does anyone else feel excited when they think of suicide

[sevennn]

if i could do my plan easier i'd feel better about it. or if someone could help me... sigh. but yes i feel kind of giddy about it. because SOOO many stupid things in life i wont have to do anymore. this is truly the last fucking drop

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

I feel horrible sadness that my mental illness has taken everything from me and now wants my life.

No, not excited--But I was excited when the Nitrogen tank was delivered, my salvation, but that was years ago

How long does a nitrogen tank last for, do you know?