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leaf23

Specialist
Dec 12, 2020
335
It's hard. Because you can't make any money from the creative arts and that makes you feel even more useless and like you don't fit in here.
Ugh I know 🙁. I mean, money doesn't solve everything but it would certainly make a lot of things easier for me 😮‍💨.


It's all sorts of disappointing how a field producing works which could inspire/move people and feed their soul could sometimes pay so little. It must be a plus though that you're working in something you love or enjoy doing. I wish you luck too in your work ❤️
 
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HadItAll

I just want to be completely forgotten
Feb 20, 2023
243
Unfortunately I think I will.
 
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acaiblueberry

Member
Mar 21, 2023
11
I don't know. I want to. I want to get better and enjoy life and be okay. But everyday it seems that's harder and harder for me to do. I see CTB as a last resort. I want to live. But I don't know if I can.
 
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Lonelyhotcake

Lonelyhotcake

(I speak spanish).
Mar 16, 2023
41
I don't want to die but I don't want to live either.

I'm tired.
I feel like I'm living the same day over and over. So, I'm going to try to change my life completely.

I'm giving life one last chance.
 
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NeverEnding

NeverEnding

Member
Mar 11, 2023
17
I don't want to die but I don't want to live either.

I'm tired.
I feel like I'm living the same day over and over. So, I'm going to try to change my life completely.

I'm giving life one last chance.
This is exactly how I feel except the part of changing my life completely.
 
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Sparr0w

Sparr0w

please feed my pfp crumbs they are begging u
Jan 24, 2023
300
i hope i don't make it to 2024.
that being said, i can see myself making it that long if something comes up (i.e sn gets stopped at customs) and i can't ctb. i just hope i won't.
 
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Sleepdrifter

Student
Jun 22, 2020
151
I have some plans this year. They are pretty much my last chance to have a decent life. If they fall apart then that will be it for me. I'll have nothing left
 
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H.O.Xan

Experienced
Feb 1, 2023
278
the ppl who wanna die most r left till the end
 
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NoLoveNoHope

NoLoveNoHope

Mage
Mar 25, 2023
564
Definitely won't. I'll either CTB or get killed off by my enemies.
 
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cielherpes

cielherpes

being silly
Mar 24, 2023
16
im definitely not looking forward to going that far, especially how quick options are popping up lately
 
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MentalStefan

MentalStefan

Loser
Jul 3, 2022
265
Every year I wish I will be dead by the next year somehow it ain't happening.
 
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melancholia15

Member
Mar 27, 2023
5
I think I'll do something before the year ends every year but I'll inevitably not do a thing. I don't want to but I don't have the strength to stop it happening.
 
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Amakishiyo

Amakishiyo

Despite everything, it's still you
Mar 5, 2023
118
I think I'll definitely try to ctb before 2024 at least.
 
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leeloosnow

leeloosnow

Warlock
Aug 28, 2022
725
I foolishly allow myself to get sidetracked or involved with irl commitments, I know I'll end up with more hardship and pain and worse off than before. it's the most pointless insignificant feeling yet simultaneously the most screaming depths of pain to my core. I need to get my head out of my ass and do it right, the sooner the better for me.
 
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orca87

Mage
Mar 22, 2023
529
2024 – just the number feels so far away. To me, it feels like I recovered from atypical lifelong depression right now and, for the first time facing reality – there is no hope for me. So knowing that 2024 which seems so far is, in fact just 10 months from now makes me feel anxious, depressed and even more hopeless.
 
star_shine

star_shine

UNI Student
Mar 26, 2023
15
Tbh i don't know if i would ever make it to 2024 , the way my days are going,and the previous year i did thought the same and here i am lol, i do have a small hope that it might get better but I'm not sure though i was pretty surprised that i made it to 2023 idk about 2024
 
MewtwoIsAlive

MewtwoIsAlive

Suffering
Jul 11, 2020
215
Yeah i will, wish i could end this earlier.
 
TooTiredToSleep

TooTiredToSleep

Member
Mar 26, 2023
20
There is a chance that I do make it but I hope I get the chance to ctb earlier than that.
 
Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
1,771
I hope not. If do, I'll just make the same new year's resolution I made this year - to die. I think this is it for me.
 
Hikikomori1

Hikikomori1

Experienced
Mar 27, 2023
289
No and i don't really want to tbh. I am almost 30 and have no job no friends and everyday is a pain in the ass.
 
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ShanaRei

ShanaRei

Some day my prince (of death) will come
Nov 17, 2022
55
Ugh I know 🙁. I mean, money doesn't solve everything but it would certainly make a lot of things easier for me 😮‍💨.


It's all sorts of disappointing how a field producing works which could inspire/move people and feed their soul could sometimes pay so little. It must be a plus though that you're working in something you love or enjoy doing. I wish you luck too in your work ❤️
Money would definitely solve a lot of my problems and postpone (at least for a little bit) the need to exit this world. But I did love it when I'm being creative. It's one of the few things that make me happy and feel good about myself, when the depression I have doesn't cripple my creative instincts.
 
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Emmadner

Member
Jan 3, 2023
14
Probably, keep floating through life as my ex put it - although I want 2023 to be the year I stop floating IYKWIM ;)
 
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primarilycoal

Member
Mar 27, 2023
11
I'm not sure. I "escaped" NEETdom this year and my job treats me very well. It's a typical office job, but I don't have a manager and my boss rewards me alot with benefits, such as my own office and a reserved parking space and such, but I don't feel different from when I was a NEET. It had always been my expectation that it was just my environment that was the problem and that once I escaped that, I would start to feel better. Since that hasn't happened and might never, I am forced to confront the fact that maybe it's the world or my personal circumstances in it that are wrong, but me. Also I'm coming up on the end of my 2nd year in therapy, but I never felt that helped either. I still feel shitty all the time, even though I should feel good. So to answer the question: It really depends whether anything I do to improve my mood starts working.
 
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sweetandsanctioned

Member
Mar 20, 2023
14
Well I'm at a stage now where I feel like I am more brave enough (or justified enough) in attempting suicide now as I am 30 and my social life still hasn't gotten much better, especially my emotional state in regards to love and sex. I just feel really unfulfilled in those areas and am not fully functional enough to have a relationship or to keep one which is the most important thing to me but there is nothing to suggest it will get any better by next year unless some miracle happens which is not likely. I am starting to realize this more and am also so tired of other people's stupidity and the way people treat each other. That is definately something that won't ever change for the most part and I just can't see the point in putting up with it any longer so if things aren't improved or get worse by 2024, I definately don't want to be here anymore. It may seem stupid but one of the things I wanted to stick around for was another Joker movie 'cause the first one really helped me a lot but I'm not really digging the upcoming one so whether I live long enough to see it, I don't know. I still hold out some hope of things getting better but that's starting to run out fast.
No and i don't really want to tbh. I am almost 30 and have no job no friends and everyday is a pain in the ass.
Same
 
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Alfarooq

Lifeless bastard almost making decision to CTB.
Mar 10, 2023
29
The more I grow up, the more shit happened to me. This world is for successful people only. Given the fact that I will never succeed in life, I will CTB before 2024.
 
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