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Saponification

Saponification

A piece of nothing
Jun 27, 2024
185
Ocasionally, I get a sudden feeling of reality not being... well, real. I stop doing whatever I'm doing for a few seconds and as I look around me, "Wait, why the fuck does reality exist?"—I think. Shit starts to feel like some sort of fever dream.

It's especially strong when it "hits" me that I'm an ape on a rotating rock in the middle of space. My mind goes completely blank as I am reminded that my subjective experience is a result of chemical and physical processes that I don't and will never fully comprehend.

I just realized as I'm typing this that this is literally just called an existential crisis, lol. Anyhow, acknowledging the fact that I'll never know the answer to these questions is a big part of my constant existential anxiety.
 
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ijbolijbol8979

in need of iron
Jan 26, 2025
69
I get it a lot too, I experienced it in my episode where I ultimately lost my friend group. I don't know how to deal with it so I try to let it pass or get my dog to ground myself. Why does it even happen in the first place?
 
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Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Enlightened
Apr 21, 2025
1,492
What's going on in my mind feels more real sometimes.
 
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,822
Yes, the unreality of this reality hits me more often than not these days. Someone dear to me has a saying, "few of us know how little we know, to know just how little we know". In the end, everything is nothing, while the same nothing is everything we have, if that even makes sense. And it's the simple things that count, if only things were simple.
 
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katara

katara

tiktok.com/@katara3250
Mar 17, 2022
652
I've had this happen to me. It feels really creepy and uncomfortable. It's made me wonder if I was a mistake, or if this is a side effect of my bad health. When did it start for you? I've had it happen a few times and I assume it's because I can't handle the fact that my life is ruined.
 
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jenson

jenson

A loser who belongs nowhere
Jul 13, 2025
52
Happens all the time to me. I figure its either a coping mechanism when I can't deal with my life or a refusal to believe that the current situation is happening whether good or bad.
 
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jpeq

jpeq

Zombified and lingering in limbo 💤🧟
Jun 15, 2025
14
Happens to me a lot when I randomly (and only momentarily) snap out of dissociative fugue. I become way too aware of my surroundings and my own existence, always super off-putting
 
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bl33ding_heart

Borderline
Jun 24, 2025
597
Ocasionally, I get a sudden feeling of reality not being... well, real. I stop doing whatever I'm doing for a few seconds and as I look around me, "Wait, why the fuck does reality exist?"—I think. Shit starts to feel like some sort of fever dream.

It's especially strong when it "hits" me that I'm an ape on a rotating rock in the middle of space. My mind goes completely blank as I am reminded that my subjective experience is a result of chemical and physical processes that I don't and will never fully comprehend.

I just realized as I'm typing this that this is literally just called an existential crisis, lol. Anyhow, acknowledging the fact that I'll never know the answer to these questions is a big part of my constant existential anxiety.
I get something similar, it's like a weird surge of dread and feeling like my life is insignificant and doesn't truly matter.
 
Saponification

Saponification

A piece of nothing
Jun 27, 2024
185
I've had this happen to me. It feels really creepy and uncomfortable. It's made me wonder if I was a mistake, or if this is a side effect of my bad health. When did it start for you? I've had it happen a few times and I assume it's because I can't handle the fact that my life is ruined.
It started since I became suicidal ig. I don't really remember when. For me it must be a side effect of my existential constant anxiety.
I get something similar, it's like a weird surge of dread and feeling like my life is insignificant and doesn't truly matter.
I see. Personally it's not that I realize I'm insignificant, rather it's that I become hyper-aware of my surroundings and my own existence and become anxious as I acknowledge that I'll never fully understand this universe I was dragged into.
 

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