Do you think you will regret your decision in your final seconds

[diy-event]

Its a question I have no answer to

 

[TheHolySword]

You won't know until it's happening. Many who have survived surely felt the regret and have lived to tell the tale. Many survived CTBing and only regret not dying. It's hard to say really, but it's best not to dwell on it.

 

[roommate]

idk if I ever come so far, but I'm scared of that yeah.
Especially when i do the action and then my counter arguments start to fight me all of the sudden

 

[Namelesa]

Maybe but for me that will be from SI and not any logical thought process. If the attempt didn't work out and I continued to live after it I would regret it not succeeding.

 

[failedmind]

i really hope not but maybe. i believe i'll feel guilt about leaving my mom. plus with my method, it takes some time to pass out and im scared the SI will kick in really badly during that time. i hope not.

 

[Permanoir]

I don't think I'll regret anything but I'll be a bit hesitant because of SI which is just irrational. I'll remind myself of the life that awaits me if I don't go through with it. I hope that does it.

 

[_Minsk]

good question, i hope not. some methods leave some room for back outs while others don't..

 

[iamrealandyouarenot]

Im guessing it'll only matter for a second which is to say not at all.

 

[Kbeau]

Don't know, but at that point my decision was made and there will be no turning back

 

[BlueButterfly111]

I don't think I will

 

[Peace2peace]

Am sure not might just be afraid of the other side

 

[billie]

i won't call for help i don't have si

 

[a.hamza.13]

No, it'll never happen. I never regretted the decision of CTBing. I just want to die so desperately. I'm so fed up with life. I just don't want to see another day.

 

[cme-dme]

I'm not sure. SI can do strange things when you are close to death I think. It's like how those who hang themselves might try to struggle in their final moments or those who do SN calling for help although it's not really possible to say if in those moments if it was their monkey brain telling them to continue living or if it was genuine regret.
That kind of reminds me of how many incidents I've seen where somebody survives their attempt by calling for help or doing something of their own volition to prevent their death then saying they will attempt again soon...

 

[r.vival]

in my state right now? definitely. as much of how life only had suffering for me, i still wish to have things i can only achieve alive. i don't know anymore. when those wishes are granted, they're temporary. after that i am met with more suffering.

 

[ctemourge]

50/50 on this answer actually… a little part of me might regret it but only due to the unknown. how will my family cope? who will take care of my financial burdens after ? but i also know for a fact id be at peace. the pain would end. so i dont knoe

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

I plan to be asleep during, for this very reason.

 

[E Butler]

I'll probably panic in my final seconds. But that's not the same as regretting.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I think the fear response may make me regret it. But, it will more likely be a- I hope this hurries up and kills me quickly reaction. Still, if I linger, I may well start questioning my decision.

What I've experienced that could be closest to SI in life- the odd dangerous-ish situation has made me nervously cling to life though- so- that's a concern. Hopefully, common sense will overide though- that I will be doing it ultimately to prevent future pain.

 

[timorousTruant]

Probably. I'm sure whilst in the act of dying my survival instinct will kick in no matter how sure I am going into it. Lizard brain is a force to be reckoned with. There will almost certainly be regret, but not coming from any place of rationality.

 

[Hollowman]

No

 

[outrider567]

I won't have time to regret it, with Nitrogen you just pass out in less than a minute

 

[blackbeauty]

Yeah I wonder that too.

I would want to avoid those thoughts passing through my mind in my final moments, so I wonder if being drunk would help shut those thoughts out.

 

[charcoalcat]

Seems to me I have two choices. Either I regret that final few seconds or spend the rest of my life regretting why I didn't bite my teeth and push it through when I could.

And I always believe that those final seconds ain't real regret. It's SI fucking with my head.

 

[onthefence]

This is why I'm still here. Every time I imagine starting my plan I ask myself if I would call for help/ regret it. So far the answer has usually been yes. When it's no I'll know I'm ready.
I was ready yesterday- imagined starting and only felt the relief. But I have work and if I left it would be noticed. I need a Friday evening with perfect conditions to make a go of it so no one would look for me until Monday. That way too, if I failed I would be able to pull myself together and go to work on Monday.

 

[divinemistress36]

Probably only cause of survival instinct

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

I'll regret it a lot, but that won't change my mind about doing it. I've thought carefully about it for many months and I'm certain I want to do it. There's nothing to hope for in my future.

I'm actually surprised so many people say they wouldn't feel regret about suicide, because suicide is something someone would regret practically by definition:

1. A feeling of sorrow, disappointment, distress, or remorse about something that one wishes could be different.
2. A sense of loss and longing for someone or something gone or passed out of existence.

Regret doesn't have to be an intense emotional upheaval that pushes someone to abandon suicide. Regret can be more of a feeling of sadness and loss that would be normal for any person contemplating suicide to feel.

 

[SnowLeopard21]

Not if I can pull the trigger faster than I can regret it.

 

[2messdup]

Fear yes. Regret, not sure. It's a pity you can't get mega-drunk before sn because that's when I do my clearest thinking. Have no access to benzos. If I did I'd probably be gone I think.

 

[FuneralCry]

No, never as all I want is to not exist, it's all I could ever hope for, I'd never wish to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence no matter what rather I just want to permanently cease existing, if it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, for me non-existence really is all that's positive, I'd be so relieved if I had the option to just peacefully cease existing. I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to be tortured by old age, to me existence really does feel like a mistake, I personally see existence itself as the true problem, it's just something I'd never wish for, I just find it so painful to suffer in this existence I was never meant for, I'd never wish to be burdened with this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway.