Does anyone actually dream about their depression while they're asleep?

[Sweet emotion]

My depression has engulfed my life so badly that I actually dream about it. I have Complex Regional Pain Syndrome which is the highest ranking pain condition in medical history. And in my dreams I find myself trying to explain it to people and they actually don't believe me just like in real life. I will even hear myself talking in my sleep describing what it is to other people and why I can't do certain things. It's sick! Sleeping is a time where we should have some damn peace but I can't even have that in my dreams anymore. This disease has infected every part of my life to the point that I'm dreaming about it. Does this happen to anyone else?

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

I have dreams like this where I am in a crowded room of people like.. At a stand up comedian show. And it's me at the mic. Explaining everything and why I hurt and why they should understand... It may not be real but these dreams are humiliating...

 

[Sweet emotion]

I have dreams like this where I am in a crowded room of people like.. At a stand up comedian show. And it's me at the mic. Explaining everything and why I hurt and why they should understand... It may not be real but these dreams are humiliating...

Oh sweetie I'm so sorry. I know it's awful. I have people that fight back at me in my dreams that my condition isn't that serious and they don't believe me.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

Oh sweetie I'm so sorry. I know it's awful. I have people that fight back at me in my dreams that my condition isn't that serious and they don't believe me.

I'm so sorry you deal with this.. I know I am a new user but I think about you every day since I've joined. You just seem so genuinely kind, yet punished for your kindness. It is not fair.. I wish you didn't live so far. I have no friends here who are dealing with neverending chronic agony. I used to draw and now my wrists don't work well... Nobody local understands or even tries to. It's always "Well my sisters friend had that and she did this and it changed her life." yeah, sorry lady but I've tried everything. Would love to have some support from a fellow sufferer.

 

[LastFlowers]

Yes. The distress bleeds into my sleeping brain so even my dreams begin to mimic my waking reality.
Sometimes there is no escape, not even when we should be at rest.
I do wish we could at least have some peace while asleep.

 

[BPD_LE]

My partner had to wake me up last week because I was crying in my sleep. No tears, just wailing. I often shout, scream and curse but it's the first time I've ever cried. Sleep isn't peaceful for me.

 

[LastFlowers]

My partner had to wake me up last week because I was crying in my sleep. No tears, just wailing. I often shout, scream and curse but it's the first time I've ever cried. Sleep isn't peaceful for me.

Terrible you had to be awoken because it was so bad, I find that many people here do not get enough sleep as is.
I have begun to claw myself in my sleep. I started to get weird sore like scratches and I didn't know what it was until I woke up one time in the midst of doing it. Mostly at my neck.
I think I was trying to claw my way out of my own flesh, since that's what caused my distress. Even in my dreams, I am trying to set myself free.

 

[Relief]

I only dream about killing myself. That's the only way I can fall asleep. Although, as soon as I wake up it's the worst feeling because I realize I didn't actually die and have yet another day of nothingness ...

 

[Kassender]

I'm always having the same kind of dreams lately.

The who and where are different but it always ends up with me being berated or rejected.
Or i'm supposed to do something and i can't remember what and i panic. Or i'm lost somewhere looking for a friend who never wants to be found.
Oh yeah, also, family members screaming at me.

I've heard people say waking up is depressing because their dreams are always better than waking life, but mine have been so fucking depressing lately.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I dreamt about Boris Johnson last night. He was drunk in a busy pub and gave me his hat. David Cameron theatened to have me killed if I had a beer with BoJo

 

[WirriumDank]

I keep reliving flashes of the people I cared about that are now gone. I keep getting flashes of guilty moments from the things I've done or said that drove said people away, and only recently I keep seeing the exact moment when my mother passed away so I usually don't sleep that much anymore.

I'm so sorry you deal with this.. I know I am a new user but I think about you every day since I've joined. You just seem so genuinely kind, yet punished for your kindness. It is not fair.. I wish you didn't live so far. I have no friends here who are dealing with neverending chronic agony. I used to draw and now my wrists don't work well... Nobody local understands or even tries to. It's always "Well my sisters friend had that and she did this and it changed her life." yeah, sorry lady but I've tried everything. Would love to have some support from a fellow sufferer.

I know right? One of her first posts was actually the first post I saw when I joined this forum. It was a post about her condition and it broke my heart as I scroll down seeing her fight through her own pain and sadness just to make sure others feel better. It's really contagious.

 

[charlottewilts]

I only dream about killing myself. That's the only way I can fall asleep. Although, as soon as I wake up it's the worst feeling because I realize I didn't actually die and have yet another day of nothingness ...

same here. i have had and continue to have so, so many dreams in which i died... stabbed, shot, killed by explosives, dissolved in acid, you name it... it's cruel, having to go through that pain - even if it's imaginary - and then to wake up and have to keep being alive...

 

[Gorgon]

Every night I wake up and jump out of bed drenched in sweat freaking out. I hate it I go through like 3 blankets a night and it doesnt matter if its 50° in here I still so terrified I sweat like so much

 

[Castles]

Every night I wake up and jump out of bed drenched in sweat freaking out. I hate it I go through like 3 blankets a night and it doesnt matter if its 50° in here I still so terrified I sweat like so much

I thought that was only me