do you sometimes wish you were born another animal?

WornOutLife · Feb 4, 2021

Having been born as a dog in a place which they gave me love, food, water and played with me would've been much better than this life lol

Symbiote · Feb 4, 2021

Wish I was reborn as an alligator. Sun in the morning, eat at night, live in a wildlife refuge away from hunters, whip my tail at people trying to pose for Instagram near me.

Donk · Feb 4, 2021

What's the animal with the shortest lifespan? yeah that

aqish · Feb 4, 2021

i always wish i were born a plant, since i was teenager

AbsoluteNothingness · Feb 4, 2021

No, never at all have wanted, and I doubt that i ever will lol (and don't want to/dont want to want to anyway lmfao). I just simply dont (never have wanted and im sure that simply never will and i don't have any fcking "pRoBlEm" with that lmao. i just dont/dont want to want to and that's it, i only/just want nothingness/non-existence and THATS IT and its not because of any reason at all) want to be "born" as/"exist" as absolutely anything at all nor "be" anyone nor anywhere at all neither. And i dont say that i don't """""""bEcAuSe 'lIfE'/'eXiStEnCe'/'tHe wOrlD'/'pLaNeT eArTh'/'hUmAnItY'/'sOcIeTy' aNd Or WhAteVeR tHe DaMn fUcK iN gEnErAl iS "sUfFeRiNg"/"pAiNfUl"/"hOrRiBlE"/"cRuEl"/"eViL"/"uNfAiR"/"hArD"/"mEaNiNgLeSs"/"aBsUrD"/"pOiNtLeSs"/"bOrInG"/"uNeNjOyAbLe"/"wOrThLeSs"/"uNsAtIsFyInG" [or whatever tf all those """""nEgAtIvE""""" 'words'/'ways'/'adjectives'/tYpEs Of X even fcking mean lmfao i don't give a f as well as i simply just don't give a fck that """nEgAtIvE"""/"""pOsItIvE""" means lmao i couldn't care any fucking damn less ffs] aNd Or AnY/wHaTeVeR oThEr """""""nEgAtIvE"""""" 'way'/'adjective'/'thing' in general/type of 'thing' in general/'place' in general/type of 'place' in general/type of 'life'/type of 'world'/type of 'planet'/type of 'consciousness'/type of 'existence'/type of 'humanity'/type of 'society'/type of 'person'/type of x/type of blah blah blah etc etc etc whatever the damn fck in general"""""" (it's NOT because of that "rEaSoN" nor because of literally ANY other single damn fcking reason in general at all. It's simply just NOT because of ANY reason at all of any type at all ffs i don't give a goddamn fcking shit if there is or there isnt """sUfFeRiNg"""/"""cRuElTy"""/"""pAiN"""/"""iNjUsTiCe"""/"""dIsCrImInAtIoN""" or whatever tf all those """nEgAtIvE""" 'words'/'things' and or whatever tf that is mean lmao and or whatever other """"nEgAtIvE"""" 'thing' or not lmfaooo I JUST COULDN'T CARE ANY FCKING LESS) no lmfaoooooo, as if I gave a damn fck if 'life'/'existence'/'the world'/'planet earth'/'humanity'/'society'/'beings'|'species'|'entities'|'life forms'/'consciousness' and or blahblahblah whatever the damn fck in general whatever it is is any/whatever """"""pOsItIvE"""""" or """""""""nEgAtIvE""""""""" 'way'/'adjective'/'thing'/type of 'thing'/'place'/type of 'place'/type of 'life'/type of 'world'/type of 'planet'/type of 'existence'/type or WHATEVER THE DAMN FUCK IN GENERAL FOR FUCKS SAKE I SIMPLY JUST DONT GIVE A DAMN FUCK FOR FUCKS SAKE I SIMPLY JUST DONT

it has NEVER """aFfEcTeD""" "me" nor """wOrRiEd""" "me" nor """eMbArRaSs""" "me" nor any other crap like that ffs why the fck it fcking has to for fucks sake. I simply just DONT want to "be" (nor "do"/"experience"/"know"/"enjoy"/"learn"/"kNoW hOw tO dO"/"explore"/"discover" blabla nor any other fcking damn 'verb'/'action' etc in general at all) absolutely, literally, totally, basically ANYTHING. A N Y T H I N G. of literally any damn 'type'/'kind'/'way'/'form' etc at all. THATS IT. I JUST DONT AND NEVER WILL AND THERE ARENT ANY ""REASONS WHY"". Why the fck should I? why can't "I" just simply NOT want to 'be' literally absolutely totally ANYTHING ANYONE ANYWHERE AT ALL and that's it (WITHOUT any reasons/causes in general at all)??? I simply just dont want to "feel" absolutely anything, ANY type of "emotions"/"feelings"/"sensations"/"senses" or whatever tf all that is, ANY type of ""pOsItIvE"" 'feelings'/'emotions'/'sensations' etc AT ALL, neither "jOy" nor "hApPiNeSs" nor "eNjOyMeNt" nor "pLeAsUrE" nor "eNtErTaInMeNt" nor "sAtIsFaCtIoN" nor "fUlFiLlmEnT" absolutely/literally ANY other fucking """pOsItIvE""" garbage crap bullshit/'feeling'/'emotion'/'sensation' etc like that nor in general at all about literally and absolutely ANYTHING no fcking 'matter' what neither how etc the fck it is/it can be/it'll be. I simply just DONT give a damn fuck ffs and i never will, i simply just don't fcking want to, never at all have wanted and literally NEVER at all ever will. Ill simply never at all have ANY "nEcEsSiTy"/"nEeD"/"dEsIrE"/"iNtErEsT"/"iNtEnTiOn" nor any other crap like to want to/want to want to and thats it, i simply just fucking DONT. i literally just couldn't care any damn less about absolutely anything ffs why the damn fck am i fcking forced/obligated to and why tf am i fucking "sUpPoSeD" to just because "I" had NO DAMN CHOICE but to 'exist' and 'be'/'become' 'something'/'someone' in general and be 'put' 'inside' a 'body'/'human body'/'brain'/'mind' that has 'made' "me" "be"/"exist" in general, and just because "i" had NO DAMN CHOICE but to 'come' 'here'/'be' 'brought' 'here' to 'existence'/'life'/'consciousness'/a 'place' called 'the world' and 'planet earth' etcblabla!!!!! that DOESNT have to fucking automatically mean that i have to/ill care about etc/want to care about and or whatever tf 'things'/'something' in general/'life'/'existence' and or whatever tf in general ""uNlEsS i DoNt bEcAuSe Of ThIs aNd Or tHaT ReAsOn/rEaSonS/cAuSes"" FOR FUCK'S SAKE. WHAT IF I SIMPLY JUST DONT/DONT WANT TO AT ALL AND THAT'S FUCKING IT FFS FFFFFUUUUUCKKKK ITS ABSOLUTELY FUCKING 'IMPOSSIBLE' FOR ME TO FUCKING 'UNDERSTAND' WHY THE FUCK THAT'S """"""IMPOSSIBLE"""""" AND """""""IRRATIONAL""""""" OR WHATEVER TF THAT EVEN FCKING MEANS and i don't give a damn fuck if it is or it isnt lmfao that doesnt fucking mean that it fucking can't be true jesus fucking christ, just because 'people'/'humans' fucking said so and felt like it and decided to INVENT that garbage crap that it's """"iMpOsSibLe"""" and that there has to be a fcking """rEaSoN wHy""" doesnt fcking mean that it "cAnT bE tRuE/pOsSiBlE" ffs. BUT WHY FFS WHY CANT I SIMPLY JUST NOT WANT ETC LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL NOR HAVE THE FUCKING "NEED"/"NECESSITY"/"DESIRE"/"INTEREST"/"INTENTION" TO/TO WANT TO/TO WANT TO WANT TO FFS?????????? sigh. it's so fucking frustrating and it gives me so much 'impotence' and 'frustration' that this is a fucking obligation and that i can't finally NOT 'exist' at all because it's so fcking hard to die and 'people'/'humans' or whatever tf that is/means will try at all costs to make "me" stay 'alive'/'continue' 'existing' because this is obligatory and yes or yes there has to be a """ReAsOn wHy I dOnT""". Ffffffuuuuuuuckkkkkkkk. The only 'reasons' "I" still exist/i haven't died/kms yet is my 'parents'/'family' and a cat my parents 'adopted' that 'loves'/'wants' me a lot because 'theyd' all be 'very'/'extremely' 'devastated'/'hurt'/'shocked'/'traumatized' and blah blah would 'suffer'/'cry' a lot or whatever tf that means and blah blah, and would be even more if i do it 'here' in my 'parents' 'house' and blah blah, sigh i shouldn't give a damn fuck ffs as ""cRuEl""/""cOlD"" as it "sounds", for fucks sake. Anyways 'attempting' 'here' is just too risky and hard, with the 'covid' 'restrictions' and all that (that btw i don't give a damn fuck if there are/there's a "rEsTrIcTioNs"/"lOcKdOwN"/"pAnDeMiC" or whatever tf that even means or not lmfao it has never ""aFfEcTeD""/""wOrRiEd"" "me" and simply never will lmao) i have even less enough time to "properly"/"safely"/"reliably" attempt and "ctb" ("catch" the "bus" to NOTHINGNESS/NON-EXISTENCE, NOT to any 'sort'/'kind'/'type'/'way'/'form' etc of any "afterlife" at all) and i fucking risk being found/getting caught even more... Fuck. Its so fucking FRUSTRATING!!!!!!
Also i haven't died yet/I still exist because I simply dont have any reliable way out to my access and it's just so fucking risky and hard to attempt here, id have to fucking work and all that crap to have money to 'buy'/'have' a fcking 'house'/'apartment' and finally attempt there "without any" risks/interruptions/worries of getting caught/'psych ward'/'failing' and not having any more 'opportunities'/'traumatizing' and 'shocking' my 'parents'/'family' etc but jfc not fucking 'only' I'd have to fucking 'work' and all that damn garbage crap shit, id have to fcking 'wait' 'who' the fck 'knows' how many fcking 'years' to FINALLY be fucking 'aBlE' to buy/have the damn 'house'/'apartment' and FINALLY attempt/"ctb"/die there. The fcking 'job'/'work' would take a lot of fucking "eFfOrT"/"eNeRgY"/"sTrEnGtH"/"mOtIvAtIoN"/"wIlL"/"dEdIcAtIoN"/"iNtErEsT" and all that fcking damn garbage bullshit crap and id even have to fcking wait for so many years until i finally have the damn fcking 'house', 'apartment' or whatever tf. Sigh. Why the fck cant it be easy jfc why is it so fucking hard. (*or whatever the fuck 'all' 'that' 'is'/'all' 'that' 'is' 'called' that i simply just will never give not even a single goddamn fcking sht about no matter how it is/can be, how ""gOoD"" or how """bAd""" it is/can be, neither what there is/there can be, neither what happens/can happen, neither what types of 'things'/'events' and or whatever tf happen/can happen, neither 'how' the fck what happens happens/is, neither what the fck ""this life""/""this 'type' of life"" and or any/whatever other 'life'/type of 'life' etc is about/can be about, neither how the fuck not 'only' 'life'/""""this life"""" [as if there were 'more'/'other' 'lives' lmfaooo i really 'hope' NOT ffs i simply just don't want and never at all will absolutely literally completely ANYTHING at all in general of any type any way etc no 'matter' what/how etc the fck it is/can be etcetc] but any other 'life'/type of 'life' etcetc however tf it is/can be nor absolutely anything else in general whatever it is of whatever type etc 'works'/can 'work' etc, and a loooong etc. I literally just dont give a damn fck jfc lmao. It doesnt fucking 'matter' and never at all will how """gOoD""" and or any/whatever other """"pOsItIvE"""" 'way'/'adjective' blabla or how """"bAd"""" and or any/whatever other """"""nEgAtIvE"""""" 'way'/'adjective' blabla whatever the damn fuck in general/whatever|any 'thing'|'place'|'event'|'species'|'beings' and or whatever tf in general whatever it is/anything/everything whatever tf it is/can be of whatever type of whatever tf in general is/isn't/can be/will be lmfaoooo I literally just don't fcking give a damn goddamn fuck i literally just fucking don't ffs

