Does anybody here feel like they could get a job if they tried but don't want to ?

[Painless_end]

I just detest the idea of having to work. I can't imagine myself enjoying it or even tolerating it. I have a few years of work experience but I don't want to extend it anymore.

For years, I have wanted to CTB but I couldn't. I just don't wanna work at all.

I would rather die than work.

 

[SoDead]

I often feel like I can finally quit my sickening job, after so many years of suffering because of it, and start countdown to death. But in fact I cannot make this decision and instead quietly sabotage the job and wait when they fire me for that. This world of forced labor is hell.

 

[Deleted member 8579]

What's the point of getting a job if it can't even afford you a place to live on your own?
So many people grind and toil and still need to put up with roommates or a long commute because their salary is not sufficient to live on their own in relative proximity to their workplace. The only jobs that accomplish that are highly specialised and require several years of training, a workload that is only bearable if you have some basic drive or ambition, which I completely lack. Therefore, if presented with the choice of working an underappreciated, badly paid job that will have next to no impact on my life, or not working at all, I would always chose the second option. This is, admittedly, a luxury not everyone can afford.
It is the usual conundrum: If you don't work, you're a "drain on society" and a "parasite", but if you want to work, you'll have to beg for it and pretend to be someone you are not. The only jobs you don't have to beg for are those where you will be treated like a subhuman and looked down upon. If society really wanted everyone to contribute, it would make working more attractive. Currently, the system relies on the desperation of people in less fortunate positions than my own. I wouldn't mind working per se, I am just very much opposed to the current conditions under which you are expected to do so.

 

[MeltedJello]

A part of me says I could, but I don't think I'll be able to hold one longer than a few days. Any job sounds too stressful to me, and if I make one mistake, I'll beat myself up to the point where I'll just quit. I have pretty bad anxiety, so talking to people irl is a challenge too. I just hate how everyone is forced to work in order to survive. It's pointless to get one imo, since I'm going to ctb.

 

[toforigivelife]

What's the point of getting a job if it can't even afford you a place to live on your own?
So many people grind and toil and still need to put up with roommates or a long commute because their salary is not sufficient to live on their own in relative proximity to their workplace. The only jobs that accomplish that are highly specialised and require several years of training, a workload that is only bearable if you have some basic drive or ambition, which I completely lack. Therefore, if presented with the choice of working an underappreciated, badly paid job that will have next to no impact on my life, or not working at all, I would always chose the second option. This is, admittedly, a luxury not everyone can afford.
It is the usual conundrum: If you don't work, you're a "drain on society" and a "parasite", but if you want to work, you'll have to beg for it and pretend to be someone you are not. The only jobs you don't have to beg for are those where you will be treated like a subhuman and looked down upon. If society really wanted everyone to contribute, it would make working more attractive. Currently, the system relies on the desperation of people in less fortunate positions than my own. I wouldn't mind working per se, I am just very much opposed to the current conditions under which you are expected to do so.

It's as if the system is encouraging those who are not upper middle class or wealthy to die off.

On top of that, trying to hold down a job when you're severely depressed or have severe anxiety can be hell.

I hope you find a way to support yourself so that you can find the living conditions that you need. You can look into doing home based work, I don't know if that helps.



I agree Curious89 . I hate having a job, I hate having to work. Hate it.

Like most people if I could earn a livable wage by doing things I enjoy and do it on my own terms then working would be a much happier experience.

Although when you have clinical depression, you can't think of a single thing that interests you or that you'd enjoy. Except maybe being an opiate quality tester. With clinical depression you don't even want anything.

I've taken a job as a third shift stocker at Walmart. My only motivation is that, as far as my family is concerned, it is just not the right for me to catch the bus.

I'm just focusing on the next 12 months. Maybe even less time than that.

I function better at night and dealing with people and customers face to face for hours just isn't my strength. So hopefully this will work out until I can find something that allows me to work from home and hopefully I can find a little place of my own.

Unless my quality of life magically improves over the coming months, hopefully this will give me a chance to solidify my final arrangements.

