I failed because the rope did unknot itself during my unconsciousness. I also can do that stuff, when I feel somewhat tired (in a sleepy sense). Sorry, but it was hurtful for me. I can't withstand long pain. I am sensitive of pain. I cannot withstand it long. Needles that sting you during blood work are my limit already.
This which one of many reasons make me more angry and helpless. Like I have two battles. Two fronts I have to fight. With me and with society, which make it hard in different ways. Like this method is available, but my body makes it nearly impossible. Other stuff where body is OK, is not available, because society says No. It's like being in jail. AND one is harassed by other inmates and the jail employees/security at the same time.