anything/everything in general whatever/however the damn fck it is/can be of whatever type/way etc the fuck it fucking is/can be etc has always been, is and will always be COMPLETELY AND ABSOLUTELY 'indifferent' or whatever tf that 'word' means lol and thats it for fucks damn fcking sake. it's so fucking FRUSTRATING that just because "i" 'exist' and "am" "here" and "im" "something"/"someone" and was 'brought' "here" that has to fucking automatically that i fucking have to/that i'll want to 'care about'/'want'/have 'interest' for/want to 'do' and or 'experience' and or 'know' and or 'enjoy' and or 'learn' and or 'see' and or 'feel' and or 'have' and or 'be' and or 'explore' and or blablaetcetc whatever/any other fucking 'action'/'verb' etc in general blabla whatever tf 'things'/'something'/'life' in general/'existence' in general and or blabla whatever the fuck yes or fucking yes """uNlEsS i DonT bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN/rEaSoNs AnD tHeReS aN eXpLaNaTiOn FoR tHaT aNd tHeReS yEs oR yEs SoMeThiNg oR sOmEoNe tHaT bRoUgHt Me tO tHaT "dEcIsIoN"/"cOnClUsIoN"/"pOiNt" aNd iTs yEs Or YeS tHe CoNsEqUeNcE oF sOmEtHiNg""", WHY THE FUCK cant i literally simply JUST DONT FUCKING WANT TO 'EXIST' NOR 'EXPERIENCE'/'KNOW'/'ENJOY'/'LIVE'/'DO'/'LEARN'/'EXPLORE'/'DISCOVER'/'CARE ABOUT'/BE 'INTERESTED' IN/'INHABIT'/'BE' 'PART OF'/'PARTICIPATE' IN/'BELONG TO'/'PERCEIVE'/'SEE'/'ACHIEVE'/'VALUE'/'APPRECIATE' NOR BLABLABLAETCETCETC ANY OTHER FCKING 'VERB'|'ACTION' ETC IN GENERAL AT ALL JUST SIMPLY BASICALLY ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL NO 'MATTER' WHAT/HOW ETC TF IT IS/CAN BE OF ANY TYPE/WAY/FORM ANY ANYTHING AT ALL IN GENERAL, RELATED TO/ABOUT/FROM/IN ETCETC ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY TOTALLY COMPLETELY ANYTHING/ANYWHERE IN GENERAL AT ALL WHATEVER/HOWEVER IT IS/CAN BE OF ANY TYPE/WAY/FORM ETC IN FCKING GENERAL AT ALL AND THATS IT WITHOUT ANY FCKING "REASONS" NOR "CAUSES" NOR ANY OTHER FCKING GARBAGE CRAP BULLSHIT LIKE THAT IN GENERAL AT ALL OF ANY TYPE AND THATS LITERALLY FCKING BASICALLY IT??????? WHY FCKING CANT I? just because 'people'/'humans' in general both 'pro life' and not, 'pro choice' and not, 'suicidal' and not etcetc say so and fucking feel like it and have INVENTED that it's """"iMpOsSibLe"""" and that yEs Or YeS there has to be a "rEaSoN"/"cAuSe"/"eXpLaNaTiOn" fOr tHaT or fcking what??????? jesus damn fcking christ IT'S SO FCKING FRUSTRATING that this is a fucking damn obligation and that i cant simply just NOT 'want'/NOT 'need'/NOT want to 'like' [[I NEITHER 'LIKE' NOR 'DISLIKE'|'HATE' ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING, I SIMPLY JUST DONT GIVE A FUCK, I SIMPLY LITERALLY JUST DONT FCKING CARE, THATS IT]]/NOT 'care about'/not have any 'interest' nor 'curiosity' nor 'attraction' nor any other crap like that 'for'|'about'|'in'/not want to 'experience'|'do'|'value'|'admire'|'appreciate'|'feel'|'sense'|'see'|'know'|'learn'|'explore'|'accomplish'|'participate in'|'live'|'inhabit'|'be part of' etcetcetc nor any other 'action'|'verb' etc in general at all [[AND NOT WANT TO WANR TO AT ALL AND NOT HAVE ANY "NEED" NOR "DESIRE" TO WANT TO/TO WANT TO WANT TO AT ALL NO MATTER WHAT WITHOUT ANY SINGLE DAMN REASON IN GENERAL AT ALL]] absolutely ANYTHING/ANYWHERE in general AT ALL of any type/way/form etc NO MATTER HOW/WHAT ETC THE FCK IT IS/CAN BE and that's it WITHOUT ANY DAMN FCKING REASONS/CAUSES IN GENERAL AT ALL AND THATS FCKING BASICALLY IT. fuck its so frustrating that its so fucking hard to finally die and completely/entirely disappear and just not 'exist' at all, it's so FRUSTRATING that i can't finally leave/get rid of/get out of the 'meat carcass'/'meat suit', all the flesh or whatever tf a 'body'/'human body' in general is i don't give a damn shit, that fucking prevents "me" or whatever tf that 'verb' means from NOT 'existing' at all/NOT 'being' absolutely literally totally definitely completely basically ANYTHING ANYONE ANYWHERE IN GENERAL AT ALL/'DISAPPEARING' COMPLETELY AND ENTIRELY AND ETERNALLY FOREVER FOR ALL 'ETERNITY' AND JUST SIMPLY NOT 'EXIST' AS NOR 'BE' ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING/ANYONE/ANYWHERE IN GENERAL AT ALL OF LITERALLY ANY 'FORM'/'WAY'/'TYPE'/'KIND'/'SHAPE'/'DIMENSION' ETC AT ALL. Im fucking 'trapped' in a fucking flesh prison that prevents me from FINALLY JUST NOT 'EXISTING' AT ALL/NOT 'BEING' ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING/ANYONE/ANYWHERE IN GENERAL AT ALL and that makes "me" have no damn fcking choice but/that forces me to 'exist', 'be' 'here' and 'be' 'something'/'someone' and 'experience'/'do'/'say'/'think'/'speak' etc etc and or whatever/any other fcking 'action'|'verb' in general 'things'/'words' and all that fucking crap EVEN THOUGH I SIMPLY JUST DONT FUCKING WANT TO/DONT FUCKING WANT TO WANT TO AND THAT'S IT ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL WHATEVER/HOWEVER IT IS/IT CAN BE, OF ANY TYPE/WAY ETC AT ALL IN GENERAL AND A LONG ETC AND THAT'S IT AND ITS NOT BECAUSE OF ANY REASONS IN GENERAL AT ALL. Its so fucking FRUSTRATING to not have the 'right' or whatever tf that means to die/to finally completely disappear and not 'exist' at all ffs I SHOULD HAVE IT FOR FUCK'S SAKE LET ME FINALLY LEAVE THE MEAT CARCASS/LEAVE THIS OBLIGATORY THING THAT I SIMPLY JUST DONT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT [NOR ABOUT ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY ANYTHING ELSE IN GENERAL AT ALL OF ANY TYPE/WAY ETC WHATEVER/HOWEVER TF IT IS/CAN BE ETCETC] NO MATTER HOW THE FCK IT IS/CAN BE, NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS/CAN HAPPEN, NO MATTER WHAT THERE IS/THERE CAN BE, NO MATTER HOW IT WORKS/CAN WORK, NO MATTER WHAT ITS ABOUT/CAN BE ABOUT, NO MATTER WHAT TYPE OF X BLAHBLAH WHATEVER THE FCK IN GENERAL IT IS/CAN BE AND A LOOOOONG ETC. LET 'ME' FINALLY NOT 'BE' LITERALLY ANYTHING NOR ANYONE NOR ANYWHERE AT ALL. 'Im' fucking 'trapped' in this obligatory 'thing' and 'surrounded' by 'pro life' (and 'pro choice'/'suicidals' 'who' are also basically literally the right extreme absolute 'opposite' of me lol) "beings"/"people"/"humans"/"entities"/"species" or whatever tf that's called that won't let me die at all costs not even if i wanted to die "bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN", bEcAuSe wAnTiNg tO dIe iS """iRrAtIoNaL""" (lmfao as if i gave a damn fuck if it's """iRrAtIoNaL""" or not or whatever the fuck that damn 'word' even means

) aNd It GoEs "AgAiNsT" "hUmAn nAtUrE" and blah blah all that fucking garbage bullshit crap that 'humans'/'people' have invented. (lmfaooooooooooooo as if i gave a single damn fuck if it 'goes' """aGaInSt""" """hUmAn nAtUrE""" or whatever tf that even fcking means or not for fucks sake. "I" never 'asked' for absolutely anything in general at all and i shouldn't be fucking forced/obligated to exist/want to 'exist' etc and care about etc things/'life'/'existence' blabla etc uNleSs I dOnT wAnT tO bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN just because 'humans'/'people' fucking say so and feel like it!!!!!!!! I SHOULD HAVE THE DAMN RIGHT TO DIE/LEAVE/DISAPPEAR/NOT 'EXIST' AT ALL ANYMORE ANYTIME/WHENEVER I FCKING WANT TO AND IF I SIMPLY WANT TO WITHOUT FUCKING HAVING TI BE ""bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN/ReAsOnS"" FOR FUCKS SAKE!!!!!!! STOP FUCKINF HAVING "ME" TRAPPED IN EXISTENCE IF I SIMPLY JUST DON'T FUCKING GIVE A FUCK ABOUT IT NOR ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING ELSE AND I SIMPLY JUST DONT FCKING WANT TO 'KNOW' ABOUT IT/'EXPERIENCE' IT/'PARTICIPATE' IN 'IT' NOR ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING ELSE IN GENERAL AT ALL OF ANY TYPE/WAY ETC AT ALL WHATEVER/HOWEVER THE DAMN FCK IT FUCKING IS/CAN BE FFS!!!!!!! 'THIS' NOR LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING ELSE IN GENERAL WHATEVER/HOWEVER IT IS WHATEVER TYPE ETC IT IS/CAN BE ETCETC SHOULDN'T BE AN OBLIGATION!!!!!!!!!) ffs i simply just don't want anything ffs don't fucking obligate/force me to jesus fucking christ let me finally DIE, let me finally COMPLETELY ABSOLUTELY TOTALLY ENTIRELY DISAPPEAR, let me finally NOT 'EXIST' AT ALL AND NOT 'BE' ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING/ANYONE/ANYWHERE AT ALL IN GENERAL OF ANY DAMN WAY/TYPE/FORM/SPECIES/SHAPE/DIMENSION FROM ANYWHERE ANYTHING AT ALL AND NO MATTER WHAT/HOW IT IS FFS. sigh. why the fuck this has to be obligatory jfc, why THE FUCK "cAnT" i literally simply basically seriously ONLY want/want to want (and 'wish'/'crave'/'desire' or whatever tf those 'verbs' fucking mean) DEATH/ETERNAL ENDLESS COMPLETE ABSOLUTE TOTAL PLAIN INFINITE LITERAL PURE NOTHINGNESS/ETERNAL ABSOLUTE NON-EXISTENCE and that's it WITHOUT ANY FCKING REASONS IN GENERAL AT ALL??? for fuck's sake why the fuck cant I literally just NOT/DONT fucking 'want'/'need'/'care about'/be 'interested' in/want to 'experience' etc ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL WHATEVER HOWEVER THE FUCK IT IS/CAN BE NO MATTER WHAT TYPE/WAY ETC IT IS/CAN BE ETC AND THATS IT WITHOUT ANY REASONS/CAUSES AT ALL FFS WHY WHY THE FUCK THAT """ISNT POSSIBLE""" JESUS FCKING CHRIST WHY!!!!!!!!!!!

I just dont want to 'be' absolutely/literally any "being"/"entity"/"species"/"life form"/"creature" or whatever tf all that is of any type, any way, any 'form', any absolutely anything, with any 'age' nor 'gender' nor 'name' nor 'body' nor 'brain' nor 'iDeNtItY' nor basically literally ANYTHING else in general at all/nor absolutely any other fucking garbage bullshit crap like that and in general. Simply just fucking dont and i dont give a fck if this receives assumptions, I won't read any of them at all lol. And i don't say this """bEcAuSe eVeN aNiMaLs 'SuFfeR' aNd 'tHe WoRlD' iS a "bAd pLaCe"""" lmfaoooo as if I gave a damn single f*cking sh*t if there's "sUfFeRiNg" or not and if 'the world' and or whatever the f*ck in general is a ""gOoD pLaCe"" or a ""bAd PlAcE"" lmfaoooo i simply just don't f*cking care, and if whatever tf in general is """"bAd"""" and or any/whatever other """"""nEgAtIvE"""""" 'way'/'adjective'/type of x blablabla whatever the f*cking damn f*ck it simply literally just doesn't """""aFfEcT""""" 'me' nor """""wOrRy""""" 'me' and never will lmao. I dont say that I LITERALLY SIMPLY JUST DONT WANT TO 'BE' ANYTHING AT ALL NOR 'EXPERIENCE' ETC ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING AT ALL """"bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN"""". I just simply DONT and DONT want to want to and i simply literally just NEVER at all will, that's f*cking it. But well, "I" had no f*cking choice but to 'be' 'born' and 'exist' and 'be'/'become' 'something'/'someone', so that, for 'humans'/'people' automatically fucking means that I'll want to yes or fucking yes and that ill want to care about/have 'interest' in etc 'things'/'something'/'life'/'existence' and or whatever the damn f*ck in general uNlEsS i DoNt bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN. Its so fucking frustrating, why the damn fuck can't i simply basically literally JUST NOT FUCKING WANT NOR GIVE A DAMN FCKING SHIT ABOUT ETCETC JUST LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL WHATEVER HOWEVER THE DAMN FCK IT IS/CAN BE OF ANY TYPE/WAY/FORM ETCETC AT ALL NO FCKING MATTER WHATS/WHERES ABOUT/RELATED TO/FROM ETCETC WITHOUT ANY FCKING DAMN "rEaSoNs" NOR "cAuSeS" NOR "eXpLaNaTiOnS" AND THATS SIMPLY FUCKING IT??????!!!!!!!! i just cant fcking 'comprehend' how the fck that """""iSnT pOsSiBlE""""", just because 'people'/'humans' fcking say so and fcking feel like it and have fcking INVENTED that there has to be a reason yes or fcking yes or fcking what? jesus fcking christ

'I' simply just DON'T want to be absolutely ANYTHING nor ANYONE nor ANYWHERE etc at all of any type/way/form/shape/dimension etc no fucking matter what/how tf it is/can be. "I" or whatever tf "I"/"you"/"they"/"she"/"he"/"we" f*cking means i couldn't give any less of a damn f*ck lmao literally ONLY want/want to want (and 'wish'/'desire' or whatever tf those 'verbs' mean lol) to completely and entirely DISAPPEAR for all 'infinite'/'endless' 'eternity' and just NOT 'exist' at all and simply NOT 'be' absolutely totally literally ANYTHING/ANYONE/ANYWHERE at all, AT ALL and NOT 'be part of'/'participate in'/'experience'/'explore'/'discover'/'know' about etcetc ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL no fcking 'matter' what/how the damn fck it is/can be, of literally any single damn type/way/form etc at all, from/about/related to etc just simply basically absolutely literally ANYTHING AT ALL IN GENERAL whatever/however the fcking damn fck it is/can be and a loooong etc. i simply just couldn't give any fcking damn less of a damn fck for fuck's sake lmao I SIMPLY JUST DONT FFS, I JUST DONT WANT TO AND NEVER WILL AND IT'S NOT THAT """"I uSeD tO cAre bUt NoW i DoNt""" nor that """i StoPpEd CaRiNg BuT i CaReD bEfOrE""" nor that i don't """bEcAuSe Of ThIs AnD oR tHaT rEaSoN""" FOR FUCKS SAKE. NO. THERE SIMPLY ARENT ANY REASONS IN GENERAL AT ALL FFS, I SIMPLY JUST DONT, NEVER HAVE HAD NEVER HAVE WANTED TO AND SIMPLY NEVER AT ALL EVER WILL NO 'MATTER' WHAT ETC. why the damn f*ck is that so fcking hard (even impossible lmao or whatever tf that 'word' means) to 'understand'/'comprehend'/'believe' for literally everyone else in general whether they're pro life or not, pro choice or not, suicidal or not except me???? thats what i DONT fucking understand, i SERIOUSLY or whatever tf that 'word' fcking means just CANT fucking understand why the fck is this """"iMpOsSibLe"""" for 'all' 'people' in general/everyone in general, why ffs and why the fck there has to fcking be a ReAsOn wHy, jesus damn fcking christ.

