Discussion Do you think others can tell?

[painfree]

I can relate to so many comments. I have 2 people who know and understand there's no quality of life and simply respect my choice. the rest must be in denial or think I've miraculous healed. I can't have people know I'm actively planning because they would commit me. I'm usually quiet/anxious just add jokes & smiles. My sister is hardest cause she knows how to read people, she worked 911 dispatch for 20 years I do wear my mask everywhere but it's very draining.almost feel like I have 2 personalities I've been doing it so long.

 

[NormallyNeurotic]

I wish they could. Outright asking for help would either put me at risk, or be selfish to them and their lives. It's manipulative, but I just want them to see it and try to help themselves.

That way I can't be blamed for taking over their lives and free time. I just want at least a bit more interaction, some more care. That's all. But I fight with myself feeling manipulative about trying to reach out covertly by putting things in my status online.

 

[TapeMachine]

I'm nothing like I used to be. But a lot of people might equate that to my having quit alcohol a few years ago (after having had a 15 year habit)?

Either way, I'm a ghost now. I never leave the house. I dropped all of my friends, and I'm pretty much already dead to my family because they never hear from me or see me. I think the differences in my behavior (social vs antisocial) are glaringly obvious, but people forget about you eventually when you pull a disappearing act. Out of sight, out of mind, ya know?

 

[groucho]

I'm not very good at hiding my moods but I don't think people expect your suicidal as they don't want to think it's possible, however I'm careful not to mention death or joke about suicide around people.