Do you want your passing to make a difference, or do you just want to go?

[It’s Time To Go]

Personally, I want those (probably won't get all of them) who have failed me to be brought to justice.

There will be a coroner's inquest, and when they read through my lengthy file, it will hi light just how severely I've been failed.

It will also (hopefully) put the spotlight on EUPD/BPD, and how we are demonised/brushed aside.

That knowledge alone, will help me to overcome SI at that crucial moment.

Having said that, they all cover each other's backs, so no doubt no one will be held accountable.

At least I'll be free from this cruel world.

 

[FuneralCry]

I just want to leave this world and be forgotten about, like I never existed at all. In an ideal world I would love to completely disappear. I do not care about how others react after my death as I will not be there to see it.

 

[Al Cappella]

Well, I'm older, and so I see there's no point in doing something like ctb to get at others. I'll do it if/when it makes sense to my life. As for BPD, I'd be inclined to make a statement by surviving it, living despite having it, and maybe going on to help others experiencing a difficult life.

 

[EndofEternity]

Personally, I'd rather just go. I don't want to send a message to anyone, or get back at anyone who has wronged me. I just want it all to end. I would hope that my end would prompt more research on my illnesses, AvPD especially, but realistically, I know that probably won't happen.

 

[Hurt]

I don't think I could make a difference. I'm so insignificant to this world. There's nothing good in it. War, poverty, corrupt politicians. All these leads to my hopelessness. I'm just a grain of sand. So I just want to cease to exist and that's all.

 

[HappyForever?]

It's highly unlikely, but I'd like them to see the evil that everyone is mindlessly perpetrating, and how it turned a perfectly healthy and happy individual into someone dying from loneliness.

 

[myopybyproxy]

I want everyone to know that I purposely did not use a firearm although I easily could have. I don't want to give ammunition - pardon the pun - to those who hold values I don't. Restrictive policies will not stop violence, nor will it lower the suicide rate. But any contributing statistic will likely be used to fuel the fire and I don't wish to be a statistic in this cause.

Society needs to change its views on both suicide and self defence. If other countries followed Belgium and Swizerland, the rates of suicide with firearms would probably drop as a more peaceful method would be accepted and more widely used. Criminals who will use firearms for nefarious purposes are not obtaining their weapons legally - making anything illegal never stopped people from doing it. In any area you can think of - drugs, abortion, suicide, weapons - prohibition doesn't work. We've seen it time and again throughout history - as recent as last century. We silly humans never learn.

 

[Of The Universe]

I dont want to go! But life is over for me,and I don't want to spend years of hardship and gloom only to be told one day,"You've got cancer. Don't worry,we'll do six months of radiation,chemo,operations...it'll be hell,pure hell,and you will be broke and homeless,but you'll be alive!"

 

[OnlyTheWind]

I want my crush to know about my suicide and hopefully feel really sad about it because she actually knew I liked her back in high school, and even some years ago when I was in town, she recognized me and locked eyes, even though we never spoke.

 

[watchingthewheels]

I used to think that if I CTB, it would not be without having some bigger meaning to the world. Now, it's for my own peace.

 

[markimobzzdeasui]

It won't matter at the end. Those who were responsible for bringing me to this state will never get caught and there will be no justice. Also going by the standards and parameters of this world, I am just a loser, liability and another number in the statistical books so I don't have the privilege of anyone missing me. Only solace for me is that I will cease to exist and thus will be at peace.

 

[solisoccasus]

All I think about is going. It would never mean anything to anyone coz even now that I need someone no ine is there. So nothing would change if I go. It's as if i don't exist.

 

[VoidDesirer22]

Don't even remotely have the energy to stage some meaningful departure. I just want to go as soon as absolutely possible (peacefully, I might add).

 

[waitingforrest]

I don't really expect to leave a a difference. People in my country don't care when existed, they probably won't when I am gone. I will most likely be another sad story that people use to fuel their social standings.

I would rather be forgotten than being used as a free pity card for other people.

 

[yeh it's all gucci]

I just want to disappear, like I was never here. I wish no one would ever find out that I'd died and there would be no funeral. I severed ties with my family 3 years ago so they could forget I existed already. There's only one person I'm friends with in the entire world that I care if they're upset, I don't want them to be hurt.
Realistically outside of that one person, who lives in another state, people would only realise I've died when I don't show up for work, even then, who knows if they would bother to check, probly just think I've quit without saying anything. Maybe the landlord will check when my rent doesn't get paid. Who knows.

 

[VoidDesirer22]

I don't know if it counts, but in my suicide note I specifically asked for all my money and money made selling my belongings to be donated to LGBTQ+ and racial minorities in places like the U.S.A and EU. It can be to organizations or individuals, all I care about is it goes to people who need it. I also have a massive CD collection and DVD collection of an artist I really like, and I joke about getting my collection signed to be auctioned off for charity purposes as well but I want it to happen. Other than that, just forget me.

I want all that money to go to my family who will literally have their lives ruined.

 

[ClownMe]

I just want to go.