I don't give a damn sh*t and simply never at all ever will (and literally simply never at all ever had) if 'life'/'the world'/'existence'/'planet earth'/'humanity'/'society' and or blahblahblah whatever the damn fck in general is """mEaNiNgLeSs""" or """mEaNiNgFuL""", """sUfFeRiNg""" or not, """pAiNfUl""" or not, """bOrInG""" or """eNjOyAbLe""", """vAlUeLeSs""" or """vAlUaBlE""", """iNtErEsTiNg""" or """uNiNtErEsTiNg""", """wOrThLeSs""" or """wOrThY""", """sAtIsFyInG""" or """uNsAtIsFyInG""", """fUlFIlLiNg""" or """uNfUlFIlLiNg""", """fAiR""" or """uNfAiR""", """sIgNiFiCaNt""" or """iNsIgNiFiCaNt""" and or blah blah blah blah whatever/any other """""pOsItIvE""""" or """""""nEgAtIvE""""""" 'way'/'adjective'/'thing'type of x blabla whatever the fck in general and don't give a damn single fcking shit if 'there are'/'there's' """tRaGeDiEs"""/"""cRuElTy"""/"""iNjUsTiCe"""/"""pAiN"""/"""pOvErTy"""/"""cOrRuPtIoN"""/"""hUnGeR"""/"""pRoBlEmS"""/"""iSsUeS"""/"""diSgRaCeS""" (or whatever tf all 'those' 'words' even fcking mean lmao) and or whatever/any other """"bAd""""/""""nEgAtIvE"""" (as if i gave a damn fuck if it's """"nEgAtIvE"""" or """"pOsItIvE"""" or howevwr the fucking damn fuck jfc lmao i literally just couldn't care any less!!!!!) 'tHiNgS'/'eVeNtS'/'cIrCuMsTaNcEs'/'SiTuAtIoNs' (or however the fck to call it lol) of whatever/any other type or not LMFAAOOOOO I JUST SIMPLY COULDN'T FUCKING CARE ANY FCKING LESS!!!!!!! i literally just dont fucking want/don't give a damn fuck about/don't and dont fucking want to have any damn 'interest' nor 'curiosity' etc for|about|in/don't want to 'experience' nor 'know' nor 'do' nor 'learn' 'about' nor 'explore' nor 'participate in' nor 'enjoy' nor 'discover' nor 'be part of' nor 'inhabit' nor 'perceive' nor 'live' nor blahblahetcetc absolutely any other 'verb'|'action' etc in general at all ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY TOTALLY COMPLETELY ANYTHING FOR FUCKS SAKE, and simply NEVER at all ever fucking will no 'matter' what etc. ANYTHING. A N Y T H I N G. THATS IT. ANYTHING AT ALL IN GENERAL. Absolutely ANYTHING at all in general no fcking 'matter' what/how etc tf it is/can be and no fcking 'matter' what type/way/form of whatever tf in general it is/can be etc no fcking 'matter', 'related to'/'about'/'from'/'in' etc just basically ANYTHING/ANYWHERE IN GENERAL AT ALL no fcking 'matter' what/how etc it is/can be of literally any type/way etc at all in general. and i don't say this because of a fucking reason/reasons (jfc why the damn fck there has to be one yes or fucking yes lmfao why cant i simply literally JUST FUCKING DONT/DONT WANT TO WANT TO and thats fcking it i just cant fcking comprehend), there simply ARENT ANY. it's not a """pHaSe""" nor """tEmPoRaRY""" nor """nIhIlIsM""" nor """aNtInAtAlIsM""'/"""eFiLisM""" nor """dEpReSsIoN""" nor any other """mEnTaL iLlNeSsEs""" nor """aPaThY""" nor """bAd LiFe""" nor """bAd cIrCuMsTaNcEs"""/"""bAd SiTuAtIoN"""/"""bAd eXpErIeNcEs"""/"""bAd LiViNg CoNdItIoNs""" nor """dIsApPoInTmEnT""" nor """eMpTiNeSs""" nor """bOrEdOm""" nor """nUmBnEsS""" nor literally absolutely ANY other fcking damn ReAsOn/cAuSe in general at all. It's simply literally just NOT because of ANY rEaSoNs/cAuSeS at all ffs i simply just fucking don't ffs and that's it jfc, it's so fucking frustrating that this is an obligation. I JUST DONT GIVE A FUCK FOR FUCKS SAKE AND I NEVER WILL NO MATTER WHAT ETC AT ALL. THATS. IT. Just because "i" had literally no damn fcking choice but to 'exist', 'be'/'become' 'something'/'someone' and 'be' 'brought' 'here'/'come' 'here', that DOESNT fcking mean that i have to/that I'll 'want'/'care' about/be 'interested' in etcetcblabla 'things'/'something' yes or fucking yes and if I don't """iTs BeCaUse Of A rEaSoN""" FOR FUCKS SAKE I SHOULDN'T BE FUCKING OBLIGATED/FORCED TO. I SIMPLY JUST FCKING DONT AND DONT WANT TO WANT TO, ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL AND THAT'S IT AND I NEVER AT ALL WILL AND THERE SIMPLY ARENT ANY FCKING REASONS/CAUSES AT ALL OF ANY TYPE. I simply just fucking dont and that's basically it FOR FUCK'S SAKE. i literally just never will understand why the fck that is """"""iMpOsSibLe"""""", """""impossible""""" why? Because 'humans'/'people' fcking say so and fcking feel like it and have fcking INVENTED that """"tO nOt WaNt eTc AnYtHiNg tHeRe HaS tO bE a 'ReAsOn'/'eXpLaNaTiOn'/'cAuSe' WhY and all that fcking INVENTED garbage crap or what?????

lugerepair · Feb 4, 2021

Actually I think most animals have shitty lives. Being an animal probably fucking sucks honestly. Nature is brutal, cruel. Can you imagine getting injured in the wild? Sprained ankle? Poof, you're dead, cause you're the slowest antelope in the herd now and an easy target.

With that said, I'd be a cat.

Makko · Feb 4, 2021

Isitmytime said:
You should have been more specific... female spider then, 'cause male spiders get eaten. On the flip side, they die while having sex. :) I'd suggest a mantis, they're pretty badass insects, too.

Mantis are neat but I have a spider fixation.

Anglerfish are my #2 favorites. Living in the deep sea and carrying a glowing lantern sounds cosy. They also absorb their boys wield them as bodyparts.

NeverGoodEnuff · Feb 4, 2021

I wanna be a bear. Grizzly. You spend all summer eating as much as you can, to get as fat as you can, then take a l-o-n-g nap and when you wake up, you are skinny and do it all over again. Also, when anybody tries to invade your space, you stand up tall, give a roar, and they run away. People generally don't screw you around.

_Kaira_ · Feb 4, 2021

Well really I wish I wasn't born at all. But if I had to pick, probably a cat. Just get to lay around and no one gives a d*mn lol.

BeansOfRequirement · Feb 4, 2021

Wish I was a bird and that my mother's egg was laid mid-flight.

DetachedDreamer97 · Feb 4, 2021

It would be cool to be a tardigrade. That way, I'd be virtually indestructible.

watchingthewheels · Feb 4, 2021

DetachedDreamer97 said:
It would be cool to be a tardigrade. That way, I'd be virtually indestructible.

Or a virus, supposedly...or Mr. Burns...

Doctor: Here's the door to your body, see? And these are oversized novelty germs. That's influenza, that's bronchitis, and this cute little cuddle-bug is pancreatic cancer. Here's what happens when they all try to get through the door at once. Woo-woo-woo-woo-woo-woo-woo. Move it, chowderhead. We call it, "Three Stooges Syndrome".

Mr. Burns: So what you're saying is, I'm indestructible.

Doctor: Oh, no, no, in fact, even slight breeze could...

Mr. Burns: Indestructible.

DetachedDreamer97 · Feb 4, 2021

watchingthewheels said:
Or a virus, supposedly...or Mr. Burns...

Doctor: Here's the door to your body, see? And these are oversized novelty germs. That's influenza, that's bronchitis, and this cute little cuddle-bug is pancreatic cancer. Here's what happens when they all try to get through the door at once. Woo-woo-woo-woo-woo-woo-woo. Move it, chowderhead. We call it, "Three Stooges Syndrome".

Mr. Burns: So what you're saying is, I'm indestructible.

Doctor: Oh, no, no, in fact, even slight breeze could...

Mr. Burns: Indestructible.

Hehehe! Mr. Burns is a tardigrade...

Yeet555 · Feb 4, 2021

No.

But then, why did one incarnate?

Makko · Feb 5, 2021

DetachedDreamer97 said:
It would be cool to be a tardigrade. That way, I'd be virtually indestructible.

I read that they can even go to space and live there. Cool animal.

DetachedDreamer97 · Feb 5, 2021

Makko said:
I read that they can even go to space and live there. Cool animal.

Yes! They're badass!

Konjac · Feb 5, 2021

I'd love to be a cat. All they do is sleep, eat, destroy stuff... basically everything I do now, but they get headpats and affection for it because they're cute. They're truly living their best lives.

262653 · Feb 5, 2021

DetachedDreamer97 said:
It would be cool to be a tardigrade. That way, I'd be virtually indestructible.

They look like miniature vacuum cleaner bags.

DetachedDreamer97 · Feb 5, 2021

Burzolog said:
They look like miniature vacuum cleaner bags.

Heheheh... Now that you mention it, they kinda do... and they kinda act like one when they become dormant or active.

makingsure4 · Feb 5, 2021

I would never want to be a tardigrade, at least a sad one, because they are almost impossible to kill. Living many moons.

AE2021 · Feb 5, 2021

NeverGoodEnuff said:
I wanna be a bear. Grizzly. You spend all summer eating as much as you can, to get as fat as you can, then take a l-o-n-g nap and when you wake up, you are skinny and do it all over again. Also, when anybody tries to invade your space, you stand up tall, give a roar, and they run away. People generally don't screw you around.

Same here. A grizzly bear way out in the middle of a never ending forest.

DetachedDreamer97 · Feb 5, 2021

makingsure4 said:
I would never want to be a tardigrade, at least a sad one, because they are almost impossible to kill. Living many moons.

Touche... granted... their lifespan appears to be not much longer than two and one-half years (unless they go into their invulnerable state).

jakaranda3 · Feb 7, 2021

Any kind of a bird.
Always loved to fly since born. By the way I also like scuba diving mostly because it's similar to flying.

aqish · Feb 8, 2021

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EndlessOblivion said:
No, never at all have wanted, and I doubt that i ever will lol (and don't want to/dont want to want to anyway lmfao). I just simply dont (never have wanted and im sure that simply never will and i don't have any fcking "pRoBlEm" with that lmao. i just dont/dont want to want to and that's it, i only/just want nothingness/non-existence and THATS IT and its not because of any reason at all) want to be "born" as/"exist" as absolutely anything at all nor "be" anyone nor anywhere at all neither. And i dont say that i don't """""""bEcAuSe 'lIfE'/'eXiStEnCe'/'tHe wOrlD'/'pLaNeT eArTh'/'hUmAnItY'/'sOcIeTy' aNd Or WhAteVeR tHe DaMn fUcK iN gEnErAl iS "sUfFeRiNg"/"pAiNfUl"/"hOrRiBlE"/"cRuEl"/"eViL"/"uNfAiR"/"hArD"/"mEaNiNgLeSs"/"aBsUrD"/"pOiNtLeSs"/"bOrInG"/"uNeNjOyAbLe"/"wOrThLeSs"/"uNsAtIsFyInG" [or whatever tf all those """""nEgAtIvE""""" 'words'/'ways'/'adjectives'/tYpEs Of X even fcking mean lmfao i don't give a f as well as i simply just don't give a fck that """nEgAtIvE"""/"""pOsItIvE""" means lmao i couldn't care any fucking damn less ffs] aNd Or AnY/wHaTeVeR oThEr """""""nEgAtIvE"""""" 'way'/'adjective'/'thing' in general/type of 'thing' in general/'place' in general/type of 'place' in general/type of 'life'/type of 'world'/type of 'planet'/type of 'consciousness'/type of 'existence'/type of 'humanity'/type of 'society'/type of 'person'/type of x/type of blah blah blah etc etc etc whatever the damn fck in general"""""" (it's NOT because of that "rEaSoN" nor because of literally ANY other single damn fcking reason in general at all. It's simply just NOT because of ANY reason at all of any type at all ffs i don't give a goddamn fcking shit if there is or there isnt """sUfFeRiNg"""/"""cRuElTy"""/"""pAiN"""/"""iNjUsTiCe"""/"""dIsCrImInAtIoN""" or whatever tf all those """nEgAtIvE""" 'words'/'things' and or whatever tf that is mean lmao and or whatever other """"nEgAtIvE"""" 'thing' or not lmfaooo I JUST COULDN'T CARE ANY FCKING LESS) no lmfaoooooo, as if I gave a damn fck if 'life'/'existence'/'the world'/'planet earth'/'humanity'/'society'/'beings'|'species'|'entities'|'life forms'/'consciousness' and or blahblahblah whatever the damn fck in general whatever it is is any/whatever """"""pOsItIvE"""""" or """""""""nEgAtIvE""""""""" 'way'/'adjective'/'thing'/type of 'thing'/'place'/type of 'place'/type of 'life'/type of 'world'/type of 'planet'/type of 'existence'/type or WHATEVER THE DAMN FUCK IN GENERAL FOR FUCKS SAKE I SIMPLY JUST DONT GIVE A DAMN FUCK FOR FUCKS SAKE I SIMPLY JUST DONT it has NEVER """aFfEcTeD""" "me" nor """wOrRiEd""" "me" nor """eMbArRaSs""" "me" nor any other crap like that ffs why the fck it fcking has to for fucks sake. I simply just DONT want to "be" (nor "do"/"experience"/"know"/"enjoy"/"learn"/"kNoW hOw tO dO"/"explore"/"discover" blabla nor any other fcking damn 'verb'/'action' etc in general at all) absolutely, literally, totally, basically ANYTHING. A N Y T H I N G. of literally any damn 'type'/'kind'/'way'/'form' etc at all. THATS IT. I JUST DONT AND NEVER WILL AND THERE ARENT ANY ""REASONS WHY"". Why the fck should I? why can't "I" just simply NOT want to 'be' literally absolutely totally ANYTHING ANYONE ANYWHERE AT ALL and that's it (WITHOUT any reasons/causes in general at all)??? I simply just dont want to "feel" absolutely anything, ANY type of "emotions"/"feelings"/"sensations"/"senses" or whatever tf all that is, ANY type of ""pOsItIvE"" 'feelings'/'emotions'/'sensations' etc AT ALL, neither "jOy" nor "hApPiNeSs" nor "eNjOyMeNt" nor "pLeAsUrE" nor "eNtErTaInMeNt" nor "sAtIsFaCtIoN" nor "fUlFiLlmEnT" absolutely/literally ANY other fucking """pOsItIvE""" garbage crap bullshit/'feeling'/'emotion'/'sensation' etc like that nor in general at all about literally and absolutely ANYTHING no fcking 'matter' what neither how etc the fck it is/it can be/it'll be. I simply just DONT give a damn fuck ffs and i never will, i simply just don't fcking want to, never at all have wanted and literally NEVER at all ever will. Ill simply never at all have ANY "nEcEsSiTy"/"nEeD"/"dEsIrE"/"iNtErEsT"/"iNtEnTiOn" nor any other crap like to want to/want to want to and thats it, i simply just fucking DONT. i literally just couldn't care any damn less about absolutely anything ffs why the damn fck am i fcking forced/obligated to and why tf am i fucking "sUpPoSeD" to just because "I" had NO DAMN CHOICE but to 'exist' and 'be'/'become' 'something'/'someone' in general and be 'put' 'inside' a 'body'/'human body'/'brain'/'mind' that has 'made' "me" "be"/"exist" in general, and just because "i" had NO DAMN CHOICE but to 'come' 'here'/'be' 'brought' 'here' to 'existence'/'life'/'consciousness'/a 'place' called 'the world' and 'planet earth' etcblabla!!!!! that DOESNT have to fucking automatically mean that i have to/ill care about etc/want to care about and or whatever tf 'things'/'something' in general/'life'/'existence' and or whatever tf in general ""uNlEsS i DoNt bEcAuSe Of ThIs aNd Or tHaT ReAsOn/rEaSonS/cAuSes"" FOR FUCK'S SAKE. WHAT IF I SIMPLY JUST DONT/DONT WANT TO AT ALL AND THAT'S FUCKING IT FFS FFFFFUUUUUCKKKK ITS ABSOLUTELY FUCKING 'IMPOSSIBLE' FOR ME TO FUCKING 'UNDERSTAND' WHY THE FUCK THAT'S """"""IMPOSSIBLE"""""" AND """""""IRRATIONAL""""""" OR WHATEVER TF THAT EVEN FCKING MEANS and i don't give a damn fuck if it is or it isnt lmfao that doesnt fucking mean that it fucking can't be true jesus fucking christ, just because 'people'/'humans' fucking said so and felt like it and decided to INVENT that garbage crap that it's """"iMpOsSibLe"""" and that there has to be a fcking """rEaSoN wHy""" doesnt fcking mean that it "cAnT bE tRuE/pOsSiBlE" ffs. BUT WHY FFS WHY CANT I SIMPLY JUST NOT WANT ETC LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL NOR HAVE THE FUCKING "NEED"/"NECESSITY"/"DESIRE"/"INTEREST"/"INTENTION" TO/TO WANT TO/TO WANT TO WANT TO FFS?????????? sigh. it's so fucking frustrating and it gives me so much 'impotence' and 'frustration' that this is a fucking obligation and that i can't finally NOT 'exist' at all because it's so fcking hard to die and 'people'/'humans' or whatever tf that is/means will try at all costs to make "me" stay 'alive'/'continue' 'existing' because this is obligatory and yes or yes there has to be a """ReAsOn wHy I dOnT""". Ffffffuuuuuuuckkkkkkkk. The only 'reasons' "I" still exist/i haven't died/kms yet is my 'parents'/'family' and a cat my parents 'adopted' that 'loves'/'wants' me a lot because 'theyd' all be 'very'/'extremely' 'devastated'/'hurt'/'shocked'/'traumatized' and blah blah would 'suffer'/'cry' a lot or whatever tf that means and blah blah, and would be even more if i do it 'here' in my 'parents' 'house' and blah blah, sigh i shouldn't give a damn fuck ffs as ""cRuEl""/""cOlD"" as it "sounds", for fucks sake. Anyways 'attempting' 'here' is just too risky and hard, with the 'covid' 'restrictions' and all that (that btw i don't give a damn fuck if there are/there's a "rEsTrIcTioNs"/"lOcKdOwN"/"pAnDeMiC" or whatever tf that even means or not lmfao it has never ""aFfEcTeD""/""wOrRiEd"" "me" and simply never will lmao) i have even less enough time to "properly"/"safely"/"reliably" attempt and "ctb" ("catch" the "bus" to NOTHINGNESS/NON-EXISTENCE, NOT to any 'sort'/'kind'/'type'/'way'/'form' etc of any "afterlife" at all) and i fucking risk being found/getting caught even more... Fuck. Its so fucking FRUSTRATING!!!!!!
Also i haven't died yet/I still exist because I simply dont have any reliable way out to my access and it's just so fucking risky and hard to attempt here, id have to fucking work and all that crap to have money to 'buy'/'have' a fcking 'house'/'apartment' and finally attempt there "without any" risks/interruptions/worries of getting caught/'psych ward'/'failing' and not having any more 'opportunities'/'traumatizing' and 'shocking' my 'parents'/'family' etc but jfc not fucking 'only' I'd have to fucking 'work' and all that damn garbage crap shit, id have to fcking 'wait' 'who' the fck 'knows' how many fcking 'years' to FINALLY be fucking 'aBlE' to buy/have the damn 'house'/'apartment' and FINALLY attempt/"ctb"/die there. The fcking 'job'/'work' would take a lot of fucking "eFfOrT"/"eNeRgY"/"sTrEnGtH"/"mOtIvAtIoN"/"wIlL"/"dEdIcAtIoN"/"iNtErEsT" and all that fcking damn garbage bullshit crap and id even have to fcking wait for so many years until i finally have the damn fcking 'house', 'apartment' or whatever tf. Sigh. Why the fck cant it be easy jfc why is it so fucking hard. (*or whatever the fuck 'all' 'that' 'is'/'all' 'that' 'is' 'called' that i simply just will never give not even a single goddamn fcking sht about no matter how it is/can be, how ""gOoD"" or how """bAd""" it is/can be, neither what there is/there can be, neither what happens/can happen, neither what types of 'things'/'events' and or whatever tf happen/can happen, neither 'how' the fck what happens happens/is, neither what the fck ""this life""/""this 'type' of life"" and or any/whatever other 'life'/type of 'life' etc is about/can be about, neither how the fuck not 'only' 'life'/""""this life"""" [as if there were 'more'/'other' 'lives' lmfaooo i really 'hope' NOT ffs i simply just don't want and never at all will absolutely literally completely ANYTHING at all in general of any type any way etc no 'matter' what/how etc the fck it is/can be etcetc] but any other 'life'/type of 'life' etcetc however tf it is/can be nor absolutely anything else in general whatever it is of whatever type etc 'works'/can 'work' etc, and a loooong etc. I literally just dont give a damn fck jfc lmao. It doesnt fucking 'matter' and never at all will how """gOoD""" and or any/whatever other """"pOsItIvE"""" 'way'/'adjective' blabla or how """"bAd"""" and or any/whatever other """"""nEgAtIvE"""""" 'way'/'adjective' blabla whatever the damn fuck in general/whatever|any 'thing'|'place'|'event'|'species'|'beings' and or whatever tf in general whatever it is/anything/everything whatever tf it is/can be of whatever type of whatever tf in general is/isn't/can be/will be lmfaoooo I literally just don't fcking give a damn goddamn fuck i literally just fucking don't ffs anything/everything in general whatever/however the damn fck it is/can be of whatever type/way etc the fuck it fucking is/can be etc has always been, is and will always be COMPLETELY AND ABSOLUTELY 'indifferent' or whatever tf that 'word' means lol and thats it for fucks damn fcking sake. it's so fucking FRUSTRATING that just because "i" 'exist' and "am" "here" and "im" "something"/"someone" and was 'brought' "here" that has to fucking automatically that i fucking have to/that i'll want to 'care about'/'want'/have 'interest' for/want to 'do' and or 'experience' and or 'know' and or 'enjoy' and or 'learn' and or 'see' and or 'feel' and or 'have' and or 'be' and or 'explore' and or blablaetcetc whatever/any other fucking 'action'/'verb' etc in general blabla whatever tf 'things'/'something'/'life' in general/'existence' in general and or blabla whatever the fuck yes or fucking yes """uNlEsS i DonT bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN/rEaSoNs AnD tHeReS aN eXpLaNaTiOn FoR tHaT aNd tHeReS yEs oR yEs SoMeThiNg oR sOmEoNe tHaT bRoUgHt Me tO tHaT "dEcIsIoN"/"cOnClUsIoN"/"pOiNt" aNd iTs yEs Or YeS tHe CoNsEqUeNcE oF sOmEtHiNg""", WHY THE FUCK cant i literally simply JUST DONT FUCKING WANT TO 'EXIST' NOR 'EXPERIENCE'/'KNOW'/'ENJOY'/'LIVE'/'DO'/'LEARN'/'EXPLORE'/'DISCOVER'/'CARE ABOUT'/BE 'INTERESTED' IN/'INHABIT'/'BE' 'PART OF'/'PARTICIPATE' IN/'BELONG TO'/'PERCEIVE'/'SEE'/'ACHIEVE'/'VALUE'/'APPRECIATE' NOR BLABLABLAETCETCETC ANY OTHER FCKING 'VERB'|'ACTION' ETC IN GENERAL AT ALL JUST SIMPLY BASICALLY ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL NO 'MATTER' WHAT/HOW ETC TF IT IS/CAN BE OF ANY TYPE/WAY/FORM ANY ANYTHING AT ALL IN GENERAL, RELATED TO/ABOUT/FROM/IN ETCETC ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY TOTALLY COMPLETELY ANYTHING/ANYWHERE IN GENERAL AT ALL WHATEVER/HOWEVER IT IS/CAN BE OF ANY TYPE/WAY/FORM ETC IN FCKING GENERAL AT ALL AND THATS IT WITHOUT ANY FCKING "REASONS" NOR "CAUSES" NOR ANY OTHER FCKING GARBAGE CRAP BULLSHIT LIKE THAT IN GENERAL AT ALL OF ANY TYPE AND THATS LITERALLY FCKING BASICALLY IT??????? WHY FCKING CANT I? just because 'people'/'humans' in general both 'pro life' and not, 'pro choice' and not, 'suicidal' and not etcetc say so and fucking feel like it and have INVENTED that it's """"iMpOsSibLe"""" and that yEs Or YeS there has to be a "rEaSoN"/"cAuSe"/"eXpLaNaTiOn" fOr tHaT or fcking what??????? jesus damn fcking christ IT'S SO FCKING FRUSTRATING that this is a fucking damn obligation and that i cant simply just NOT 'want'/NOT 'need'/NOT want to 'like' [[I NEITHER 'LIKE' NOR 'DISLIKE'|'HATE' ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING, I SIMPLY JUST DONT GIVE A FUCK, I SIMPLY LITERALLY JUST DONT FCKING CARE, THATS IT]]/NOT 'care about'/not have any 'interest' nor 'curiosity' nor 'attraction' nor any other crap like that 'for'|'about'|'in'/not want to 'experience'|'do'|'value'|'admire'|'appreciate'|'feel'|'sense'|'see'|'know'|'learn'|'explore'|'accomplish'|'participate in'|'live'|'inhabit'|'be part of' etcetcetc nor any other 'action'|'verb' etc in general at all [[AND NOT WANT TO WANR TO AT ALL AND NOT HAVE ANY "NEED" NOR "DESIRE" TO WANT TO/TO WANT TO WANT TO AT ALL NO MATTER WHAT WITHOUT ANY SINGLE DAMN REASON IN GENERAL AT ALL]] absolutely ANYTHING/ANYWHERE in general AT ALL of any type/way/form etc NO MATTER HOW/WHAT ETC THE FCK IT IS/CAN BE and that's it WITHOUT ANY DAMN FCKING REASONS/CAUSES IN GENERAL AT ALL AND THATS FCKING BASICALLY IT. fuck its so frustrating that its so fucking hard to finally die and completely/entirely disappear and just not 'exist' at all, it's so FRUSTRATING that i can't finally leave/get rid of/get out of the 'meat carcass'/'meat suit', all the flesh or whatever tf a 'body'/'human body' in general is i don't give a damn shit, that fucking prevents "me" or whatever tf that 'verb' means from NOT 'existing' at all/NOT 'being' absolutely literally totally definitely completely basically ANYTHING ANYONE ANYWHERE IN GENERAL AT ALL/'DISAPPEARING' COMPLETELY AND ENTIRELY AND ETERNALLY FOREVER FOR ALL 'ETERNITY' AND JUST SIMPLY NOT 'EXIST' AS NOR 'BE' ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING/ANYONE/ANYWHERE IN GENERAL AT ALL OF LITERALLY ANY 'FORM'/'WAY'/'TYPE'/'KIND'/'SHAPE'/'DIMENSION' ETC AT ALL. Im fucking 'trapped' in a fucking flesh prison that prevents me from FINALLY JUST NOT 'EXISTING' AT ALL/NOT 'BEING' ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING/ANYONE/ANYWHERE IN GENERAL AT ALL and that makes "me" have no damn fcking choice but/that forces me to 'exist', 'be' 'here' and 'be' 'something'/'someone' and 'experience'/'do'/'say'/'think'/'speak' etc etc and or whatever/any other fcking 'action'|'verb' in general 'things'/'words' and all that fucking crap EVEN THOUGH I SIMPLY JUST DONT FUCKING WANT TO/DONT FUCKING WANT TO WANT TO AND THAT'S IT ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL WHATEVER/HOWEVER IT IS/IT CAN BE, OF ANY TYPE/WAY ETC AT ALL IN GENERAL AND A LONG ETC AND THAT'S IT AND ITS NOT BECAUSE OF ANY REASONS IN GENERAL AT ALL. Its so fucking FRUSTRATING to not have the 'right' or whatever tf that means to die/to finally completely disappear and not 'exist' at all ffs I SHOULD HAVE IT FOR FUCK'S SAKE LET ME FINALLY LEAVE THE MEAT CARCASS/LEAVE THIS OBLIGATORY THING THAT I SIMPLY JUST DONT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT [NOR ABOUT ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY ANYTHING ELSE IN GENERAL AT ALL OF ANY TYPE/WAY ETC WHATEVER/HOWEVER TF IT IS/CAN BE ETCETC] NO MATTER HOW THE FCK IT IS/CAN BE, NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS/CAN HAPPEN, NO MATTER WHAT THERE IS/THERE CAN BE, NO MATTER HOW IT WORKS/CAN WORK, NO MATTER WHAT ITS ABOUT/CAN BE ABOUT, NO MATTER WHAT TYPE OF X BLAHBLAH WHATEVER THE FCK IN GENERAL IT IS/CAN BE AND A LOOOOONG ETC. LET 'ME' FINALLY NOT 'BE' LITERALLY ANYTHING NOR ANYONE NOR ANYWHERE AT ALL. 'Im' fucking 'trapped' in this obligatory 'thing' and 'surrounded' by 'pro life' (and 'pro choice'/'suicidals' 'who' are also basically literally the right extreme absolute 'opposite' of me lol) "beings"/"people"/"humans"/"entities"/"species" or whatever tf that's called that won't let me die at all costs not even if i wanted to die "bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN", bEcAuSe wAnTiNg tO dIe iS """iRrAtIoNaL""" (lmfao as if i gave a damn fuck if it's """iRrAtIoNaL""" or not or whatever the fuck that damn 'word' even means ) aNd It GoEs "AgAiNsT" "hUmAn nAtUrE" and blah blah all that fucking garbage bullshit crap that 'humans'/'people' have invented. (lmfaooooooooooooo as if i gave a single damn fuck if it 'goes' """aGaInSt""" """hUmAn nAtUrE""" or whatever tf that even fcking means or not for fucks sake. "I" never 'asked' for absolutely anything in general at all and i shouldn't be fucking forced/obligated to exist/want to 'exist' etc and care about etc things/'life'/'existence' blabla etc uNleSs I dOnT wAnT tO bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN just because 'humans'/'people' fucking say so and feel like it!!!!!!!! I SHOULD HAVE THE DAMN RIGHT TO DIE/LEAVE/DISAPPEAR/NOT 'EXIST' AT ALL ANYMORE ANYTIME/WHENEVER I FCKING WANT TO AND IF I SIMPLY WANT TO WITHOUT FUCKING HAVING TI BE ""bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN/ReAsOnS"" FOR FUCKS SAKE!!!!!!! STOP FUCKINF HAVING "ME" TRAPPED IN EXISTENCE IF I SIMPLY JUST DON'T FUCKING GIVE A FUCK ABOUT IT NOR ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING ELSE AND I SIMPLY JUST DONT FCKING WANT TO 'KNOW' ABOUT IT/'EXPERIENCE' IT/'PARTICIPATE' IN 'IT' NOR ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING ELSE IN GENERAL AT ALL OF ANY TYPE/WAY ETC AT ALL WHATEVER/HOWEVER THE DAMN FCK IT FUCKING IS/CAN BE FFS!!!!!!! 'THIS' NOR LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING ELSE IN GENERAL WHATEVER/HOWEVER IT IS WHATEVER TYPE ETC IT IS/CAN BE ETCETC SHOULDN'T BE AN OBLIGATION!!!!!!!!!) ffs i simply just don't want anything ffs don't fucking obligate/force me to jesus fucking christ let me finally DIE, let me finally COMPLETELY ABSOLUTELY TOTALLY ENTIRELY DISAPPEAR, let me finally NOT 'EXIST' AT ALL AND NOT 'BE' ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING/ANYONE/ANYWHERE AT ALL IN GENERAL OF ANY DAMN WAY/TYPE/FORM/SPECIES/SHAPE/DIMENSION FROM ANYWHERE ANYTHING AT ALL AND NO MATTER WHAT/HOW IT IS FFS. sigh. why the fuck this has to be obligatory jfc, why THE FUCK "cAnT" i literally simply basically seriously ONLY want/want to want (and 'wish'/'crave'/'desire' or whatever tf those 'verbs' fucking mean) DEATH/ETERNAL ENDLESS COMPLETE ABSOLUTE TOTAL PLAIN INFINITE LITERAL PURE NOTHINGNESS/ETERNAL ABSOLUTE NON-EXISTENCE and that's it WITHOUT ANY FCKING REASONS IN GENERAL AT ALL??? for fuck's sake why the fuck cant I literally just NOT/DONT fucking 'want'/'need'/'care about'/be 'interested' in/want to 'experience' etc ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL WHATEVER HOWEVER THE FUCK IT IS/CAN BE NO MATTER WHAT TYPE/WAY ETC IT IS/CAN BE ETC AND THATS IT WITHOUT ANY REASONS/CAUSES AT ALL FFS WHY WHY THE FUCK THAT """ISNT POSSIBLE""" JESUS FCKING CHRIST WHY!!!!!!!!!!!

