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whiteboyswithars

Member
Jun 15, 2024
44
Well not in the same way you described, I like to try to keep stuff like my hearing and vision good just incase I somehow get better and i'm not like "damn why tf did I do that". But I don't take care of myself in the sense of washing my face or my hair or keeping myself super clean in general😭 also just activities like getting out of the house
 
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Manfrotto99

Specialist
Oct 10, 2023
318
Morning:
  1. Warm rinse
  2. Cleanser
  3. Cold rinse
  4. L-ascorbic acid
  5. Chill for 2 minutes
  6. Moisturiser with SPF 50
Evening:
  1. Warm rinse
  2. Cleanser
  3. Cold rinse
  4. Retinal
  5. Chill for 2 minutes
  6. Moisturiser
Am I doing this right :pfff:


Progressing on the big 3 always brings me some happiness.
I like to add matrixyl after step 4 and some oils in the evening for my dry skin 😀
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
3,840
Since deciding to ctb, I've had this f*ck it mentality and it definitely shows. Why bother? I'm gonna be dead soon anyways.
 
divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Illuminated
Jan 1, 2024
3,514
Morning:
  1. Warm rinse
  2. Cleanser
  3. Cold rinse
  4. L-ascorbic acid
  5. Chill for 2 minutes
  6. Moisturiser with SPF 50
Evening:
  1. Warm rinse
  2. Cleanser
  3. Cold rinse
  4. Retinal
  5. Chill for 2 minutes
  6. Moisturiser
Am I doing this right :pfff:


Progressing on the big 3 always brings me some happiness.
If we feel like shit on the inside got to try to feel better on the outside!
I like to add matrixyl after step 4 and some oils in the evening for my dry skin 😀
Rosehip oil by the Ordinary is divine!
 
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maniac116

My own worst enemy🌹💔
Aug 10, 2024
1,119
i eventually plan to ctb, maybe not right now but one day. i think sometimes when i do things that are bad in the long-term, i tell myself it doesn't matter because i'll be dead when it catches up to me. what made me think of this is that i listen to music really loudly, i don't like being able to hear my thoughts and the heavy music feels really good when it's loud. people around me scold me for doing this because they say it'll damage my hearing in the future, but i just dismiss it for the reason i gave. maybe i should actually put some effort into what little life i have?
do you try to take care of yourself in the time you have, or are you more lax about your long-term health?
When I'm really down I don't do as much to take care of myself or my affairs. I just don't have the energy.
When I'm feeling ok I try to be responsible.
I do know that if I want to feel better I need to do something that makes me feel better. I like to be of service to others. It allows me to help someone & allows me to feel needed.
It's not a 100% solution for me though. That's why I'm at this website. I still have thoughts to CTB.
Peace & love🌹💔
My life is very polar🌹💔
 
milknife02

milknife02

Member
Aug 13, 2024
37
I plan to ctb in 6 months. Stopped brushing my teeth half the time. Stopped any serious skin/hair/nail care. I think some of it may be starting to bother me and I might just start up again a bit so I don't feel gross, even if its taxing. I still don't eat junk food or drink (kinda out of principal) but I try as much as I can to feel comfortable without thinking of anything long-term.
 
Lookingtoflyfree

Lookingtoflyfree

Specialist
Jan 11, 2024
335
Morning:
  1. Warm rinse
  2. Cleanser
  3. Cold rinse
  4. L-ascorbic acid
  5. Chill for 2 minutes
  6. Moisturiser with SPF 50
Evening:
  1. Warm rinse
  2. Cleanser
  3. Cold rinse
  4. Retinal
  5. Chill for 2 minutes
  6. Moisturiser
Am I doing this right :pfff:


Progressing on the big 3 always brings me some happiness.

I actually just wash with soap at night, and use an ice cube after washing face, facial oil in morning and yes, team (tinted) moisturizer with SPF - so much easier! I find a lot of serums not really effective. I like Vitamin C the most but also don't think they're all that.

For evening I've done similar but with Tretinoin which is good. I also use olive oil (really!) and Nivea German formula cold cream on top of it. Once a week I do a facial steam and mask (avocado, olive oil and honey) and dermaplane the peach fuzz.

It's kind of hilarious to me how much I do love skin care :)
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,317
Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,228
I take a daily shower, shampoo once every two days, and that's about it.
 
angelus

angelus

Interfice teipsum, et gaudium invenies.
Jul 29, 2021
91
When I originally planned to ctb, I did everything with a fuck all mentality, drank more than I could take, neglected my health, spent large amounts of money without reason, pushed everyone away, just stupid shit that looked good to me in the moment but not in the long run. "Who cares? I'm going to die, right?"
When I couldn't bring myself to end it all, I pretty much had nothing. I had to drastically change everything about my life to make it back to where I was before, and now living that same life that I hate is harder than ever.

I would advise you to take even just a little care of yourself because you never know what could happen.
I did exactly the same and this is where I am right now. Two days ago I ended up in emergency room with arrhytmias, shallow breathing and panic attack.
I can't return to my old life because I know it would suck even more than before and I can't feel any positive emotion.
Now I want to ctb even more and be prepared much earlier.
I'm very afraid of pain of dying. That's why I used to prefer inert gasses or train, but now I'm afraid of those methods too because the brain could have some minutes to experience all of it in a hightened state of awareness and I'd consider head crushing, in order to give my brain not even a second to process pain.
I need help with this because I'm very afraid to do it alone but I must do it somehow because my life cannot be improved and in the last 3 years it got much worse.
 
Ironborn

Ironborn

Specialist
Jan 29, 2024
396
I've started to take care of myself more funnily enough.
After my first attempt I stopped drinking, quit my job, started running again for the first time in over a decade (much to my knees dismay).
Grown out my hair and started growing a beard, which I have never done before.
Started reading again and making time to listen to more music.
But I am more sure than ever that I am going to ctb, my alcoholism just kept my brain in a kind of stupor but my mind is clear now.
Once my savings are gone that's it though, not going back to being a wage slave again.
 
revontulet

revontulet

Member
Aug 4, 2024
37
Yes. I like to be in good physical shape even I know my life is going to end soon.
 

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