Maybe working from home would be helpful to you.

I hope things get better for you.

Not having money you can live off of really s*cks.

 

[supermario]

For those that want to work from home, I think starting a blog is a viable route. I have friends that make decent money from that. Just research "niche sites" on Google.

 

[willitpass]

i work at an ice cream shop in a leadership position. i actually really enjoy my job. it makes me feel as though my life isn't completely meaningless

 

[thisplaceisaprison]

Where/how do you guys live if you aren't working? I just recently got a job again but I agree, way back when my parents were in their teens people could work on a gas station wage full time and afford a house.
And to go to college

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I just detest the idea of having to work. I can't imagine myself enjoying it or even tolerating it. I have a few years of work experience but I don't want to extend it anymore.

For years, I have wanted to CTB but I couldn't. I just don't wanna work at all.

I would rather die than work.

Absolutely. I know that I'm probably supposed to feel guilty about that. But it is what it is. In fact, I really can't even imagine working at some kind of job. I'm sure I would be entirely incompetent and get fired rather quickly. But I can't actually imagine even getting hired. I would rather just run down the clock and then chug some SN. My life is pretty much been a total failure anyway. At this late date I can't imagine things changing very much.

i work at an ice cream shop in a leadership position. i actually really enjoy my job. it makes me feel as though my life isn't completely meaningless

That's cool.

 

[HappyPotato]

I'm so socially awkward and unable to talk to people that I know I won't be qualified for a job. the job I have right now is working at my family resturant. it's a small resturant. we are literally losing customers because I'm so awkward and don't know how to be friendly and make a connection with customers. customers don't come back. I'm fucking my family over. I have no where to go. I need to ctb. I won't survive in this world.

 

[Snake of Eden]

36 depressed autistic sever autoimmune skin condition low self esteem with two degrees did work different things from high paying job to labor. Hated it all. No thank you. Dealing with people in professional setting? no thank you. Neet now living with parents for a year. I will keep it that way until i die. Why? Many many reasons lets just put it that way

 

[Deadweight]

I'm like you, 36 living at home. I get a disability pension to contribute to the upkeep and my mum doesn't mind having me around, I think she'd be lonely without me.

But I just don't have any desire to participate in the world, or even live. I live comfortably in a gilded cage, but that won't last forever. I'd rather just call it sooner than later

 

[obliviousatbest]

It's so hard to function in the real world when nothing feels real enough to truly care about. I have fleeting moments of realising the truth and pushing for a better life but i always end up back in this melancholy place, dissociated and without the energy to be consistently worthwile to society.

 

[lotus11]

What's the point of getting a job if it can't even afford you a place to live on your own?
So many people grind and toil and still need to put up with roommates or a long commute because their salary is not sufficient to live on their own in relative proximity to their workplace. The only jobs that accomplish that are highly specialised and require several years of training, a workload that is only bearable if you have some basic drive or ambition, which I completely lack. Therefore, if presented with the choice of working an underappreciated, badly paid job that will have next to no impact on my life, or not working at all, I would always chose the second option. This is, admittedly, a luxury not everyone can afford.
It is the usual conundrum: If you don't work, you're a "drain on society" and a "parasite", but if you want to work, you'll have to beg for it and pretend to be someone you are not. The only jobs you don't have to beg for are those where you will be treated like a subhuman and looked down upon. If society really wanted everyone to contribute, it would make working more attractive. Currently, the system relies on the desperation of people in less fortunate positions than my own. I wouldn't mind working per se, I am just very much opposed to the current conditions under which you are expected to do so.

Very well written post, I agree with all that you said here

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I'm sure I could get some type of job. Driving a delivery truck. Working as a cashier. Training to be a truck driver. No thank you. Would much rather be gone.

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

no. i don't work well with others and i can't stick to a schedule. also i have no energy like at all. i'm on disability for those reasons.

 

[g0921]

I mean... i can and I will if I am desperate.

