Venting Does anyone else don't care about how parents are going to feel when you ctb?

[Jengator]

I care even if my dad doesn't deserve it. I feel like part of him might even be grateful to finally get rid of the daughter he never wanted. I wish I didn't care.

Someone once told me its better to care than not care. To feel sorry for anyone who doesn't care. I know it's hard to think that way when caring can be very painful.

 

[dmsdnd18]

I think about how it would affect my mom often. I think she's the only reason i've made it this far. But i cant keep living, if you could even call it that, for her. I don't want to be here anymore. She's stronger than me so she'd be able to get through it better than i could.

 

[Hotsackage]

I'm sorry you're parents didn't appreciate you. I was fortunate enough to have very loving parents and I wouldn't have made it this far without them. The thought of what me ctb would do to my mother is one of the last real reasons I have left to live.

Mine to. My situation keeps getting worst but I made a promise not to ctb until they've passed

 

[Heart of Ice]

I don't care about the pain I'll cause. I'm mainly worried that my parents will think of me as a failure forever.

 

[morningdew]

feel bad for my dad. My mom was a good mom growing up but something is wrong with her. no connection her love for her kids any longer. So no, won't feel bad for my mom.

 

[Dreamwithinadream]

I don't care how they're going to feel. They never should have had children in the first place.

 

[Wayfaerer]

Not really, no. My parents have been the crux of my problems. My father's been dead for almost a decade now but I wish he were alive so he could experience it along with my dipshit mother.

 

[Marz]

I largely don't care about mine. If anything I worry how I will affect them financially but that's it. Both my parents were abusive and neglectful and are in general extremely immature mediocre people. They both have let me know all my life how much of a burden I have always been. I'll gladly free them of the weight my existence is. Sometimes I feel sociopathic by how little I care about how affected they'll be. But I still do not care.

 

[Kassender]

I used to care but its faded now

 

[jussrav]

Well no doubt that they would suffer a lot...
But it's my pain i'm concerned about.
Life sucks for me and it's very hard to find joy in being alive for me so i don't see why their pain matters more than mine.
So No, my parent's pain would be one of the last things i would consider before ctb.

Same my lifes unbearable. Pure torture.

Nope. I don't give a damn who cares. All I care about is not having a failed attempt

Same

 

[leloyon]

Nah. Fuck em. I wrote my note recently and at least half of it is just me telling them to go fuck themselves.

 

[cozse<3]

I don't care if my family misses me, and the one person I wish would care never will.

 

[turntechGodhead]

my parents were n still r not around at all so i don't care abt what they think abt what i hv done to myself i needed the peace

 

[ZedZeo]

The disowned family I have out there won't care. The most they'll do is act it up for the sympathy

The parents you watch cry online are sometimes the ones that caused it but they won't tell you how abusive they were

 

[deletednumber]

Nah. Fuck em. I wrote my note recently and at least half of it is just me telling them to go fuck themselves.

The disowned family I have out there won't care. The most they'll do is act it up for the sympathy

The parents you watch cry online are sometimes the ones that caused it but they won't tell you how abusive they were

I relate so much to this!!
My family actually can't wait for me to suicide finally...it's tragic and comic at the same time

 

[P@in]

I do care about those who care for me. I love my mother, she always was there for me.
My father on the other hand is selfish.

But my dilemma is this:
Do I have to suffer till the end of my life with the pain I bear (which is physical btw),
which makes me anxious too, just because of their feelings?

It's a hard decision to make.
My answer to my mom will be "If you love me, let me go"...

 

[BlazingBob]

I don't give a shit. They're awful people.

 

[Borderline]

I don't care.

 

[LikeAPendulum]

I have many reasons to do it. One of them, as i rationalized it, was that if a suicide bomber's: "I'm taking you down with me."

My fathers out of the picture. He's bailed out and is chasing women half his age. All I got is my mother, and she's as two-faced as I am. Must have inherited it from her. Many times I was fed up of her dictates and wanted closure. Wanted to convince her stubborn ass to let me… be free, simply. But every time a sadistic image of me punching her or anything came up, I restrained myself, knowing that I don't have to lay a finger on her to hurt her.

She's told me how she fantasized of me becoming rich and making us a lot of money so she can enjoy shopping at malls and etc. That's what I am to her. I know what it's like to lose a huge investment. It hurts more than a punch to the face.

 

[Costrecce]

They won't care much anyway. Mother would be glad and relieved I'm gone finally and won't make any more problems for her

 

[BlazingBob]

I have many reasons to do it. One of them, as i rationalized it, was that if a suicide bomber's: "I'm taking you down with me."

My fathers out of the picture. He's bailed out and is chasing women half his age. All I got is my mother, and she's as two-faced as I am. Must have inherited it from her. Many times I was fed up of her dictates and wanted closure. Wanted to convince her stubborn ass to let me… be free, simply. But every time a sadistic image of me punching her or anything came up, I restrained myself, knowing that I don't have to lay a finger on her to hurt her.

She's told me how she fantasized of me becoming rich and making us a lot of money so she can enjoy shopping at malls and etc. That's what I am to her. I know what it's like to lose a huge investment. It hurts more than a punch to the face.

Our parents sound a lot alike. My dad is also out of the picture. He truly doesn't give a shit if I live or die and in fact has encouraged me to ctb many times. My mom is not much better. She's a lying, two faced meth head. I've met ice cubes warmer than her.

 

[Aim]

I hope they will suffer, just like I have my whole life. No mather how cruel that is to say. I hate my looser parents.
I hope they will suffer, just like I have my whole life. No mather how cruel that is to say. I hate my looser parents.