I just dont want to 'be' absolutely/literally any "being"/"entity"/"species"/"life form"/"creature" or whatever tf all that is of any type, any way, any 'form', any absolutely anything, with any 'age' nor 'gender' nor 'name' nor 'body' nor 'brain' nor 'iDeNtItY' nor basically literally ANYTHING else in general at all/nor absolutely any other fucking garbage bullshit crap like that and in general. Simply just fucking dont and i dont give a fck if this receives assumptions, I won't read any of them at all lol. And i don't say this """bEcAuSe eVeN aNiMaLs 'SuFfeR' aNd 'tHe WoRlD' iS a "bAd pLaCe"""" lmfaoooo as if I gave a damn single f*cking sh*t if there's "sUfFeRiNg" or not and if 'the world' and or whatever the f*ck in general is a ""gOoD pLaCe"" or a ""bAd PlAcE"" lmfaoooo i simply just don't f*cking care, and if whatever tf in general is """"bAd"""" and or any/whatever other """"""nEgAtIvE"""""" 'way'/'adjective'/type of x blablabla whatever the f*cking damn f*ck it simply literally just doesn't """""aFfEcT""""" 'me' nor """""wOrRy""""" 'me' and never will lmao. I dont say that I LITERALLY SIMPLY JUST DONT WANT TO 'BE' ANYTHING AT ALL NOR 'EXPERIENCE' ETC ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING AT ALL """"bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN"""". I just simply DONT and DONT want to want to and i simply literally just NEVER at all will, that's f*cking it. But well, "I" had no f*cking choice but to 'be' 'born' and 'exist' and 'be'/'become' 'something'/'someone', so that, for 'humans'/'people' automatically fucking means that I'll want to yes or fucking yes and that ill want to care about/have 'interest' in etc 'things'/'something'/'life'/'existence' and or whatever the damn f*ck in general uNlEsS i DoNt bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN. Its so fucking frustrating, why the damn fuck can't i simply basically literally JUST NOT FUCKING WANT NOR GIVE A DAMN FCKING SHIT ABOUT ETCETC JUST LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL WHATEVER HOWEVER THE DAMN FCK IT IS/CAN BE OF ANY TYPE/WAY/FORM ETCETC AT ALL NO FCKING MATTER WHATS/WHERES ABOUT/RELATED TO/FROM ETCETC WITHOUT ANY FCKING DAMN "rEaSoNs" NOR "cAuSeS" NOR "eXpLaNaTiOnS" AND THATS SIMPLY FUCKING IT??????!!!!!!!! i just cant fcking 'comprehend' how the fck that """""iSnT pOsSiBlE""""", just because 'people'/'humans' fcking say so and fcking feel like it and have fcking INVENTED that there has to be a reason yes or fcking yes or fcking what? jesus fcking christ
'I' simply just DON'T want to be absolutely ANYTHING nor ANYONE nor ANYWHERE etc at all of any type/way/form/shape/dimension etc no fucking matter what/how tf it is/can be. "I" or whatever tf "I"/"you"/"they"/"she"/"he"/"we" f*cking means i couldn't give any less of a damn f*ck lmao literally ONLY want/want to want (and 'wish'/'desire' or whatever tf those 'verbs' mean lol) to completely and entirely DISAPPEAR for all 'infinite'/'endless' 'eternity' and just NOT 'exist' at all and simply NOT 'be' absolutely totally literally ANYTHING/ANYONE/ANYWHERE at all, AT ALL and NOT 'be part of'/'participate in'/'experience'/'explore'/'discover'/'know' about etcetc ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL no fcking 'matter' what/how the damn fck it is/can be, of literally any single damn type/way/form etc at all, from/about/related to etc just simply basically absolutely literally ANYTHING AT ALL IN GENERAL whatever/however the fcking damn fck it is/can be and a loooong etc. i simply just couldn't give any fcking damn less of a damn fck for fuck's sake lmao I SIMPLY JUST DONT FFS, I JUST DONT WANT TO AND NEVER WILL AND IT'S NOT THAT """"I uSeD tO cAre bUt NoW i DoNt""" nor that """i StoPpEd CaRiNg BuT i CaReD bEfOrE""" nor that i don't """bEcAuSe Of ThIs AnD oR tHaT rEaSoN""" FOR FUCKS SAKE. NO. THERE SIMPLY ARENT ANY REASONS IN GENERAL AT ALL FFS, I SIMPLY JUST DONT, NEVER HAVE HAD NEVER HAVE WANTED TO AND SIMPLY NEVER AT ALL EVER WILL NO 'MATTER' WHAT ETC. why the damn f*ck is that so fcking hard (even impossible lmao or whatever tf that 'word' means) to 'understand'/'comprehend'/'believe' for literally everyone else in general whether they're pro life or not, pro choice or not, suicidal or not except me???? thats what i DONT fucking understand, i SERIOUSLY or whatever tf that 'word' fcking means just CANT fucking understand why the fck is this """"iMpOsSibLe"""" for 'all' 'people' in general/everyone in general, why ffs and why the fck there has to fcking be a ReAsOn wHy, jesus damn fcking christ.

I don't give a damn sh*t and simply never at all ever will (and literally simply never at all ever had) if 'life'/'the world'/'existence'/'planet earth'/'humanity'/'society' and or blahblahblah whatever the damn fck in general is """mEaNiNgLeSs""" or """mEaNiNgFuL""", """sUfFeRiNg""" or not, """pAiNfUl""" or not, """bOrInG""" or """eNjOyAbLe""", """vAlUeLeSs""" or """vAlUaBlE""", """iNtErEsTiNg""" or """uNiNtErEsTiNg""", """wOrThLeSs""" or """wOrThY""", """sAtIsFyInG""" or """uNsAtIsFyInG""", """fUlFIlLiNg""" or """uNfUlFIlLiNg""", """fAiR""" or """uNfAiR""", """sIgNiFiCaNt""" or """iNsIgNiFiCaNt""" and or blah blah blah blah whatever/any other """""pOsItIvE""""" or """""""nEgAtIvE""""""" 'way'/'adjective'/'thing'type of x blabla whatever the fck in general and don't give a damn single fcking shit if 'there are'/'there's' """tRaGeDiEs"""/"""cRuElTy"""/"""iNjUsTiCe"""/"""pAiN"""/"""pOvErTy"""/"""cOrRuPtIoN"""/"""hUnGeR"""/"""pRoBlEmS"""/"""iSsUeS"""/"""diSgRaCeS""" (or whatever tf all 'those' 'words' even fcking mean lmao) and or whatever/any other """"bAd""""/""""nEgAtIvE"""" (as if i gave a damn fuck if it's """"nEgAtIvE"""" or """"pOsItIvE"""" or howevwr the fucking damn fuck jfc lmao i literally just couldn't care any less!!!!!) 'tHiNgS'/'eVeNtS'/'cIrCuMsTaNcEs'/'SiTuAtIoNs' (or however the fck to call it lol) of whatever/any other type or not LMFAAOOOOO I JUST SIMPLY COULDN'T FUCKING CARE ANY FCKING LESS!!!!!!! i literally just dont fucking want/don't give a damn fuck about/don't and dont fucking want to have any damn 'interest' nor 'curiosity' etc for|about|in/don't want to 'experience' nor 'know' nor 'do' nor 'learn' 'about' nor 'explore' nor 'participate in' nor 'enjoy' nor 'discover' nor 'be part of' nor 'inhabit' nor 'perceive' nor 'live' nor blahblahetcetc absolutely any other 'verb'|'action' etc in general at all ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY TOTALLY COMPLETELY ANYTHING FOR FUCKS SAKE, and simply NEVER at all ever fucking will no 'matter' what etc. ANYTHING. A N Y T H I N G. THATS IT. ANYTHING AT ALL IN GENERAL. Absolutely ANYTHING at all in general no fcking 'matter' what/how etc tf it is/can be and no fcking 'matter' what type/way/form of whatever tf in general it is/can be etc no fcking 'matter', 'related to'/'about'/'from'/'in' etc just basically ANYTHING/ANYWHERE IN GENERAL AT ALL no fcking 'matter' what/how etc it is/can be of literally any type/way etc at all in general. and i don't say this because of a fucking reason/reasons (jfc why the damn fck there has to be one yes or fucking yes lmfao why cant i simply literally JUST FUCKING DONT/DONT WANT TO WANT TO and thats fcking it i just cant fcking comprehend), there simply ARENT ANY. it's not a """pHaSe""" nor """tEmPoRaRY""" nor """nIhIlIsM""" nor """aNtInAtAlIsM""'/"""eFiLisM""" nor """dEpReSsIoN""" nor any other """mEnTaL iLlNeSsEs""" nor """aPaThY""" nor """bAd LiFe""" nor """bAd cIrCuMsTaNcEs"""/"""bAd SiTuAtIoN"""/"""bAd eXpErIeNcEs"""/"""bAd LiViNg CoNdItIoNs""" nor """dIsApPoInTmEnT""" nor """eMpTiNeSs""" nor """bOrEdOm""" nor """nUmBnEsS""" nor literally absolutely ANY other fcking damn ReAsOn/cAuSe in general at all. It's simply literally just NOT because of ANY rEaSoNs/cAuSeS at all ffs i simply just fucking don't ffs and that's it jfc, it's so fucking frustrating that this is an obligation. I JUST DONT GIVE A FUCK FOR FUCKS SAKE AND I NEVER WILL NO MATTER WHAT ETC AT ALL. THATS. IT. Just because "i" had literally no damn fcking choice but to 'exist', 'be'/'become' 'something'/'someone' and 'be' 'brought' 'here'/'come' 'here', that DOESNT fcking mean that i have to/that I'll 'want'/'care' about/be 'interested' in etcetcblabla 'things'/'something' yes or fucking yes and if I don't """iTs BeCaUse Of A rEaSoN""" FOR FUCKS SAKE I SHOULDN'T BE FUCKING OBLIGATED/FORCED TO. I SIMPLY JUST FCKING DONT AND DONT WANT TO WANT TO, ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL AND THAT'S IT AND I NEVER AT ALL WILL AND THERE SIMPLY ARENT ANY FCKING REASONS/CAUSES AT ALL OF ANY TYPE. I simply just fucking dont and that's basically it FOR FUCK'S SAKE. i literally just never will understand why the fck that is """"""iMpOsSibLe"""""", """""impossible""""" why? Because 'humans'/'people' fcking say so and fcking feel like it and have fcking INVENTED that """"tO nOt WaNt eTc AnYtHiNg tHeRe HaS tO bE a 'ReAsOn'/'eXpLaNaTiOn'/'cAuSe' WhY and all that fcking INVENTED garbage crap or what????? Me too

