Discussion do you start isolating yourself if you want to ctb?

[dreamstobebroken]

I want to ctb this summer and I feel like it's better for me to end every friendship I have and start to be by myself more. How would you deal with friends/family etc. if you know you're going to ctb? Do you want to spend the last weeks or days with them rather than leave them alone so they do not get too upset?

 

[BipolarExpat]

I dunno :(

Get so much anxiety talking to them when I feel this way. In my case it's opening chat apps and giving them a few words every few days...otherwise I'm just torturing them with silence which isn't very nice.

Not so long ago my mom was begging me for contact,...I gave her a little, then she said, "can you PLEASE say something positive?"
Uggh. Nothing worse than orders/demands when you're depressed.

 

[ForgottenSara]

I got only my boyfriend, who's living with me.
Family? Gone and forgotten.
Friends? I don't have friends, if not for the occasional dude or gal over discord.
Human interaction? What is that?
But if I had all those things, I would probably cut contacts with every single living being I could.

 

[Dartz]

No more than I already did anyway

 

[inconsequential]

Nah. No point, really. I only have 3 friends in the first place, and all 3 know I want to CTB & that I have wanted to for quite a while. They all understand it and are pro-choice in this regard; we've had many conversations about it over the years, mostly when something pops up in the news about euthanasia, or when my health declines further. I got lucky, I suppose, with my small chosen friend group.

 

[dreamstobebroken]

I dunno :(

Get so much anxiety talking to them when I feel this way. In my case it's opening chat apps and giving them a few words every few days...otherwise I'm just torturing them with silence which isn't very nice.

Not so long ago my mom was begging me for contact,...I gave her a little, then she said, "can you PLEASE say something positive?"
Uggh. Nothing worse than orders/demands when you're depressed.

I guess I know how you feel. It's like the worst feeling if you need to act like a socialised human and if it's craving your whole energy :(

 

[GinaIsReady]

I got only my boyfriend, who's living with me.
Family? Gone and forgotten.
Friends? I don't have friends, if not for the occasional dude or gal over discord.
Human interaction? What is that?
But if I had all those things, I would probably cut contacts with every single living being I could.

I'm also very very alone. The peace is divine. The loneliness and boredom is almost unbearable.

 

[not_a_robot]

i enjoy isolating but if I couldn't I would go crazy. A life full of people would definitely push me to ctb, I couldn't stand it, no personal space.

 

[kolski]

I wouldn't want to push them away.. but knowing me I probably would when it was my time to ctb.

 

[bluesky1972-2019]

Don't really have an issue. Can't say I really have friends anymore. Just work colleagues. Lost touch years ago with people I did consider friends. I do like my own space but I guess I'm kind of sad really.

 

[marcusuk63]

I dont have any friends , i would be very suspicious of anyone that would want someone like me as a friend

 

[Bulletwbttrflywings]

Don't really have an issue. Can't say I really have friends anymore. Just work colleagues. Lost touch years ago with people I did consider friends. I do like my own space but I guess I'm kind of sad really.

Me too

 

[Final Escape]

I already isolate myself and have few friends. It will be a relief not to be living like this anymore. I just hope I can succeed.

 

[GinaIsReady]

I dont have any friends , i would be very suspicious of anyone that would want someone like me as a friend

That little doggie loves you.

 

[marcusuk63]

That little doggie loves you.

she does indeed , ive just been stripping some paper in the kitchen , i like midnight diy , i turned around and she is sat in the living room like this watching me lol , she is the only thing that makes me smile

 

[ladolcemorte]

I definitely do. I don't want my attachments to people getting in the way of my ability to do this.

 

[GinaIsReady]

she does indeed , ive just been stripping some paper in the kitchen , i like midnight diy , i turned around and she is sat in the living room like this watching me lol , she is the only thing that makes me smile View attachment 11843

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwww. I had 2 fur babies, one passed last Aug, the other this last March. I miss them so much. No point in getting another one though.

 

[fauna]

I isolate myself all the time haHAhaha I'm so lonely

 

[myrtaryniel]

I act normal. If you truly want to ctb succesfully, that's the only thing that can be in your mind. Obviously i'm not happy, but I l learned to pretend just a lil bit. I don't generally reach out much to people, but if they come to me I always try to be friendly. I don't want anyone thinking they could have done more for me. I think it would be a lot easier for me if I just isolate myself, but in my oppinion that seems suspicious and also harming to your loved ones. Let them have the good memories.

 

[andy69]

I dont have any friends , i would be very suspicious of anyone that would want someone like me as a friend

I feel the same way.

 

[fauna]

I feel the same way.

