Do you think you are “unwell”?

[Cockney_Rebel]

I have a co-morbid diagnosis of EUPD (BPD) & OCD.

This new consultant thinks I am delusional, and has mentioned "Mixed Personality Disorder" because apparently I am very complex, and exhibit multiple traits, from multiple personality disorders.

She states, very clearly, that I am "unwell."

I don't agree.

I just see "life" for what it is … a fucking sentence of pain and suffering.

I know something better is waiting for me, on the other side.

So, do you think you are unwell?

Intrigue me.

 

[rationaltake]

No. Damaged maybe.

 

[Callie Arcale]

I know for a fact that I am unwell. I have two psychological diagnoses and one neurological disorder.

But that does not mean that I do not posess the ability to make choices about my death, and to entertain valid opinions about my life and about existence in general.

 

[Cockney_Rebel]

No. Damaged maybe.

Elaborate, if you don't mind?

I know for a fact that I am unwell. I have two psychological diagnoses and one neurological disorder.

But that does not mean that I do not posess the ability to make choices about my death, and to entertain valid opinions about my life and about existence in general.

They deem that as having "capacity."

 

[Callie Arcale]

She states, very clearly, that I am "unwell."

I don't agree.

I just see "life" for what it is … a fucking sentence of pain and suffering.

In my opinion, the one does not contradict the other. You can be unwell and see life for what it is: an atrocity.

 

[Cockney_Rebel]

In my opinion, the one does not contract the other. You can be unwell and see life for what it is: an atrocity.

I love that you surround "life" with quotes.

If this is "life" or "living" then fuck that!

I'd rather take my chances & see what's on the other side.

 

[Callie Arcale]

I love that you surround "life" with quotes.

If this is "life" or "living" then fuck that!

I'd rather take my chances & see what's on the other side.

Dear Rebel :-) You just managed the impossible, you made me smile despite all my anxiety.

If you look carefully, you'll notice you're the one who wrote the word life in between inverted commas. So, really, you are complimenting yourself :-)

 

[FuneralCry]

No, I believe that wanting suicide is perfectly rational in a life as horrible as this. To me, it is the only thing that makes sense. I want to escape decades of pointless suffering. I see people who want to live in a world with unlimited potential for suffering as being delusional. I am not unwell at all, I am not the problem, life is instead. More than anything I wish I was never born.

 

[Ta555]

Psychiatry is a fucking joke. The fact that you've been told you have 'multiple traits from multiple disorders' just helps confirm that. Psychiatric diagnoses are nothing. They are not based on any biological testing, it's just a description of behaviour. I've talked about this before on someone else's post so I won't repeat myself but it's pure evil to tell someone they have a 'personality disorder'. These 'traits' are not a disorder. They are behaviours people engage in to deal with trauma, abuse, abandonment and the like. The people who need the most help just end up getting told 'your personality is sick'. It's disgusting.

 

[Crazy4u]

yes, I'm unwell. I have never been to a therapist, but I suspect I have depression and CPTSD. COVID made it worse and I might have other issues but I won't discuss because I'm not a therapist.

I'm unwell because I'm broken and can't be fixed. I was traumatized as a child, as a teenager, and as an adult. I know the pain of invalidation very well and won't let anyone make it worse. Your therapist is terrible

 

[blueclover_.]

Am I unwell?

Well, I can still make rational decisions, so if they think that 'unwell' means not having the mental capacity to make a logical thought process, then no, I am doing just fine. I did not suddenly develop autism because my life took turn for the worse randomly a little while ago. Some broken neurotransmitters are not disrupting the rest of neurons functions in my brain.

But if by 'unwell' they actually meant by experiencing negative emotions for a certain period of time, then yes, I am unwell. I see no point of going to work, get rich, and sleep around if these negative emotions can always just come back because of bad luck. That is the result of my perfectly functioning logical part of the brain, even though emotionally it's depressing.

 

[absoluteanimal1]

I am definitely unwell.

