Discussion Do you think you've enjoyed life?

[Anthagonos]

If this qould be your last day...
Do you think you have enjoyed life at its most?
Why yes? Why not?

 

[Superdeterminist]

There were brief moments of enjoyment, but mostly it wasn't fun.

 

[Anthagonos]

There were brief moments of enjoyment, but mostly it wasn't fun.

Can you enumerate those brief moments pf enjoyment? Thanks.

 

[Superdeterminist]

Can you enumerate those brief moments pf enjoyment? Thanks.

For me I enjoyed typical things like videogames, girls, food, music, holidays, to name some. But the joy is limited, because even these things are fraught with problems e.g.; videogames are just a distraction from the real world, I'm terrible with women, too much food and you'll get fat, etc. I find that even the sources of fun are themselves riddled with issues, which quickly takes away from the joy.

 

[DeadButDreaming]

No way.

I remember Schopenhauer saying if people could see how their lives would unfold they would choose not to be born. I don't believe this is true of everyone, but it's definitely true of me.

 

[mahakaliSS_MahaDurga]

I would have to think long and hard about enjoyable moments of my life. What comes to my mind as a sort of a happy memory is when I stayed up all night with my boyfriend, even though I had an exam in the morning. He helped me study and we had a lot of fun during that night. My exam went well, although I did not get much sleep. That guy really loved me and expected that I act like a normal person, socialize with his group of friends, respect agreements and not postpone our meetings at the last minute, which I couldn't do, so eventually we broke up. I was also happy when I was doing drugs. I was happy when I saved a decent amount of money and planned to start over in life, but my crippling anxiety and self doubt prevented me from doing anything worthwhile. Now I am stuck at the same place where I've been my entire life. I do not even know what would make me happy anymore. I find a sick pleasure in whining and being an emotional vampire.

 

[Good4Nothing]

No. I guess... Maybe?
There were enjoyable moments, but my life has mostly been pain and anquish and sadness and despair.
I wasn't built to enjoy my life. Women don't want me, and I seem to have a sign over my head that says " use me, exploit me, abuse me", because I'm almost never treated fairly or with respect.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

No
My life was a series of disappointments.
I've had very few truly happy moments

 

[XYZ]

There were some joyful moments. Ecstatic even. But they were over all too soon and they were too few to mean anything in the infinite sea of sadness that is my life.

 

[stillweary]

There were a few periods of situational joy. They weren't enough to make up for the rest of it, though.

 

[Fedrea]

If this qould be your last day...
Do you think you have enjoyed life at its most?
Why yes? Why not?

I had some happy times. Life can be joy

 

[nerve]

I think I did okay for someone who's like physiologically impaired in their ability to enjoy things. A lot of it sucked but there are lots of good memories too.

 

[FrankieVallie]

I've enjoyed a few brief moments of happiness in my life, but it's nothing compared to the pain and suffering. It's like a few drops of water falling into an ocean. I am, however, satisfied with my life (taking into account my circumstances) and wouldn't change anything if I had to live it again.

 

[Worthless_nobody]

Overall no. Ages 18-22 were decent. I was happy and it was a carefree time in college with no responsibility and my bf at the time was nice. My childhood was sad because of religious abuse and bullying and once I turned 22 life became hell because I couldn't handle the responsibility of adulthood and I experienced severe abuse and trauma, mental issues got worse and physical issues. Overall life has been a disappointing pointless mess. 2/10

 

[Deleted member 18655]

Can you enumerate those brief moments pf enjoyment? Thanks.

Are you doing research??? You seem to ask questions to which you don't offer your own answers.

...going back to my dark corner now...

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

Are you doing research??? You seem to ask questions to which you don't offer your own answers.

...going back to my dark corner now...

Glad you came out of your dark corner and brought this to light.

The OP also wants to know where people live and about their sexual experiences. Seems like s/he's researching to spot potential victims.

I note the weird use of language in the title and OP, does one think they've enjoyed life, not have they enjoyed life, as if they can't trust their own experience, they just think they can.

 

[BPD Barbie]

At times I've enjoyed myself but it always feels short lived. Like I'm waiting for the next big problem to occur.

 

[Deleted member 18655]

Glad you came out of your dark corner and brought this to light.

The OP also wants to know where people live and about their sexual experiences. Seems like s/he's researching to spot potential victims.

My pleasure. Yeah, that was strike three in my UH-OH Meter. It rings of research of either potential victims or just geographical experiences and stats of the suicidal??? Either way, it's making my corner just a wee bit uncomfortable. I'm glad to be proven wrong and I'll be the first to apologise when I am.

...going back to my corner now

 

[Deleted member 17949]

A little tbh. There are good moments but overall I don't like it.

 

[Living_Hurts_so_Much]

Up until I was 18 or 20, but after that I went the wrong way.

 

[AprilsBlessings]

Hell no

 

[Soul]

If this qould be your last day...
Do you think you have enjoyed life at its most?
Why yes? Why not?

Hi @Anthagonos. How about you? Have you enjoyed life?

And as the good @coeur.brisé has asked: Are you here doing research? Your questions seem to indicate that. It would be fair if you told us what you're researching for.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Yes. But it's enough for me. I'm tired. I tried to change things but not matter how much effort I make I will be miserable. There's no cure for me. If I'm here is because I'm not enjoying my life anymore and I see no point in going on living.

 

[mahakaliSS_MahaDurga]

I was sort of happy during college. I would get involved into different causes, although always on the periphery, and just being around other people who I was working with felt good at times, I felt like a normal, regular person. I've had a fair amount of people around me, who were friendly and welcoming, and I could have developed life-long friendships with some of them, if it weren't for my bpd which made me behave in an overly sensitive manner and caused me to push people away.

Whenever I tried something new, it would end up the same. I've always had this fear of people getting to know me and seeing that there is nothing inside me, no core identity or core values.

One happy moment that comes to mind is a party I went to during my first year at college. A friend invited me and there were people who attended some classes with me. We took selfies and had coctails, I felt really normal. I was on Xanax and Fluvoxetamine at the time, so I really didn't feel any anxiety and didn't feel threatened by them. I cannot remember going to any more parties, other than that one.

Ever since I was a child, I felt like there was a glass wall separating me from the rest of the world, and the happiest moments I've had were the ones when that wall seemed non-existent. As years go by, that wall grows thicker with each new day.

I blame my parents for most of it. My mother was always overprotective and stifled my autonomy, while my father used the entire family as his emotional punching bags. It is ugly to say this, but I really hate my mother. Her roughness, her cowardice, the way she talks about bullshit all the time and treats me like a retard. I will never forgive them for having me in the first place.

 

[alexit]

If this qould be your last day...
Do you think you have enjoyed life at its most?
Why yes? Why not?

I do. I did a lot of what I wanted to do. I leave in peace.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

The only things I couldn't do are vising a country and having a girlfriend. But I'm not in the right physical and mental conditions to do it but I've enjoyed what I could do. Have extreme anhedonia these months.

 

[Ximon]

why you ask so many questions?

 

[Lupgevif]

No; I missed out on a lot and I remember feelings of isolation and being out of place from very young ages. I never felt truly alive.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I've enjoyed all the media I've consumed and even had fun with friends but it all feels pretty empty compared to the fulfilling kind of things I know I can never have...like a significant other which I have still yet to experience the joys of.

 

[TheAntidote87]

Yes because I lived each day as best as I could have. I set goals and worked hard to not give up on them. I accomplished a lot, learned a lot, experienced a lot, it just sucks it has to end now.