EndlessOblivion said:
No, never at all have wanted, and I doubt that i ever will lol (and don't want to/dont want to want to anyway lmfao). I just simply dont (never have wanted and im sure that simply never will and i don't have any fcking "pRoBlEm" with that lmao. i just dont/dont want to want to and that's it, i only/just want nothingness/non-existence and THATS IT and its not because of any reason at all) want to be "born" as/"exist" as absolutely anything at all nor "be" anyone nor anywhere at all neither. And i dont say that i don't """""""bEcAuSe 'lIfE'/'eXiStEnCe'/'tHe wOrlD'/'pLaNeT eArTh'/'hUmAnItY'/'sOcIeTy' aNd Or WhAteVeR tHe DaMn fUcK iN gEnErAl iS "sUfFeRiNg"/"pAiNfUl"/"hOrRiBlE"/"cRuEl"/"eViL"/"uNfAiR"/"hArD"/"mEaNiNgLeSs"/"aBsUrD"/"pOiNtLeSs"/"bOrInG"/"uNeNjOyAbLe"/"wOrThLeSs"/"uNsAtIsFyInG" [or whatever tf all those """""nEgAtIvE""""" 'words'/'ways'/'adjectives'/tYpEs Of X even fcking mean lmfao i don't give a f as well as i simply just don't give a fck that """nEgAtIvE"""/"""pOsItIvE""" means lmao i couldn't care any fucking damn less ffs] aNd Or AnY/wHaTeVeR oThEr """""""nEgAtIvE"""""" 'way'/'adjective'/'thing' in general/type of 'thing' in general/'place' in general/type of 'place' in general/type of 'life'/type of 'world'/type of 'planet'/type of 'consciousness'/type of 'existence'/type of 'humanity'/type of 'society'/type of 'person'/type of x/type of blah blah blah etc etc etc whatever the damn fck in general"""""" (it's NOT because of that "rEaSoN" nor because of literally ANY other single damn fcking reason in general at all. It's simply just NOT because of ANY reason at all of any type at all ffs i don't give a goddamn fcking shit if there is or there isnt """sUfFeRiNg"""/"""cRuElTy"""/"""pAiN"""/"""iNjUsTiCe"""/"""dIsCrImInAtIoN""" or whatever tf all those """nEgAtIvE""" 'words'/'things' and or whatever tf that is mean lmao and or whatever other """"nEgAtIvE"""" 'thing' or not lmfaooo I JUST COULDN'T CARE ANY FCKING LESS) no lmfaoooooo, as if I gave a damn fck if 'life'/'existence'/'the world'/'planet earth'/'humanity'/'society'/'beings'|'species'|'entities'|'life forms'/'consciousness' and or blahblahblah whatever the damn fck in general whatever it is is any/whatever """"""pOsItIvE"""""" or """""""""nEgAtIvE""""""""" 'way'/'adjective'/'thing'/type of 'thing'/'place'/type of 'place'/type of 'life'/type of 'world'/type of 'planet'/type of 'existence'/type or WHATEVER THE DAMN FUCK IN GENERAL FOR FUCKS SAKE I SIMPLY JUST DONT GIVE A DAMN FUCK FOR FUCKS SAKE I SIMPLY JUST DONT it has NEVER """aFfEcTeD""" "me" nor """wOrRiEd""" "me" nor """eMbArRaSs""" "me" nor any other crap like that ffs why the fck it fcking has to for fucks sake. I simply just DONT want to "be" (nor "do"/"experience"/"know"/"enjoy"/"learn"/"kNoW hOw tO dO"/"explore"/"discover" blabla nor any other fcking damn 'verb'/'action' etc in general at all) absolutely, literally, totally, basically ANYTHING. A N Y T H I N G. of literally any damn 'type'/'kind'/'way'/'form' etc at all. THATS IT. I JUST DONT AND NEVER WILL AND THERE ARENT ANY ""REASONS WHY"". Why the fck should I? why can't "I" just simply NOT want to 'be' literally absolutely totally ANYTHING ANYONE ANYWHERE AT ALL and that's it (WITHOUT any reasons/causes in general at all)??? I simply just dont want to "feel" absolutely anything, ANY type of "emotions"/"feelings"/"sensations"/"senses" or whatever tf all that is, ANY type of ""pOsItIvE"" 'feelings'/'emotions'/'sensations' etc AT ALL, neither "jOy" nor "hApPiNeSs" nor "eNjOyMeNt" nor "pLeAsUrE" nor "eNtErTaInMeNt" nor "sAtIsFaCtIoN" nor "fUlFiLlmEnT" absolutely/literally ANY other fucking """pOsItIvE""" garbage crap bullshit/'feeling'/'emotion'/'sensation' etc like that nor in general at all about literally and absolutely ANYTHING no fcking 'matter' what neither how etc the fck it is/it can be/it'll be. I simply just DONT give a damn fuck ffs and i never will, i simply just don't fcking want to, never at all have wanted and literally NEVER at all ever will. Ill simply never at all have ANY "nEcEsSiTy"/"nEeD"/"dEsIrE"/"iNtErEsT"/"iNtEnTiOn" nor any other crap like to want to/want to want to and thats it, i simply just fucking DONT. i literally just couldn't care any damn less about absolutely anything ffs why the damn fck am i fcking forced/obligated to and why tf am i fucking "sUpPoSeD" to just because "I" had NO DAMN CHOICE but to 'exist' and 'be'/'become' 'something'/'someone' in general and be 'put' 'inside' a 'body'/'human body'/'brain'/'mind' that has 'made' "me" "be"/"exist" in general, and just because "i" had NO DAMN CHOICE but to 'come' 'here'/'be' 'brought' 'here' to 'existence'/'life'/'consciousness'/a 'place' called 'the world' and 'planet earth' etcblabla!!!!! that DOESNT have to fucking automatically mean that i have to/ill care about etc/want to care about and or whatever tf 'things'/'something' in general/'life'/'existence' and or whatever tf in general ""uNlEsS i DoNt bEcAuSe Of ThIs aNd Or tHaT ReAsOn/rEaSonS/cAuSes"" FOR FUCK'S SAKE. WHAT IF I SIMPLY JUST DONT/DONT WANT TO AT ALL AND THAT'S FUCKING IT FFS FFFFFUUUUUCKKKK ITS ABSOLUTELY FUCKING 'IMPOSSIBLE' FOR ME TO FUCKING 'UNDERSTAND' WHY THE FUCK THAT'S """"""IMPOSSIBLE"""""" AND """""""IRRATIONAL""""""" OR WHATEVER TF THAT EVEN FCKING MEANS and i don't give a damn fuck if it is or it isnt lmfao that doesnt fucking mean that it fucking can't be true jesus fucking christ, just because 'people'/'humans' fucking said so and felt like it and decided to INVENT that garbage crap that it's """"iMpOsSibLe"""" and that there has to be a fcking """rEaSoN wHy""" doesnt fcking mean that it "cAnT bE tRuE/pOsSiBlE" ffs. BUT WHY FFS WHY CANT I SIMPLY JUST NOT WANT ETC LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL NOR HAVE THE FUCKING "NEED"/"NECESSITY"/"DESIRE"/"INTEREST"/"INTENTION" TO/TO WANT TO/TO WANT TO WANT TO FFS?????????? sigh. it's so fucking frustrating and it gives me so much 'impotence' and 'frustration' that this is a fucking obligation and that i can't finally NOT 'exist' at all because it's so fcking hard to die and 'people'/'humans' or whatever tf that is/means will try at all costs to make "me" stay 'alive'/'continue' 'existing' because this is obligatory and yes or yes there has to be a """ReAsOn wHy I dOnT""". Ffffffuuuuuuuckkkkkkkk. The only 'reasons' "I" still exist/i haven't died/kms yet is my 'parents'/'family' and a cat my parents 'adopted' that 'loves'/'wants' me a lot because 'theyd' all be 'very'/'extremely' 'devastated'/'hurt'/'shocked'/'traumatized' and blah blah would 'suffer'/'cry' a lot or whatever tf that means and blah blah, and would be even more if i do it 'here' in my 'parents' 'house' and blah blah, sigh i shouldn't give a damn fuck ffs as ""cRuEl""/""cOlD"" as it "sounds", for fucks sake. Anyways 'attempting' 'here' is just too risky and hard, with the 'covid' 'restrictions' and all that (that btw i don't give a damn fuck if there are/there's a "rEsTrIcTioNs"/"lOcKdOwN"/"pAnDeMiC" or whatever tf that even means or not lmfao it has never ""aFfEcTeD""/""wOrRiEd"" "me" and simply never will lmao) i have even less enough time to "properly"/"safely"/"reliably" attempt and "ctb" ("catch" the "bus" to NOTHINGNESS/NON-EXISTENCE, NOT to any 'sort'/'kind'/'type'/'way'/'form' etc of any "afterlife" at all) and i fucking risk being found/getting caught even more... Fuck. Its so fucking FRUSTRATING!!!!!!
Also i haven't died yet/I still exist because I simply dont have any reliable way out to my access and it's just so fucking risky and hard to attempt here, id have to fucking work and all that crap to have money to 'buy'/'have' a fcking 'house'/'apartment' and finally attempt there "without any" risks/interruptions/worries of getting caught/'psych ward'/'failing' and not having any more 'opportunities'/'traumatizing' and 'shocking' my 'parents'/'family' etc but jfc not fucking 'only' I'd have to fucking 'work' and all that damn garbage crap shit, id have to fcking 'wait' 'who' the fck 'knows' how many fcking 'years' to FINALLY be fucking 'aBlE' to buy/have the damn 'house'/'apartment' and FINALLY attempt/"ctb"/die there. The fcking 'job'/'work' would take a lot of fucking "eFfOrT"/"eNeRgY"/"sTrEnGtH"/"mOtIvAtIoN"/"wIlL"/"dEdIcAtIoN"/"iNtErEsT" and all that fcking damn garbage bullshit crap and id even have to fcking wait for so many years until i finally have the damn fcking 'house', 'apartment' or whatever tf. Sigh. Why the fck cant it be easy jfc why is it so fucking hard. (*or whatever the fuck 'all' 'that' 'is'/'all' 'that' 'is' 'called' that i simply just will never give not even a single goddamn fcking sht about no matter how it is/can be, how ""gOoD"" or how """bAd""" it is/can be, neither what there is/there can be, neither what happens/can happen, neither what types of 'things'/'events' and or whatever tf happen/can happen, neither 'how' the fck what happens happens/is, neither what the fck ""this life""/""this 'type' of life"" and or any/whatever other 'life'/type of 'life' etc is about/can be about, neither how the fuck not 'only' 'life'/""""this life"""" [as if there were 'more'/'other' 'lives' lmfaooo i really 'hope' NOT ffs i simply just don't want and never at all will absolutely literally completely ANYTHING at all in general of any type any way etc no 'matter' what/how etc the fck it is/can be etcetc] but any other 'life'/type of 'life' etcetc however tf it is/can be nor absolutely anything else in general whatever it is of whatever type etc 'works'/can 'work' etc, and a loooong etc. I literally just dont give a damn fck jfc lmao. It doesnt fucking 'matter' and never at all will how """gOoD""" and or any/whatever other """"pOsItIvE"""" 'way'/'adjective' blabla or how """"bAd"""" and or any/whatever other """"""nEgAtIvE"""""" 'way'/'adjective' blabla whatever the damn fuck in general/whatever|any 'thing'|'place'|'event'|'species'|'beings' and or whatever tf in general whatever it is/anything/everything whatever tf it is/can be of whatever type of whatever tf in general is/isn't/can be/will be lmfaoooo I literally just don't fcking give a damn goddamn fuck i literally just fucking don't ffs anything/everything in general whatever/however the damn fck it is/can be of whatever type/way etc the fuck it fucking is/can be etc has always been, is and will always be COMPLETELY AND ABSOLUTELY 'indifferent' or whatever tf that 'word' means lol and thats it for fucks damn fcking sake. it's so fucking FRUSTRATING that just because "i" 'exist' and "am" "here" and "im" "something"/"someone" and was 'brought' "here" that has to fucking automatically that i fucking have to/that i'll want to 'care about'/'want'/have 'interest' for/want to 'do' and or 'experience' and or 'know' and or 'enjoy' and or 'learn' and or 'see' and or 'feel' and or 'have' and or 'be' and or 'explore' and or blablaetcetc whatever/any other fucking 'action'/'verb' etc in general blabla whatever tf 'things'/'something'/'life' in general/'existence' in general and or blabla whatever the fuck yes or fucking yes """uNlEsS i DonT bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN/rEaSoNs AnD tHeReS aN eXpLaNaTiOn FoR tHaT aNd tHeReS yEs oR yEs SoMeThiNg oR sOmEoNe tHaT bRoUgHt Me tO tHaT "dEcIsIoN"/"cOnClUsIoN"/"pOiNt" aNd iTs yEs Or YeS tHe CoNsEqUeNcE oF sOmEtHiNg""", WHY THE FUCK cant i literally simply JUST DONT FUCKING WANT TO 'EXIST' NOR 'EXPERIENCE'/'KNOW'/'ENJOY'/'LIVE'/'DO'/'LEARN'/'EXPLORE'/'DISCOVER'/'CARE ABOUT'/BE 'INTERESTED' IN/'INHABIT'/'BE' 'PART OF'/'PARTICIPATE' IN/'BELONG TO'/'PERCEIVE'/'SEE'/'ACHIEVE'/'VALUE'/'APPRECIATE' NOR BLABLABLAETCETCETC ANY OTHER FCKING 'VERB'|'ACTION' ETC IN GENERAL AT ALL JUST SIMPLY BASICALLY ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL NO 'MATTER' WHAT/HOW ETC TF IT IS/CAN BE OF ANY TYPE/WAY/FORM ANY ANYTHING AT ALL IN GENERAL, RELATED TO/ABOUT/FROM/IN ETCETC ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY TOTALLY COMPLETELY ANYTHING/ANYWHERE IN GENERAL AT ALL WHATEVER/HOWEVER IT IS/CAN BE OF ANY TYPE/WAY/FORM ETC IN FCKING GENERAL AT ALL AND THATS IT WITHOUT ANY FCKING "REASONS" NOR "CAUSES" NOR ANY OTHER FCKING GARBAGE CRAP BULLSHIT LIKE THAT IN GENERAL AT ALL OF ANY TYPE AND THATS LITERALLY FCKING BASICALLY IT??????? WHY FCKING CANT I? just because 'people'/'humans' in general both 'pro life' and not, 'pro choice' and not, 'suicidal' and not etcetc say so and fucking feel like it and have INVENTED that it's """"iMpOsSibLe"""" and that yEs Or YeS there has to be a "rEaSoN"/"cAuSe"/"eXpLaNaTiOn" fOr tHaT or fcking what??????? jesus damn fcking christ IT'S SO FCKING FRUSTRATING that this is a fucking damn obligation and that i cant simply just NOT 'want'/NOT 'need'/NOT want to 'like' [[I NEITHER 'LIKE' NOR 'DISLIKE'|'HATE' ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING, I SIMPLY JUST DONT GIVE A FUCK, I SIMPLY LITERALLY JUST DONT FCKING CARE, THATS IT]]/NOT 'care about'/not have any 'interest' nor 'curiosity' nor 'attraction' nor any other crap like that 'for'|'about'|'in'/not want to 'experience'|'do'|'value'|'admire'|'appreciate'|'feel'|'sense'|'see'|'know'|'learn'|'explore'|'accomplish'|'participate in'|'live'|'inhabit'|'be part of' etcetcetc nor any other 'action'|'verb' etc in general at all [[AND NOT WANT TO WANR TO AT ALL AND NOT HAVE ANY "NEED" NOR "DESIRE" TO WANT TO/TO WANT TO WANT TO AT ALL NO MATTER WHAT WITHOUT ANY SINGLE DAMN REASON IN GENERAL AT ALL]] absolutely ANYTHING/ANYWHERE in general AT ALL of any type/way/form etc NO MATTER HOW/WHAT ETC THE FCK IT IS/CAN BE and that's it WITHOUT ANY DAMN FCKING REASONS/CAUSES IN GENERAL AT ALL AND THATS FCKING BASICALLY IT. fuck its so frustrating that its so fucking hard to finally die and completely/entirely disappear and just not 'exist' at all, it's so FRUSTRATING that i can't finally leave/get rid of/get out of the 'meat carcass'/'meat suit', all the flesh or whatever tf a 'body'/'human body' in general is i don't give a damn shit, that fucking prevents "me" or whatever tf that 'verb' means from NOT 'existing' at all/NOT 'being' absolutely literally totally definitely completely basically ANYTHING ANYONE ANYWHERE IN GENERAL AT ALL/'DISAPPEARING' COMPLETELY AND ENTIRELY AND ETERNALLY FOREVER FOR ALL 'ETERNITY' AND JUST SIMPLY NOT 'EXIST' AS NOR 'BE' ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING/ANYONE/ANYWHERE IN GENERAL AT ALL OF LITERALLY ANY 'FORM'/'WAY'/'TYPE'/'KIND'/'SHAPE'/'DIMENSION' ETC AT ALL. Im fucking 'trapped' in a fucking flesh prison that prevents me from FINALLY JUST NOT 'EXISTING' AT ALL/NOT 'BEING' ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING/ANYONE/ANYWHERE IN GENERAL AT ALL and that makes "me" have no damn fcking choice but/that forces me to 'exist', 'be' 'here' and 'be' 'something'/'someone' and 'experience'/'do'/'say'/'think'/'speak' etc etc and or whatever/any other fcking 'action'|'verb' in general 'things'/'words' and all that fucking crap EVEN THOUGH I SIMPLY JUST DONT FUCKING WANT TO/DONT FUCKING WANT TO WANT TO AND THAT'S IT ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL WHATEVER/HOWEVER IT IS/IT CAN BE, OF ANY TYPE/WAY ETC AT ALL IN GENERAL AND A LONG ETC AND THAT'S IT AND ITS NOT BECAUSE OF ANY REASONS IN GENERAL AT ALL. Its so fucking FRUSTRATING to not have the 'right' or whatever tf that means to die/to finally completely disappear and not 'exist' at all ffs I SHOULD HAVE IT FOR FUCK'S SAKE LET ME FINALLY LEAVE THE MEAT CARCASS/LEAVE THIS OBLIGATORY THING THAT I SIMPLY JUST DONT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT [NOR ABOUT ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY ANYTHING ELSE IN GENERAL AT ALL OF ANY TYPE/WAY ETC WHATEVER/HOWEVER TF IT IS/CAN BE ETCETC] NO MATTER HOW THE FCK IT IS/CAN BE, NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS/CAN HAPPEN, NO MATTER WHAT THERE IS/THERE CAN BE, NO MATTER HOW IT WORKS/CAN WORK, NO MATTER WHAT ITS ABOUT/CAN BE ABOUT, NO MATTER WHAT TYPE OF X BLAHBLAH WHATEVER THE FCK IN GENERAL IT IS/CAN BE AND A LOOOOONG ETC. LET 'ME' FINALLY NOT 'BE' LITERALLY ANYTHING NOR ANYONE NOR ANYWHERE AT ALL. 'Im' fucking 'trapped' in this obligatory 'thing' and 'surrounded' by 'pro life' (and 'pro choice'/'suicidals' 'who' are also basically literally the right extreme absolute 'opposite' of me lol) "beings"/"people"/"humans"/"entities"/"species" or whatever tf that's called that won't let me die at all costs not even if i wanted to die "bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN", bEcAuSe wAnTiNg tO dIe iS """iRrAtIoNaL""" (lmfao as if i gave a damn fuck if it's """iRrAtIoNaL""" or not or whatever the fuck that damn 'word' even means ) aNd It GoEs "AgAiNsT" "hUmAn nAtUrE" and blah blah all that fucking garbage bullshit crap that 'humans'/'people' have invented. (lmfaooooooooooooo as if i gave a single damn fuck if it 'goes' """aGaInSt""" """hUmAn nAtUrE""" or whatever tf that even fcking means or not for fucks sake. "I" never 'asked' for absolutely anything in general at all and i shouldn't be fucking forced/obligated to exist/want to 'exist' etc and care about etc things/'life'/'existence' blabla etc uNleSs I dOnT wAnT tO bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN just because 'humans'/'people' fucking say so and feel like it!!!!!!!! I SHOULD HAVE THE DAMN RIGHT TO DIE/LEAVE/DISAPPEAR/NOT 'EXIST' AT ALL ANYMORE ANYTIME/WHENEVER I FCKING WANT TO AND IF I SIMPLY WANT TO WITHOUT FUCKING HAVING TI BE ""bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN/ReAsOnS"" FOR FUCKS SAKE!!!!!!! STOP FUCKINF HAVING "ME" TRAPPED IN EXISTENCE IF I SIMPLY JUST DON'T FUCKING GIVE A FUCK ABOUT IT NOR ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING ELSE AND I SIMPLY JUST DONT FCKING WANT TO 'KNOW' ABOUT IT/'EXPERIENCE' IT/'PARTICIPATE' IN 'IT' NOR ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING ELSE IN GENERAL AT ALL OF ANY TYPE/WAY ETC AT ALL WHATEVER/HOWEVER THE DAMN FCK IT FUCKING IS/CAN BE FFS!!!!!!! 'THIS' NOR LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING ELSE IN GENERAL WHATEVER/HOWEVER IT IS WHATEVER TYPE ETC IT IS/CAN BE ETCETC SHOULDN'T BE AN OBLIGATION!!!!!!!!!) ffs i simply just don't want anything ffs don't fucking obligate/force me to jesus fucking christ let me finally DIE, let me finally COMPLETELY ABSOLUTELY TOTALLY ENTIRELY DISAPPEAR, let me finally NOT 'EXIST' AT ALL AND NOT 'BE' ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING/ANYONE/ANYWHERE AT ALL IN GENERAL OF ANY DAMN WAY/TYPE/FORM/SPECIES/SHAPE/DIMENSION FROM ANYWHERE ANYTHING AT ALL AND NO MATTER WHAT/HOW IT IS FFS. sigh. why the fuck this has to be obligatory jfc, why THE FUCK "cAnT" i literally simply basically seriously ONLY want/want to want (and 'wish'/'crave'/'desire' or whatever tf those 'verbs' fucking mean) DEATH/ETERNAL ENDLESS COMPLETE ABSOLUTE TOTAL PLAIN INFINITE LITERAL PURE NOTHINGNESS/ETERNAL ABSOLUTE NON-EXISTENCE and that's it WITHOUT ANY FCKING REASONS IN GENERAL AT ALL??? for fuck's sake why the fuck cant I literally just NOT/DONT fucking 'want'/'need'/'care about'/be 'interested' in/want to 'experience' etc ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL WHATEVER HOWEVER THE FUCK IT IS/CAN BE NO MATTER WHAT TYPE/WAY ETC IT IS/CAN BE ETC AND THATS IT WITHOUT ANY REASONS/CAUSES AT ALL FFS WHY WHY THE FUCK THAT """ISNT POSSIBLE""" JESUS FCKING CHRIST WHY!!!!!!!!!!!

