Do your loved ones (friends included) know you're a member of this forum?

[motel rooms]

My partner knows & he claims he's okay with it. He knows my story & it's not like I can hide the fact that I have C-PTSD & hypersexual disorder & that my life isn't terribly fun from him. We don't sleep in the same room because I don't want my nightmares to wake him up. I leave our bed when he falls asleep.

Maybe telling him was a mistake. He might decide to spy on us out of curiosity. He might even realize that he's passively suicidal himself. He's certainly more self-destructive than me. Also, I'm pretty sure he isn't fully pro-choice. I don't want to have that discussion with him, our lives are complicated enough already.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

My wife and my coworkers all know that I browse SaSu.

 

[motel rooms]

My wife and my coworkers all know that I browse SaSu.

What if they all disappear on you because of it?

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

No one in my personal life knows. I'd have cops at my door dragging me to the psych ward if they did know.

 

[Bone]

Well it's not like you're a minor member here. If you are concerned about that I'd delete this thread. Much love and always enjoy your thoughts and posts.

 

[Hans Voralberg]

Some of my closest friends know that I attempted CTB and auto agression few times but no one must know I actively participate in this forum. I would go to a psychiatrist for this, broke my plans for future and get very big stigma if my parent or university would know. By the way I also have hypersexuality I thinking it was a coping mechanism for me because emotionally violence in childhood Now it just integral part of my personality which can't be removed. I try to accept and love myself my brain and my body but it is very hard sometimes. I'm glad that I'm not the only one who try to cope with this. That I'm not alone with this.

 

[Pluto]

I only have 2 friends close enough to tell. They've taken it pretty well. I wish it were socially acceptable to speak out more, as I'm quietly very pleased at finally finding a place where I belong.

 

[Circles]

No one knows. And I have no friends so. :/

 

[motel rooms]

If you are concerned about that I'd delete this thread.

Yeah, that's a very good point. Maybe I actually want him to read this. I've been giving him English lessons against his will lately.

 

[motpmys]

No one knows because I don't want anyone to worry about me, and I don't want to end up in a psychiatric ward either

 

[A_miStake_of_NATURE]

He wanted me to leave this place….. And I did. It was my choice, but I've been forced to make a choice. Now I have another void I cannot fill.
My mom and my friend know and they couldn't care less.

 

[Disco Biscuit]

What are these "loved ones" you speak of? How does one go about getting these?

 

[narval]

My sister knows. She knows i'm very fucked and i'm "in s forum related to suicide". Luckily also knows that spread the info would be disastrous.

 

[Insomniac]

Yes.

 

[xLosthopex]

I'm sure they all have an idea but don't necessarily know the exact name of the forum, even my therapist knows
I've always been very open about discussing the subject of ctb, probably too open haha

 

[DunnoWhyButYeah]

Yeah. My friend and love knows that I'm here and I know that they both are here too. It's easier somehow that way... I don't talk about this site at all with them. And it was accident that I found out my friend is here too... Ofc I'm little worried sometimes what I write here and what they think about that, but those things are what I'm thinking so they can just accept it or leave me. Whatever.

 

[Marktheghost]

I haven't got anyone to tell. If I did I'd be OK about telling them though.

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

They don't know the name, but every person I've been close to knows the nature of the place.

 

[Rational man]

My partner knows & he claims he's okay with it. He knows my story & it's not like I can hide the fact that I have C-PTSD & hypersexual disorder & that my life isn't terribly fun from him. We don't sleep in the same room because I don't want my nightmares to wake him up. I leave our bed when he falls asleep.

Maybe telling him was a mistake. He might decide to spy on us out of curiosity. He might even realize that he's passively suicidal himself. He's certainly more self-destructive than me. Also, I'm pretty sure he isn't fully pro-choice. I don't want to have that discussion with him, our lives are complicated enough already.

The situation here is your story has been told. No- one really knows how others might respond. !?. Ive told no-one. I mean do we really fully know some one?. Are people impulsive enough to report me to the authorities because here in UK, we have enough ' thought police' roaming the internet, that I shouldn't be at all surprised if the paddywagon comes for me. But what does a sane man do?. He remains silent !.

 

[ClownMe]

None of my family know, not that they would care anyway, and I dont have any good friends to tell.

 

[HiImPaul]

Nope, they don't even know I've ever thought about ctb.

 

[demuic]

Only my best (and only) friend knows. He's also depressed/suicidal but doesn't have an account here. I linked him to some threads sometimes.

 

[haibiantou]

No one knows and I don't want anyone to know. I have a separate email address that I only use for this and another pro-choice forum.

 

[again_noidea]

Only one person knows about it, that's a woman, we are friends, and sometimes we fuck each other. She understands since she knows these thoughts and wishes.

 

[Starryeyes]

My psychiatrist nurse knows and so does my partner. Just told them it's a support forum

 

[WhatDoesTheFoxSay?]

No. Thank goodness. Some things are better left unsaid, and I'm not one to let others, even the ones who are closest to me, know more than they should.

Had a close call earlier this year. It's the reason why I browse SaSu only on mobile nowadays.

 

[willitpass]

absolutely no one knows and no one will ever know. if anyone knew they would commit me and never let me on the internet again

 

[forgotten15]

No one knows. And I have no friends so. :/

Same here…

 

[miserableforever]

My partner knows & he claims he's okay with it. He knows my story & it's not like I can hide the fact that I have C-PTSD & hypersexual disorder & that my life isn't terribly fun from him. We don't sleep in the same room because I don't want my nightmares to wake him up. I leave our bed when he falls asleep.

Maybe telling him was a mistake. He might decide to spy on us out of curiosity. He might even realize that he's passively suicidal himself. He's certainly more self-destructive than me. Also, I'm pretty sure he isn't fully pro-choice. I don't want to have that discussion with him, our lives are complicated enough already.

My bf knows. He's a little worried about me sometimes, but I think he's also relieved I have this site to go to when I'm at my worst.

 

[Squiddy]

Some of my mental health team knows I'm on it and don't really want me on it, but they know why