 

[these_days9]

I am unwell. But separately I also want to ctb. When I have been "well," I have still wanted to ctb. And some may say thats because I was still unwell, but I call bullshit. People just don't want to believe that anyone could possibly not want to be alive and have that be a completely rational, well thought out decision. But it can be. And it is for me.

 

[Kennish]

Yes. I am very unwell. I would say I'm literally a box of unwell-ness pieces of chocolates, and nobody should take a bit of any of them. I know I wouldn't.

I'm so unwell, that I believe it never was meant for me to be alive.

 

[aprilshowers]

I'm definitely not unwell. I take care not to appear mentally ill because people will just dismiss my suicide as a failing of the mental healthcare system instead of what it really is.

 

[D&D]

Psychiatry is a fucking joke. The fact that you've been told you have 'multiple traits from multiple disorders' just helps confirm that. Psychiatric diagnoses are nothing. They are not based on any biological testing, it's just a description of behaviour. I've talked about this before on someone else's post so I won't repeat myself but it's pure evil to tell someone they have a 'personality disorder'. These 'traits' are not a disorder. They are behaviours people engage in to deal with trauma, abuse, abandonment and the like. The people who need the most help just end up getting told 'your personality is sick'. It's disgusting.

This.
Which is why I don't ask for 'help.' Because, in my view at least, there are two choices; a) request/accept 'help' meaning whatever diagnosis. medications, therapy, etc. given AND get 'better' - because it is expected that one will get 'better', meaning if not exactly 'cured' at least 'functional', or if not - it will be because one is non-cooperative, ungrateful, or some such, or b) bow to your own humanity, in all its pains, in all its complexities, and sail quietly into a gentle night.

 

[Cockney_Rebel]

No, I believe that wanting suicide is perfectly rational in a life as horrible as this. To me, it is the only thing that makes sense. I want to escape decades of pointless suffering. I see people who want to live in a world with unlimited potential for suffering as being delusional. I am not unwell at all, I am not the problem, life is instead. More than anything I wish I was never born.

I've missed you x.

yes, I'm unwell. I have never been to a therapist, but I suspect I have depression and CPTSD. COVID made it worse and I might have other issues but I won't discuss because I'm not a therapist.

I'm unwell because I'm broken and can't be fixed. I was traumatized as a child, as a teenager, and as an adult. I know the pain of invalidation very well and won't let anyone make it worse. Your therapist is terrible

I don't have a therapist.

They claim I'm "too unstable" and "too suicidal."

Oooooook, so if that's the case, surely I fucking need it as much as, if not more many others!

It's not a broken "system," it's a corrupt one!

 

[Hirokami]

I am objectively unwell. I have severe depression and a just-as-bad anxiety disorder to boot. I have suicidal thoughts nearly every day and I have a history with self-harm to cope with it all. Though, I don't blame myself as none of this is my fault. I am genetically prone to having these conditions, so that's something I cannot control. However, I do blame the people who made it worse for me. They knew about my mental health, yet they didn't give a shit and continue not to do so.

 

[coal-light]

I've missed you x.

I don't have a therapist.

They claim I'm "too unstable" and "too suicidal."

Oooooook, so if that's the case, surely I fucking need it as much as, if not more many others!

It's not a broken "system," it's a corrupt one!

I feel you. I was "dumped" by a therapist because I was struggling and therefore had an inconsistent schedule. They were like "this isn't working..." and I promptly left. The person I see now is virtual which is for the best. But I probably won't be able to afford them for much longer. People seem to think they're somehow magical for helping us out.... but it's just another person. "Qualifications" and "readings" and "exams" is all we go by to trust them. It's silly.

As per the original question... yes. I've struggled with depression for 13 years at this point... it's linked to physical conditions which are in of themselves mysterious, so there is no end in sight. Nothing works and I can't say I'm all that "functional" right now so we're nearing the end of the story. I'm relieved.

 

[demuic]

I think most of the people that are considered "well" by society suffer from many massive and shared delusions, but since they're accepted and popular, they are considered sane, while others who contradict these ideas are considered insane.

It's relative.