I just dont want to 'be' absolutely/literally any "being"/"entity"/"species"/"life form"/"creature" or whatever tf all that is of any type, any way, any 'form', any absolutely anything, with any 'age' nor 'gender' nor 'name' nor 'body' nor 'brain' nor 'iDeNtItY' nor basically literally ANYTHING else in general at all/nor absolutely any other fucking garbage bullshit crap like that and in general. Simply just fucking dont and i dont give a fck if this receives assumptions, I won't read any of them at all lol. And i don't say this """bEcAuSe eVeN aNiMaLs 'SuFfeR' aNd 'tHe WoRlD' iS a "bAd pLaCe"""" lmfaoooo as if I gave a damn single f*cking sh*t if there's "sUfFeRiNg" or not and if 'the world' and or whatever the f*ck in general is a ""gOoD pLaCe"" or a ""bAd PlAcE"" lmfaoooo i simply just don't f*cking care, and if whatever tf in general is """"bAd"""" and or any/whatever other """"""nEgAtIvE"""""" 'way'/'adjective'/type of x blablabla whatever the f*cking damn f*ck it simply literally just doesn't """""aFfEcT""""" 'me' nor """""wOrRy""""" 'me' and never will lmao. I dont say that I LITERALLY SIMPLY JUST DONT WANT TO 'BE' ANYTHING AT ALL NOR 'EXPERIENCE' ETC ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING AT ALL """"bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN"""". I just simply DONT and DONT want to want to and i simply literally just NEVER at all will, that's f*cking it. But well, "I" had no f*cking choice but to 'be' 'born' and 'exist' and 'be'/'become' 'something'/'someone', so that, for 'humans'/'people' automatically fucking means that I'll want to yes or fucking yes and that ill want to care about/have 'interest' in etc 'things'/'something'/'life'/'existence' and or whatever the damn f*ck in general uNlEsS i DoNt bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN. Its so fucking frustrating, why the damn fuck can't i simply basically literally JUST NOT FUCKING WANT NOR GIVE A DAMN FCKING SHIT ABOUT ETCETC JUST LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL WHATEVER HOWEVER THE DAMN FCK IT IS/CAN BE OF ANY TYPE/WAY/FORM ETCETC AT ALL NO FCKING MATTER WHATS/WHERES ABOUT/RELATED TO/FROM ETCETC WITHOUT ANY FCKING DAMN "rEaSoNs" NOR "cAuSeS" NOR "eXpLaNaTiOnS" AND THATS SIMPLY FUCKING IT??????!!!!!!!! i just cant fcking 'comprehend' how the fck that """""iSnT pOsSiBlE""""", just because 'people'/'humans' fcking say so and fcking feel like it and have fcking INVENTED that there has to be a reason yes or fcking yes or fcking what? jesus fcking christ
'I' simply just DON'T want to be absolutely ANYTHING nor ANYONE nor ANYWHERE etc at all of any type/way/form/shape/dimension etc no fucking matter what/how tf it is/can be. "I" or whatever tf "I"/"you"/"they"/"she"/"he"/"we" f*cking means i couldn't give any less of a damn f*ck lmao literally ONLY want/want to want (and 'wish'/'desire' or whatever tf those 'verbs' mean lol) to completely and entirely DISAPPEAR for all 'infinite'/'endless' 'eternity' and just NOT 'exist' at all and simply NOT 'be' absolutely totally literally ANYTHING/ANYONE/ANYWHERE at all, AT ALL and NOT 'be part of'/'participate in'/'experience'/'explore'/'discover'/'know' about etcetc ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL no fcking 'matter' what/how the damn fck it is/can be, of literally any single damn type/way/form etc at all, from/about/related to etc just simply basically absolutely literally ANYTHING AT ALL IN GENERAL whatever/however the fcking damn fck it is/can be and a loooong etc. i simply just couldn't give any fcking damn less of a damn fck for fuck's sake lmao I SIMPLY JUST DONT FFS, I JUST DONT WANT TO AND NEVER WILL AND IT'S NOT THAT """"I uSeD tO cAre bUt NoW i DoNt""" nor that """i StoPpEd CaRiNg BuT i CaReD bEfOrE""" nor that i don't """bEcAuSe Of ThIs AnD oR tHaT rEaSoN""" FOR FUCKS SAKE. NO. THERE SIMPLY ARENT ANY REASONS IN GENERAL AT ALL FFS, I SIMPLY JUST DONT, NEVER HAVE HAD NEVER HAVE WANTED TO AND SIMPLY NEVER AT ALL EVER WILL NO 'MATTER' WHAT ETC. why the damn f*ck is that so fcking hard (even impossible lmao or whatever tf that 'word' means) to 'understand'/'comprehend'/'believe' for literally everyone else in general whether they're pro life or not, pro choice or not, suicidal or not except me???? thats what i DONT fucking understand, i SERIOUSLY or whatever tf that 'word' fcking means just CANT fucking understand why the fck is this """"iMpOsSibLe"""" for 'all' 'people' in general/everyone in general, why ffs and why the fck there has to fcking be a ReAsOn wHy, jesus damn fcking christ.

I don't give a damn sh*t and simply never at all ever will (and literally simply never at all ever had) if 'life'/'the world'/'existence'/'planet earth'/'humanity'/'society' and or blahblahblah whatever the damn fck in general is """mEaNiNgLeSs""" or """mEaNiNgFuL""", """sUfFeRiNg""" or not, """pAiNfUl""" or not, """bOrInG""" or """eNjOyAbLe""", """vAlUeLeSs""" or """vAlUaBlE""", """iNtErEsTiNg""" or """uNiNtErEsTiNg""", """wOrThLeSs""" or """wOrThY""", """sAtIsFyInG""" or """uNsAtIsFyInG""", """fUlFIlLiNg""" or """uNfUlFIlLiNg""", """fAiR""" or """uNfAiR""", """sIgNiFiCaNt""" or """iNsIgNiFiCaNt""" and or blah blah blah blah whatever/any other """""pOsItIvE""""" or """""""nEgAtIvE""""""" 'way'/'adjective'/'thing'type of x blabla whatever the fck in general and don't give a damn single fcking shit if 'there are'/'there's' """tRaGeDiEs"""/"""cRuElTy"""/"""iNjUsTiCe"""/"""pAiN"""/"""pOvErTy"""/"""cOrRuPtIoN"""/"""hUnGeR"""/"""pRoBlEmS"""/"""iSsUeS"""/"""diSgRaCeS""" (or whatever tf all 'those' 'words' even fcking mean lmao) and or whatever/any other """"bAd""""/""""nEgAtIvE"""" (as if i gave a damn fuck if it's """"nEgAtIvE"""" or """"pOsItIvE"""" or howevwr the fucking damn fuck jfc lmao i literally just couldn't care any less!!!!!) 'tHiNgS'/'eVeNtS'/'cIrCuMsTaNcEs'/'SiTuAtIoNs' (or however the fck to call it lol) of whatever/any other type or not LMFAAOOOOO I JUST SIMPLY COULDN'T FUCKING CARE ANY FCKING LESS!!!!!!! i literally just dont fucking want/don't give a damn fuck about/don't and dont fucking want to have any damn 'interest' nor 'curiosity' etc for|about|in/don't want to 'experience' nor 'know' nor 'do' nor 'learn' 'about' nor 'explore' nor 'participate in' nor 'enjoy' nor 'discover' nor 'be part of' nor 'inhabit' nor 'perceive' nor 'live' nor blahblahetcetc absolutely any other 'verb'|'action' etc in general at all ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY TOTALLY COMPLETELY ANYTHING FOR FUCKS SAKE, and simply NEVER at all ever fucking will no 'matter' what etc. ANYTHING. A N Y T H I N G. THATS IT. ANYTHING AT ALL IN GENERAL. Absolutely ANYTHING at all in general no fcking 'matter' what/how etc tf it is/can be and no fcking 'matter' what type/way/form of whatever tf in general it is/can be etc no fcking 'matter', 'related to'/'about'/'from'/'in' etc just basically ANYTHING/ANYWHERE IN GENERAL AT ALL no fcking 'matter' what/how etc it is/can be of literally any type/way etc at all in general. and i don't say this because of a fucking reason/reasons (jfc why the damn fck there has to be one yes or fucking yes lmfao why cant i simply literally JUST FUCKING DONT/DONT WANT TO WANT TO and thats fcking it i just cant fcking comprehend), there simply ARENT ANY. it's not a """pHaSe""" nor """tEmPoRaRY""" nor """nIhIlIsM""" nor """aNtInAtAlIsM""'/"""eFiLisM""" nor """dEpReSsIoN""" nor any other """mEnTaL iLlNeSsEs""" nor """aPaThY""" nor """bAd LiFe""" nor """bAd cIrCuMsTaNcEs"""/"""bAd SiTuAtIoN"""/"""bAd eXpErIeNcEs"""/"""bAd LiViNg CoNdItIoNs""" nor """dIsApPoInTmEnT""" nor """eMpTiNeSs""" nor """bOrEdOm""" nor """nUmBnEsS""" nor literally absolutely ANY other fcking damn ReAsOn/cAuSe in general at all. It's simply literally just NOT because of ANY rEaSoNs/cAuSeS at all ffs i simply just fucking don't ffs and that's it jfc, it's so fucking frustrating that this is an obligation. I JUST DONT GIVE A FUCK FOR FUCKS SAKE AND I NEVER WILL NO MATTER WHAT ETC AT ALL. THATS. IT. Just because "i" had literally no damn fcking choice but to 'exist', 'be'/'become' 'something'/'someone' and 'be' 'brought' 'here'/'come' 'here', that DOESNT fcking mean that i have to/that I'll 'want'/'care' about/be 'interested' in etcetcblabla 'things'/'something' yes or fucking yes and if I don't """iTs BeCaUse Of A rEaSoN""" FOR FUCKS SAKE I SHOULDN'T BE FUCKING OBLIGATED/FORCED TO. I SIMPLY JUST FCKING DONT AND DONT WANT TO WANT TO, ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL AND THAT'S IT AND I NEVER AT ALL WILL AND THERE SIMPLY ARENT ANY FCKING REASONS/CAUSES AT ALL OF ANY TYPE. I simply just fucking dont and that's basically it FOR FUCK'S SAKE. i literally just never will understand why the fck that is """"""iMpOsSibLe"""""", """""impossible""""" why? Because 'humans'/'people' fcking say so and fcking feel like it and have fcking INVENTED that """"tO nOt WaNt eTc AnYtHiNg tHeRe HaS tO bE a 'ReAsOn'/'eXpLaNaTiOn'/'cAuSe' WhY and all that fcking INVENTED garbage crap or what?????

