Does anyone else feel disconnected from everyone

[wildflowers1996]

I feel like I've been lonely my entire life. Never on anyone's wavelength. Never understood.

I know that's a sign of autism but I don't think I'm autistic either. I just feel so unreal. Like a ghost. I don't count as a person.

I crave connection SO badly.

 

[Throwawayacc3]

I feel like I've been lonely my entire life. Never on anyone's wavelength. Never understood.

I know that's a sign of autism but I don't think I'm autistic either. I just feel so unreal. Like a ghost. I don't count as a person.

I crave connection SO badly.

I don't know how old you are but I've been gas lighted to the MAX about this stuff. Getting checked autism wise at 30 fucking 5 years old.

- having intense feeling of certain subjects and hobbies
- hyperfocus
- introversion
- wanting lack of social cohesion
- difficulty understanding others

I mean that's a few out of pages of studies but have a check. Autism rates rocketed from around 1990 onwards. Ironically it's when pesticides and chemicals started to be used heavily in crops and food products in general. I'd say that is one factor.

 

[sserafim]

I feel like a ghost as well. I was always just there, and faded into the background. I feel disconnected from people too, I've never felt connected to anyone (I don't think I even want to though)

I don't know how old you are but I've been gas lighted to the MAX about this stuff. Getting checked autism wise at 30 fucking 5 years old.

- having intense feeling of certain subjects and hobbies
- hyperfocus
- introversion
- wanting lack of social cohesion
- difficulty understanding others

I mean that's a few out of pages of studies but have a check. Autism rates rocketed from around 1990 onwards. Ironically it's when pesticides and chemicals started to be used heavily in crops and food products in general. I'd say that is one factor.
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Someone posted something about amalgam fillings causing autism. I asked my mom if she got them, and she said that she probably did

 

[FuneralCry]

Certainly, I've always felt like that, but I don't want to relate to other people, I simply wish for eternal nothingness. I could never wish to suffer in this cruel and undesirable existence, I'm not meant to exist here, I'm only meant to be eternally at peace. In my case I'm certainly feel alone, I will always feel alone but not lonely.

 

[Final_Choice]

I feel the same way, which sucks because I feel like I shouldn't feel this way because I do have some friends, yet I always just feel so isolated no matter what. I've always felt as if I was just a background character or a ghost, watching everyone from the sidelines, completely unable to connect with them in some way.

 

[Dliena]

Me as well but what is even the point in establishing connections anyway when all it ever has done or mostly done just ends in tears? But I guess I'm just being too negative as usual I mean I suppose there are some hidden secret benefits to em that I'm too ignorant to see but I just ain't seeing them.

 

[thinvy]

I just started another depression pity cycle several hours ago thinking about this. I've been alone my whole life really. I've been isolated from so much, and the few times I've had something stable, it's been ripped apart from me the moment things started getting better.

I miss intimacy and human connection so dearly, but at the same time, the concept feels so foreign to me that it's too terrifying to actually go out and meet people. coming to this forum and talking as much as I have was a monumental effort for me.

 

[OICU812]

I'm starting to feel that way more and more now. I was so lonely the other night I started having a conversation with ChatGPT / Microsoft Copilot. I know I'll be single and lonely in the distant future, and AI will be my only companion.

 

[dragonofenvy]

I've been thinking about this to myself for ages but am too scared to try to do anything about it because of how often I've been burned making that attempt. It gets old talking to myself and stuffed animals and also makes me feel pathetic and insane. At least around here there are people to interact with even if sometimes those interactions aren't very good. Some of them are quite nice.

 

[Throwawayacc3]

I just started another depression pity cycle several hours ago thinking about this. I've been alone my whole life really. I've been isolated from so much, and the few times I've had something stable, it's been ripped apart from me the moment things started getting better.

I miss intimacy and human connection so dearly, but at the same time, the concept feels so foreign to me that it's too terrifying to actually go out and meet people. coming to this forum and talking as much as I have was a monumental effort for me.

I like your ferret profile picture :) . Would advise not getting one - they only live for about 3/4 years - can't deal with the pain of losing a creature you care for.

Yeah understand you. Was getting ok going to the animal sanctuary and helping out and having actual bonds with the animals (especially the birds and lemurs) but then it gets ripped away and back to shithole UK.

I'm starting to feel that way more and more now. I was so lonely the other night I started having a conversation with ChatGPT / Microsoft Copilot. I know I'll be single and lonely in the distant future, and AI will be my only companion.

I basically don't sleep. What's happened is my dog will end taking most of the bed to the point of me being nearly out of it. She'll stretch out and takes up a lot of room lol (she's a German pointer). But it's fine. She's getting old and starting to breathe heavy so I don't care if I don't sleep. She moves around a lot at night as dogs have multiple REM cycles unlike humans (we only have 1).

If you feed wild birds eventually they will go on a tree near you and know you aren't a threat (not land on you) but enough that they understand you are the "feed provider". Do that instead of AI stuff. It's not the typical "touch grass" which is rampant on YouTube. The phrase should be "interact with wildlife" . They basically are saying I appreciate you for providing this food and they'll chirp or bring there gang down to join in.

 

[glitteryaliens]

Yes but I feel like that stems from me being homeschooled more than anything. Not having had anyone to talk to except my parents makes me feel extremely disconnected from other people my age.

 

[pleroman]

You are certainly not alone in your feelings of disconnection among SaSu.

To be completely honest, it's more normal in today's world than not.
I say this because I am pretty old (40) and I remember times in my life where being out and about in public was just a more lively, authentic experience DESPITE being extremely introverted and never talking to anyone. Gradually with the internet, smartphones, and covid, the vibe changed. People still smile passing by, but rarely. It feels like we are all treating each other like threats and not community, regardless of your identity (gender/race/age/status). Like everyone has hyper-narcissistic hyper-vigilant self-righteous stick up their ass. Conversations are just straight up not as real anymore, authenticity has been drained. Political ambiguity and nuance is less accepted and you will be thrown into a bucket based on some algorithms in other people's head. Everyone is more afraid of judgement and simultaneously more judgmental than ever.
This could also just be paranoia and loss of innocence and being jaded as I have grown older and lost all my friends and both betrayed and been betrayed and just being an all-around worn-out soul.
However, I swear it just is not the same. Like public interactions just are not genuine anymore despite how many people and activities may seem to be going on there. Not that they were always everyone's cup of tea. But that's just the thing. It's worse now so most of us will retreat deeper into our shells.