does anyone else feel cursed?

[mangomango]

does anyone else feel personally victimized or cursed somehow? I swear, everything I do consistently goes to shit. I can't make money, I can't find a place to live, I can't make friends, I've literally never succeeded at anything in life. It's weird because the first 20-23 years of my life were honestly pretty great, and then one shitty thing happened and it's just been downhill ever since. In every way imaginable. my acne gets worse everyday. I'm always being stolen from. everything I try fails. I'd just like to have 1 thing go right y'know. Is that too much to ask for?

i guess im just venting but at this point im pretty sure i'm ready to end it all. but i worry even that will go wrong because everything does. i feel so trapped. help

 

[mojabaka]

Yes! Even though I don't believe in curses it definitely feels that way. I'm with you on the last point. The only reason I'm not gone yet is because I'm scared that that will go wrong too.

 

[flowersforalgernon:]

Yup, no way out and no way past it. It's a curse! I wish I could start my life again as a child.
I've not been well for months and some of the people I considered close friends haven't even checked up on me. Shit sucks

 

[mojabaka]

Yup, no way out and no way past it. It's a curse! I wish I could start my life again as a child.
I've not been well for months and some of the people I considered close friends haven't even checked up on me. Shit sucks

Are we the same person? Shit's just crazy accurate.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Yes I feel cursed since birth.

 

[savoytruffle]

yup, all the time, never leaves my head

 

[Ligottian]

If crappy genes count as a curse, yes.

 

[absolute]

does anyone else feel personally victimized or cursed somehow? I swear, everything I do consistently goes to shit. I can't make money, I can't find a place to live, I can't make friends, I've literally never succeeded at anything in life. It's weird because the first 20-23 years of my life were honestly pretty great, and then one shitty thing happened and it's just been downhill ever since. In every way imaginable. my acne gets worse everyday. I'm always being stolen from. everything I try fails. I'd just like to have 1 thing go right y'know. Is that too much to ask for?

i guess im just venting but at this point im pretty sure i'm ready to end it all. but i worry even that will go wrong because everything does. i feel so trapped. help

Yup, My first 30 years were better than great but the last 20 were shitty. I often wonder if my ex put a curse on me.

 

[flowersforalgernon:]

Are we the same person? Shit's just crazy accurate.

Sorry to hear you're in the same situation! It's just strange how fickle people can be, feels bad man

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case, I feel as though I am not meant for this world and I should have never existed in the first place. I was cursed as soon as I was born, things have always went wrong for me in life, and my life has always been only suffering, there is no way that it could have ever been different. I do not want to live at all though and I never have done, I just want to not exist.

 

[Trilucid]

I feel at times that I may have been "set up" from the start. That I never may have had a free choice of anything and that no matter what I do, it's always the same - The path of self destruction. Everywhere I turn that seems to follow me. Knowing that one day, I would have been so left behind that I could not recognize the person in the mirror. If that happens, then I guess cursed would be the definition of it, yes.

 

[TheLastFemaphrodyke]

I was delivered by my maternal grandmother and a nurse, on my grandmothers 33rd birthday, the nurse allowed my grandmother to take me away from my mother and hide me for several hours until after midnight so that my birth certificate would not have her birthday on it. She tortured and abused me from the time I was very small until I screamed so loud that my mother never made me stay with her ever again. Yes, I feel she cursed me. Her husband, my maternal grandfather was a big wig Mason at the time of my birth and apparently used his connections to keep the doctor from arriving until after midnight. Yes, I feel cursed and betrayed. I was always told how I ruined my grandmothers birthday party, but I was thirteen when she called and informed me that I had been born under special circumstances and insisted I question my mother but I was only allowed to ask yes or no questions of her while my grandmother was on the phone. Yes, when you run the numbers of my true birthdate and time and other numerology numbers and those special to Masonry, yes, I believe the bitch cursed me and now she is dead and I do not think I can rid myself of the curse, it has only worsened since her death due to severe PTSD.

In my case, I feel as though I am not meant for this world and I should have never existed in the first place. I was cursed as soon as I was born, things have always went wrong for me in life, and my life has always been only suffering, there is no way that it could have ever been different. I do not want to live at all though and I never have done, I just want to not exist.

me too

I feel at times that I may have been "set up" from the start. That I never may have had a free choice of anything and that no matter what I do, it's always the same - The path of self destruction. Everywhere I turn that seems to follow me. Knowing that one day, I would have been so left behind that I could not recognize the person in the mirror. If that happens, then I guess cursed would be the definition of it, yes.

me too

 

[Messgram]

yes, everything goes wrong for me, especially in the most important moments, I no longer believe it to be a coincidence but a curse.

