I had a doctors appointment today. The first since I was 13 and it actually did something?
First thing is I've been put on fluoxetine.
If anyone knows if it's true it causes weight gain please let me know.
I feel like I don't need it because things are okay right now and I feel like I'm faking how I feel.
The doctor was lovely and very maternal with me. She gave me the whole lecture about how my mum will have to live with the pain of losing me for the rest of her life. I'm sure you know that whole thing.
She said I was very well "put together" because I was dressed up. She asked about fiends, boyfriend or girlfriend.
I told her I didn't have any. (Half lie half truth)
She also asked if I believed in god. I said no. She asked if I'm scared of what comes after death I said no. She said it terrifies her.
It was heavily suggested I go to a therapist but I'm to scared to. I can barely describe my feelings on here. So I'm not sure how I feel about that.
I have to go back in 2 weeks. She said to think of the appointment as if I'm not allowed to cancel (unless I really have to)
I'm not sure how I feel about everything. I think it will be a never ending cycle of being okay then not being okay and then having an active suicidal brain that will lead to an attempt then 5 minutes after the attempt everything will be okay again.
First thing is I've been put on fluoxetine.
If anyone knows if it's true it causes weight gain please let me know.
I feel like I don't need it because things are okay right now and I feel like I'm faking how I feel.
The doctor was lovely and very maternal with me. She gave me the whole lecture about how my mum will have to live with the pain of losing me for the rest of her life. I'm sure you know that whole thing.
She said I was very well "put together" because I was dressed up. She asked about fiends, boyfriend or girlfriend.
I told her I didn't have any. (Half lie half truth)
She also asked if I believed in god. I said no. She asked if I'm scared of what comes after death I said no. She said it terrifies her.
It was heavily suggested I go to a therapist but I'm to scared to. I can barely describe my feelings on here. So I'm not sure how I feel about that.
I have to go back in 2 weeks. She said to think of the appointment as if I'm not allowed to cancel (unless I really have to)
I'm not sure how I feel about everything. I think it will be a never ending cycle of being okay then not being okay and then having an active suicidal brain that will lead to an attempt then 5 minutes after the attempt everything will be okay again.
