off the feeling that I'm doing everything wrong, that eveyone is watching me and laughing, or that I'm getting myself into something really stupid.​
 
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eyesoftheabyss

Member
Jul 10, 2021
13
oh yeah. sometimes I feel like I exist so peacefully among people, no pressure to speak to fill the air, speak when I feel like it. other times it feels unnatural because I feel like I observe too deeply and can't/won't contribute to verbal communication if it doesn't feel natural
 

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