Oh, definitely yes, and I could list a lot of examples. Just the most recent one: When this whole Corona Shutdown began, I decided (with an extremely strong will and energy) to start working on myself and get rid of the many, many problems I have. Some of them are physical health issues. So I started with great ambition and actually felt like never before in my life a determination and focus that gave me great motivation and almost a kind of ease and the mental stability of being light about things that had/have happened to me in the past or presence. One month later, my physical condition even got worse. I am having more problems now than before. I am now having to live with the perspective of at least once in my lifetime having to undergo a very difficult surgery with no guarantee that I would have to undergo this again afterwards. Not going to go into details which part of my body it is but for a man it's absolutely shocking. Since then, I have been living with a lot of pain every single day. And because of this new condition, I'm running out of time, because I don't want to undergo this surgery - but I feel the necessity of it is growing with great speed.I have been suffering from a lot of other chronic physical issues like migraines and back pain, but this new complication is really taking away a lot of my will to keep living, because I'm just 30 years old and you normally should not have these kinds of problems at my age. So I am asking myself, why does that happen, the very moment I seriously intended to change my life for the better after there had been a lot of "free wheel" and resignation in the previous years? Definitely feels like punishment for me.
