does anyone else already have a note?

[takuyangel]

i've had a note saved on my phone from when i tried to kill myself all the way back in 2023. embarrassed to say, i can't believe it's been so long. it's honestly pathetic. though it wasn't even a real note really, just a message meant for the girl i'd loved at the time. at the same time i'd tried to record a video of myself to post before i'd died as a last message but i broke down during it and couldn't do it. as of more recently though, i don't even know if i'd leave one. maybe just specific final messages to some certain people. i can't see a meaning in anything past that. i'm not gonna cram a sob story down everyone's throat as a final attention plea, you know? why i feel the need to die is my business alone . people are already gonna assume whatever they want about it as it conforms to them, so be it, i think it's better off that way.

 

[Melancholys]

Yeah, I do already have one planned out and written, although I'm not sure how to make it visible to my family and friends, I wrote it on my phone, maybe I'll print it out. I think it makes it easier on the soul having it written before you do it, makes you know at least people will have something to read and remember you with.

Also I wouldn't say it's pathetic, love is a really strong thing and you're strong for keeping going as long as you have.

 

[CuckoosInvisible]

I've dabbled. But I've come to the conclusion that it's something I'm only gonna be able to do in the week leading up to it. Too many thoughts that may or may not be conclusive. I'll know what I want to say when it's almost time.

 

[UserFromNowhere]

Yes. I have a note sitting in a drawer that serves as my suicide note, one I wrote after discarding a previous one, and one I may discard in order to write a new one. It outlines my reasons for wanting to die and attempts to console the people in my life. But I don't know if I believe it's done or not. I know it's the note I will, as of this moment, be leaving behind if I am to die. But I don't know if it says what I want it to say.

 

[Webcore]

I've written one at least several different times. Kinda stupid of me, I always delete it once I feel like I'm "recovered" from an attempt

 

[Forever Sleep]

I have a few notes drafted in a journal.

 

[aesthetic]

the only thing i'll leave behind before i kill myself is a goodbye thread.

 

[SASU-KE]

I have a recorded video on my cell phone saying a bunch of last words. This will be attached and sent to people if and when it's time.

I've done it in advance cause I don't want my emotional state at the end to affect what I say.I want my words and feelings expressed clearly.

 

[mayachcos]

I've written many notes over the past 4 years whenever I've felt suicidal. Every single time. what I want to say changes. I feel like no matter what I write, I'll be unhappy with its contents so I'm not really thinking too hard about it.

 

[Forveleth]

I have written several over the years. I keep shredding and rewiring them as my thoughts change. At this pint I am not sure I even want to leave one.

 

[castlebravo]

Sort of. It's more of a "if you're reading this, then I'm dead kind of thing". I have a note that has all my family's info, financial, insurance etc. so they have it when I die. It's not a suicide note. Just a goodbye, I loved being your dad/husband message.

 

[Fresh Soju]

I've written some at times when inspiration strikes, some are in Korean, some are in English, kinda depends on my mood.

The theme kinda varies as well. It's either revenge-vibes or talking about the pain I've endured or talking about how cruel and dark this world is and just not wanting to be in this world because of that.

 

[Unsure and Useless]

I only wrote one, but I feel like it's too inadequate because I have so many things to say to so many different people. Hell, I even want a note sent to the entire world 'cause I'm a narcissist like that

 

[snowboard9098]

I don't have a real note, but I have drafts of what I'd send to people who'd wonder what happened.

 

[Katakuri19]

Don't plan on leaving a note at all, maybe something like "it's no one's fault but my own" to decrease any possible feelings of guilt anyone might feel about it.

 

[charlavail]

I've written several notes and recorded a lot of videos. Multiple times a week I think to myself my notes aren't good enough and try to rewrite them. it's a little cathartic

 

[endeledestein]

i dont have anyone to leave notes to... ill just write a short post on reddit or here crying one last time about how lonely i am and thats it... and nobody will give a shit either.. just like the with the rest...

 

[thevoidpointer]

i've had a note saved on my phone from when i tried to kill myself all the way back in 2023. embarrassed to say, i can't believe it's been so long. it's honestly pathetic. though it wasn't even a real note really, just a message meant for the girl i'd loved at the time. at the same time i'd tried to record a video of myself to post before i'd died as a last message but i broke down during it and couldn't do it. as of more recently though, i don't even know if i'd leave one. maybe just specific final messages to some certain people. i can't see a meaning in anything past that. i'm not gonna cram a sob story down everyone's throat as a final attention plea, you know? why i feel the need to die is my business alone . people are already gonna assume whatever they want about it as it conforms to them, so be it, i think it's better off that way.

I have one that I drafted on notebook paper a few days ago but it's really messy
Might get rid of it but I'm not sure yet

 

[TheFeltIsFelting]

i've been thinking about what i'm gonna write. i'll probably write a thorough note, upload it to a pastebin or something and share it in my personal social media, then 2 or 3 notes for my close friends, and then one note for the cops/medical staff (as in "i, XXXXXX, have willingly chosen to kill myself. i did it at XX:XXam/pm, used X method and blablabla", just in case it looks like an accident or something (depending on the method i end up using, obviously)

 

[Red.one]

I still have my note. I wrote it on the last page of my English lessons notes.
It was just:
"Kurwa.
Please don't blame yourself.
I love you."

I left a notebook folded open on my bed, it was supposed to be to my mother. After I came back home from hospital the notebook was closed on my desk, I think she didn't noticed it (mostly because she had no idea it was a suicide attempt when I was sent to IR).