Friends are hard :/

 

[marcusuk63]

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwww. I had 2 fur babies, one passed last Aug, the other this last March. I miss them so much. No point in getting another one though.

it is hard and i lost my 3 fur babies last year and i said no more but my ex rescues bulldogs and she knew how upset i was as i have always had (big) dogs and a contact of hers that rescued frenchies said i could have Baby Agnes, what a name lol , still upsets me as i still miss my 3 pizza dogs lol

 

[GinaIsReady]

it is hard and i lost my 3 fur babies last year and i said no more but my ex rescues bulldogs and she knew how upset i was as i have always had (big) dogs and a contact of hers that rescued frenchies said i could have Baby Agnes, what a name lol , still upsets me as i still miss my 3 pizza dogs lol

awwwwwwwwwwww those are so cute!!! I am soooo sorry for your loss. How did they all die in one year? (that does suck)

 

[marcusuk63]

awwwwwwwwwwww those are so cute!!! I am soooo sorry for your loss. How did they all die in one year? (that does suck)

the black one was poisoned i think as the "travelers" had invaded out dog walking field and once the council had evicted them and clean their mess up i took them for a walk and i got home and the black one started shaking and convulsing and died , boxer died of cancer shortly after , i then rescued a 10 year old boxer Roxy who looked and acted a lot yungret ,as bobbie was lonely and missed Samba but she had a several strokes an seizures all together within several months of getting her and i had to have her put to sleep then bobbie who i had had since a pup had a prolapse , she was fine in her self but the vet said it was cancer pushing it out and best to put her to sleep , i was devastated as i had just lost the others and i couldn't be there when they injected her i just left sobbing ...

the black one was poisoned i think as the "travelers" had invaded out dog walking field and once the council had evicted them and clean their mess up i took them for a walk and i got home and the black one started shaking and convulsing and died , boxer died of cancer shortly after , i then rescued a 10 year old boxer Roxy who looked and acted a lot yungret ,as bobbie was lonely and missed Samba but she had a several strokes an seizures all together within several months of getting her and i had to have her put to sleep then bobbie who i had had since a pup had a prolapse , she was fine in herself but the vet said it was cancer pushing it out and best to put her to sleep , i was devastated as i had just lost the others and i couldn't be there when they injected her i just left sobbing ...

................. so just have Baby Agnes now but she has lots of friends (me ex`s Frenchies ) left to right , Peggy , Rossie, Berly and (baby) Agnes .... it sounds like an O.A.P. s day out lol

 

[CelestialSky]

Yes, I think my parents notice too because they're extra nice to me when I go quiet. When I was happier, I was an outgoing, chatty, bubbly person. Now I'm just a shell. I prefer to keep to myself because yeah, in some way I feel as if it'll somehow make things easier for people when I go. I started dating a new guy (selfish of me) and we both really like each other but now I'm pushing him away because when I ctb I want it to affect as few people as possible.

 

[GinaIsReady]

the black one was poisoned i think as the "travelers" had invaded out dog walking field and once the council had evicted them and clean their mess up i took them for a walk and i got home and the black one started shaking and convulsing and died , boxer died of cancer shortly after , i then rescued a 10 year old boxer Roxy who looked and acted a lot yungret ,as bobbie was lonely and missed Samba but she had a several strokes an seizures all together within several months of getting her and i had to have her put to sleep then bobbie who i had had since a pup had a prolapse , she was fine in her self but the vet said it was cancer pushing it out and best to put her to sleep , i was devastated as i had just lost the others and i couldn't be there when they injected her i just left sobbing ...

................. so just have Baby Agnes now but she has lots of friends (me ex`s Frenchies ) left to right , Peggy , Rossie, Berly and (baby) Agnes .... it sounds like an O.A.P. s day out lol

That is the cutest pic ever!!! Thank you for sharing.

 

[PatKat]

I have gotten comfortable in isolation, I know I need to get out though. It's not as easy as it sounds when you are afraid of everything.

I have poor social skills, and I cant just talk to a random person. I find the quickest exit when someone tries to talk to me.

 

[marcusuk63]

That is the cutest pic ever!!! Thank you for sharing.

Peggy is the grandmother little Rossie is the granddaughter and Berly her mum .... ready for the cutest pic ever .... Rosie as a baby , she is a little sod now lol

 

[Xaphous]

Isolating has been an unbreakable theme throughout my life and it's a hell. I wake up reminding myself that I'm wasting and losing everyday of my life but I am stuck in place unable to change anything. Spent all my 20s without a social life at all and no relationship because anything social becomes difficult when you've gone years without hardly conversing at all. I will never recover from this psychologically but I am always still enduring it.

 

[PatKat]

Peggy is the grandmother little Rossie is the granddaughter and Berly her mum .... ready for the cutest pic ever .... Rosie as a baby , she is a little sod now lolView attachment 11879

Little frenchy :) <3