My dream is to be an artist/ illustrator and build up my own brand, taking commissions and selling my own works online. I am not even asking to be anything big, I just want the money to be enough for basic living. I even don't mind for work part-time artist/ design related job just to keep the dream going.
Sadly...part-time positions are so few and very comparative (also sadly I don't have a top range portfolio) ; and the full time job would 100% kill all efforts to do my own art.

Of course, I can work fulltime to build someone else dream for living wage.
But then what is the point of my life?

 

[meetapple]

For those that want to work from home, I think starting a blog is a viable route. I have friends that make decent money from that. Just research "niche sites" on Google.

I am a person who hates dealing with other people. But part of the reason I would get a job would be to get accustomed to being around people so the rest of my life wouldn't be so filled with dread of social interactions.

I'm so socially awkward and unable to talk to people that I know I won't be qualified for a job. the job I have right now is working at my family resturant. it's a small resturant. we are literally losing customers because I'm so awkward and don't know how to be friendly and make a connection with customers. customers don't come back. I'm fucking my family over. I have no where to go. I need to ctb. I won't survive in this world.

My last job was working for my father who was an orthopedic surgeon. He retired eleven years ago. I haven't worked since. It would be much harder working for people I don't know. I hope I can make vast improvements in my situation by the time my parents pass away.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I feel the exact same way. Even when I do apply to places I don't get any interviews and even when I get interviews I just end up canceling them because the idea of working fills me with dread. I'm only holding things together relatively now because I don't do any work.

I've had people say that I'll only ever be able to get a gf if I have a job but realistically no job I could get would be attractive to anyone anyway plus if people are only going to love me for my job then it's not worth it.

 

[Beeper]

I'm only holding things together relatively now because I don't do any work.

I can relate to this.

I have some element of stability when I am not working. I'd probably continue to be fine if I didn't have to work.

I just can't seem to find sufficient coping mechanisms or medications that allow resilience to stress.

Best wishes to you.

 

[HappyPotato]

I am a person who hates dealing with other people. But part of the reason I would get a job would be to get accustomed to being around people so the rest of my life wouldn't be so filled with dread of social interactions.

My last job was working for my father who was an orthopedic surgeon. He retired eleven years ago. I haven't worked since. It would be much harder working for people I don't know. I hope I can make vast improvements in my situation by the time my parents pass away.

i hope you find some way to make improvements in your life. I also need to get my shit together before my parents go.

 

[Blue_mist]

Getting and keeping a job is the reason why I'm suffering. I grew up in a wealthy family back home and didn't have to work until i left everything behind and came to Canada as LGBTQ2 refugee few years ago. I was fooled by the human Rights bs and i thought i would live normally. But that was not the case. I had to work low paying jobs to support myself. Now the constant feeling of not being able to work due to my mental illness(clinical depression, GAD, social anxiety) and lack of self-esteem is killing me. I quit my last job last month on the 3rd day because i got extremely stressed out and panicked. I was dripping sweat as if someone threw bucket full of water at me. I regret my decision leaving my family and my country but it's too late, and there is no way back for me now. I would be ok to feel rejected and forsaken again but at least i would have some sense of security. The only reason for my desire to ctb is that I'm terrified of becoming homeless even if i own a house now but i keep thinking how I'm going to afford property taxes. They will take my house from me if i can't afford the taxes. My biggest dream for now is just one thing : getting a job that i enjoy and feel comfortable with even if it was minimum wage because it would be livable wage not having to pay rent. That would be a solution to all of my problems.
I have an appointment next month with an organization which helps disabled people finding jobs,hopefully they will be able to help me.

Sorry for the long post and my bad English. :)

 

[valentine]

the last time i had a job it made me so depressed i tried to ctb. the job itself was awful and stressful, and i spent all my free time dreading going back to work.
it doesn't help that i dropped out of high school and have barely any experience. the jobs i'm qualified for are all awful.
i just live with my mom and she doesn't mind. it's really hard to see my friends moving on with their lives and i'm still stuck in the same place.