 

[Seaghost]

Cursed? Yes here. Me! Where can I sign???
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[Fadeawaaaay]

Cursed by my own stupidity yes

 

[Lullaby]

Sometimes it feels like I'm being punished, which probably sounds crazy to some.

I'm not perfect, but it's rough when I get hurt by people and see them go on and just live a good life.

Then here I am, trying the best that I can and it feels like life is always throwing crap at me, and only gets more harder.

 

[Sunset Limited]

My whole life is like a bad joke.

 

[Al Cappella]

Put it this way, if I believed in reincarnation I'd be pretty certain I was a complete asshole in a former life—you know, squashing kittens and pooping on kids' ice cream cones…

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Did you ask if I feel cursed? Why? Did you put a curse on me? Well, you're too late. Someone else must have beaten you to it.

 

[its-about-time]

I don't feel cursed, feeling cursed would mean somebody else placed the curse on me, I take full responsibility for how shitty my life is. It's fully all my own fault. Whoopsies.

 

[Tiemblo]

I do since July 2017. We were a happy and regular family and diseases, deaths, divorces happens since then to many members of my family. I am now trapped in this life…

 

[FractalTears]

Yes i feel this way. There is no other way for me of solving this other than ctb.

 

[wait.what]

Kinda, yeah, although I don't really believe in curses like spells from an evil witch or something. Sometimes people just end up with the kind of problems that keep spiraling into other problems, though. Like I've had lousy physical and mental health for a very long time, and it all just gets worse and worse as I get older and more breakable.

 

[LONE WOLF.]

Am 100% Cursed! Being alone is the Worst curse that can be experienced! I keep looking at my way out and wondering if it's time to use it, but l don't want my housemate to find me deceased as she's so lovely and kind,l don't want to put that on her so l'm packing up my tent and camping gear and preparing to leave one night during the early hours! But haven't decided where to go to? I miss my Max so so much! I just want to be with him, but will ctb stop me joining him over the bridge??? My Tiny Brain is Mangled!

 

[Chronic]

Maybe...sometimes yes and sometimes no

 

[Efilismislife]

Yes! Even though I don't believe in curses it definitely feels that way. I'm with you on the last point. The only reason I'm not gone yet is because I'm scared that that will go wrong too.

same :( i dont believe in the superstitions but having many failures making me skeptical, pessimistic, anxious.
I dont seem to have a good luck although i hope i do. I want to have a good luck just how..? :(

 

[Hirokami]

Yes, yes I am. I'll never improve as a person because there always has to be something to cause me a great deal of misery. It all started will an alcoholic father and a mother who eventually turned narcissistic due to the pain she went through. It's as if I was cursed from birth. For all 26 years of my existence, I've felt nothing but pain and I don't see a way out of it.

 

[LucyB]

We are all "cursed." This is not the real world. What has been done to us is cowardly and unfair but I think we have the power to get out of this place. When it was time for people to realize what our real situation is (the year 2020) something happened and that something was the "pandemic" (one of the names for the "god" rulling this world is Pan). When they pulled off that ridiculous "Corona virus" dumb shit I lost all hope (Corona means crown and crown represents the angels halo). And just in case you still believe that mess was real...

The "curse" (the world) feeds off fear. So when the entire population becomes afraid of a virus we provide the prison (curse) with the power to keep us here. Our fear powers it. Ever seen the movie monsters Inc? No kid movie is just a made up cute story. They are all about us.

 

[WhyBotherAnymore?]

I'm definitely cursed too! I know that no matter what I do, I cannot win in life - make progress or change things. I too wish I hadn't been born - the whole thing has been utterly pointless ... and yet I'm still here??

 

[Deformationalplagio]

Born deformed ( severe plagiocephaly ) no clue in my teenage years had very long hair ( emo haircut ) thought i had eye problems hence maybe the reason why i always looked to my left. - got beaten at home only got food 3 times a week and not a lot - child protection put me away - 18 years old no roof above my head managed to get a small studio my boss at work helped me get it - 21 lost my job was home because i had a hearthbreak - 22 homeless again - 23 found a new job and new place ne gf - same year i started losing my hair - deformity got prominent gf left me - 24 thought i suffered from bdp 25 - went to check with a craniofacial surgeon i have officially a serious deformity - 26 no surgeon thinks surgery is neccesary google only gives possible treatment in kids younger then 2 - 27 deformity progressevly got worse even tho " plagio cant get worse " 29 - tried a go fund me, have no friends so 0 reaction, 30 im planning my suicide because there isnt anything keeping me here anymore hope is lost doctors still dont care ( deformity is cosmetic no insurance ). Yes im cursed