Me too

Misantrope · Feb 8, 2021

I wish I was never born..

Pravesh · Feb 8, 2021

aqish said:
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Me too

lol how can you even make sense of what that person said?

EndlessOblivion said:
No, never at all have wanted, and I doubt that i ever will lol (and don't want to/dont want to want to anyway lmfao). I just simply dont (never have wanted and im sure that simply never will and i don't have any fcking "pRoBlEm" with that lmao. i just dont/dont want to want to and that's it, i only/just want nothingness/non-existence and THATS IT and its not because of any reason at all) want to be "born" as/"exist" as absolutely anything at all nor "be" anyone nor anywhere at all neither. And i dont say that i don't """""""bEcAuSe 'lIfE'/'eXiStEnCe'/'tHe wOrlD'/'pLaNeT eArTh'/'hUmAnItY'/'sOcIeTy' aNd Or WhAteVeR tHe DaMn fUcK iN gEnErAl iS "sUfFeRiNg"/"pAiNfUl"/"hOrRiBlE"/"cRuEl"/"eViL"/"uNfAiR"/"hArD"/"mEaNiNgLeSs"/"aBsUrD"/"pOiNtLeSs"/"bOrInG"/"uNeNjOyAbLe"/"wOrThLeSs"/"uNsAtIsFyInG" [or whatever tf all those """""nEgAtIvE""""" 'words'/'ways'/'adjectives'/tYpEs Of X even fcking mean lmfao i don't give a f as well as i simply just don't give a fck that """nEgAtIvE"""/"""pOsItIvE""" means lmao i couldn't care any fucking damn less ffs] aNd Or AnY/wHaTeVeR oThEr """""""nEgAtIvE"""""" 'way'/'adjective'/'thing' in general/type of 'thing' in general/'place' in general/type of 'place' in general/type of 'life'/type of 'world'/type of 'planet'/type of 'consciousness'/type of 'existence'/type of 'humanity'/type of 'society'/type of 'person'/type of x/type of blah blah blah etc etc etc whatever the damn fck in general"""""" (it's NOT because of that "rEaSoN" nor because of literally ANY other single damn fcking reason in general at all. It's simply just NOT because of ANY reason at all of any type at all ffs i don't give a goddamn fcking shit if there is or there isnt """sUfFeRiNg"""/"""cRuElTy"""/"""pAiN"""/"""iNjUsTiCe"""/"""dIsCrImInAtIoN""" or whatever tf all those """nEgAtIvE""" 'words'/'things' and or whatever tf that is mean lmao and or whatever other """"nEgAtIvE"""" 'thing' or not lmfaooo I JUST COULDN'T CARE ANY FCKING LESS) no lmfaoooooo, as if I gave a damn fck if 'life'/'existence'/'the world'/'planet earth'/'humanity'/'society'/'beings'|'species'|'entities'|'life forms'/'consciousness' and or blahblahblah whatever the damn fck in general whatever it is is any/whatever """"""pOsItIvE"""""" or """""""""nEgAtIvE""""""""" 'way'/'adjective'/'thing'/type of 'thing'/'place'/type of 'place'/type of 'life'/type of 'world'/type of 'planet'/type of 'existence'/type or WHATEVER THE DAMN FUCK IN GENERAL FOR FUCKS SAKE I SIMPLY JUST DONT GIVE A DAMN FUCK FOR FUCKS SAKE I SIMPLY JUST DONT it has NEVER """aFfEcTeD""" "me" nor """wOrRiEd""" "me" nor """eMbArRaSs""" "me" nor any other crap like that ffs why the fck it fcking has to for fucks sake. I simply just DONT want to "be" (nor "do"/"experience"/"know"/"enjoy"/"learn"/"kNoW hOw tO dO"/"explore"/"discover" blabla nor any other fcking damn 'verb'/'action' etc in general at all) absolutely, literally, totally, basically ANYTHING. A N Y T H I N G. of literally any damn 'type'/'kind'/'way'/'form' etc at all. THATS IT. I JUST DONT AND NEVER WILL AND THERE ARENT ANY ""REASONS WHY"". Why the fck should I? why can't "I" just simply NOT want to 'be' literally absolutely totally ANYTHING ANYONE ANYWHERE AT ALL and that's it (WITHOUT any reasons/causes in general at all)??? I simply just dont want to "feel" absolutely anything, ANY type of "emotions"/"feelings"/"sensations"/"senses" or whatever tf all that is, ANY type of ""pOsItIvE"" 'feelings'/'emotions'/'sensations' etc AT ALL, neither "jOy" nor "hApPiNeSs" nor "eNjOyMeNt" nor "pLeAsUrE" nor "eNtErTaInMeNt" nor "sAtIsFaCtIoN" nor "fUlFiLlmEnT" absolutely/literally ANY other fucking """pOsItIvE""" garbage crap bullshit/'feeling'/'emotion'/'sensation' etc like that nor in general at all about literally and absolutely ANYTHING no fcking 'matter' what neither how etc the fck it is/it can be/it'll be. I simply just DONT give a damn fuck ffs and i never will, i simply just don't fcking want to, never at all have wanted and literally NEVER at all ever will. Ill simply never at all have ANY "nEcEsSiTy"/"nEeD"/"dEsIrE"/"iNtErEsT"/"iNtEnTiOn" nor any other crap like to want to/want to want to and thats it, i simply just fucking DONT. i literally just couldn't care any damn less about absolutely anything ffs why the damn fck am i fcking forced/obligated to and why tf am i fucking "sUpPoSeD" to just because "I" had NO DAMN CHOICE but to 'exist' and 'be'/'become' 'something'/'someone' in general and be 'put' 'inside' a 'body'/'human body'/'brain'/'mind' that has 'made' "me" "be"/"exist" in general, and just because "i" had NO DAMN CHOICE but to 'come' 'here'/'be' 'brought' 'here' to 'existence'/'life'/'consciousness'/a 'place' called 'the world' and 'planet earth' etcblabla!!!!! that DOESNT have to fucking automatically mean that i have to/ill care about etc/want to care about and or whatever tf 'things'/'something' in general/'life'/'existence' and or whatever tf in general ""uNlEsS i DoNt bEcAuSe Of ThIs aNd Or tHaT ReAsOn/rEaSonS/cAuSes"" FOR FUCK'S SAKE. WHAT IF I SIMPLY JUST DONT/DONT WANT TO AT ALL AND THAT'S FUCKING IT FFS FFFFFUUUUUCKKKK ITS ABSOLUTELY FUCKING 'IMPOSSIBLE' FOR ME TO FUCKING 'UNDERSTAND' WHY THE FUCK THAT'S """"""IMPOSSIBLE"""""" AND """""""IRRATIONAL""""""" OR WHATEVER TF THAT EVEN FCKING MEANS and i don't give a damn fuck if it is or it isnt lmfao that doesnt fucking mean that it fucking can't be true jesus fucking christ, just because 'people'/'humans' fucking said so and felt like it and decided to INVENT that garbage crap that it's """"iMpOsSibLe"""" and that there has to be a fcking """rEaSoN wHy""" doesnt fcking mean that it "cAnT bE tRuE/pOsSiBlE" ffs. BUT WHY FFS WHY CANT I SIMPLY JUST NOT WANT ETC LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL NOR HAVE THE FUCKING "NEED"/"NECESSITY"/"DESIRE"/"INTEREST"/"INTENTION" TO/TO WANT TO/TO WANT TO WANT TO FFS?????????? sigh. it's so fucking frustrating and it gives me so much 'impotence' and 'frustration' that this is a fucking obligation and that i can't finally NOT 'exist' at all because it's so fcking hard to die and 'people'/'humans' or whatever tf that is/means will try at all costs to make "me" stay 'alive'/'continue' 'existing' because this is obligatory and yes or yes there has to be a """ReAsOn wHy I dOnT""". Ffffffuuuuuuuckkkkkkkk. The only 'reasons' "I" still exist/i haven't died/kms yet is my 'parents'/'family' and a cat my parents 'adopted' that 'loves'/'wants' me a lot because 'theyd' all be 'very'/'extremely' 'devastated'/'hurt'/'shocked'/'traumatized' and blah blah would 'suffer'/'cry' a lot or whatever tf that means and blah blah, and would be even more if i do it 'here' in my 'parents' 'house' and blah blah, sigh i shouldn't give a damn fuck ffs as ""cRuEl""/""cOlD"" as it "sounds", for fucks sake. Anyways 'attempting' 'here' is just too risky and hard, with the 'covid' 'restrictions' and all that (that btw i don't give a damn fuck if there are/there's a "rEsTrIcTioNs"/"lOcKdOwN"/"pAnDeMiC" or whatever tf that even means or not lmfao it has never ""aFfEcTeD""/""wOrRiEd"" "me" and simply never will lmao) i have even less enough time to "properly"/"safely"/"reliably" attempt and "ctb" ("catch" the "bus" to NOTHINGNESS/NON-EXISTENCE, NOT to any 'sort'/'kind'/'type'/'way'/'form' etc of any "afterlife" at all) and i fucking risk being found/getting caught even more... Fuck. Its so fucking FRUSTRATING!!!!!!
Also i haven't died yet/I still exist because I simply dont have any reliable way out to my access and it's just so fucking risky and hard to attempt here, id have to fucking work and all that crap to have money to 'buy'/'have' a fcking 'house'/'apartment' and finally attempt there "without any" risks/interruptions/worries of getting caught/'psych ward'/'failing' and not having any more 'opportunities'/'traumatizing' and 'shocking' my 'parents'/'family' etc but jfc not fucking 'only' I'd have to fucking 'work' and all that damn garbage crap shit, id have to fcking 'wait' 'who' the fck 'knows' how many fcking 'years' to FINALLY be fucking 'aBlE' to buy/have the damn 'house'/'apartment' and FINALLY attempt/"ctb"/die there. The fcking 'job'/'work' would take a lot of fucking "eFfOrT"/"eNeRgY"/"sTrEnGtH"/"mOtIvAtIoN"/"wIlL"/"dEdIcAtIoN"/"iNtErEsT" and all that fcking damn garbage bullshit crap and id even have to fcking wait for so many years until i finally have the damn fcking 'house', 'apartment' or whatever tf. Sigh. Why the fck cant it be easy jfc why is it so fucking hard. (*or whatever the fuck 'all' 'that' 'is'/'all' 'that' 'is' 'called' that i simply just will never give not even a single goddamn fcking sht about no matter how it is/can be, how ""gOoD"" or how """bAd""" it is/can be, neither what there is/there can be, neither what happens/can happen, neither what types of 'things'/'events' and or whatever tf happen/can happen, neither 'how' the fck what happens happens/is, neither what the fck ""this life""/""this 'type' of life"" and or any/whatever other 'life'/type of 'life' etc is about/can be about, neither how the fuck not 'only' 'life'/""""this life"""" [as if there were 'more'/'other' 'lives' lmfaooo i really 'hope' NOT ffs i simply just don't want and never at all will absolutely literally completely ANYTHING at all in general of any type any way etc no 'matter' what/how etc the fck it is/can be etcetc] but any other 'life'/type of 'life' etcetc however tf it is/can be nor absolutely anything else in general whatever it is of whatever type etc 'works'/can 'work' etc, and a loooong etc. I literally just dont give a damn fck jfc lmao. It doesnt fucking 'matter' and never at all will how """gOoD""" and or any/whatever other """"pOsItIvE"""" 'way'/'adjective' blabla or how """"bAd"""" and or any/whatever other """"""nEgAtIvE"""""" 'way'/'adjective' blabla whatever the damn fuck in general/whatever|any 'thing'|'place'|'event'|'species'|'beings' and or whatever tf in general whatever it is/anything/everything whatever tf it is/can be of whatever type of whatever tf in general is/isn't/can be/will be lmfaoooo I literally just don't fcking give a damn goddamn fuck i literally just fucking don't ffs anything/everything in general whatever/however the damn fck it is/can be of whatever type/way etc the fuck it fucking is/can be etc has always been, is and will always be COMPLETELY AND ABSOLUTELY 'indifferent' or whatever tf that 'word' means lol and thats it for fucks damn fcking sake. it's so fucking FRUSTRATING that just because "i" 'exist' and "am" "here" and "im" "something"/"someone" and was 'brought' "here" that has to fucking automatically that i fucking have to/that i'll want to 'care about'/'want'/have 'interest' for/want to 'do' and or 'experience' and or 'know' and or 'enjoy' and or 'learn' and or 'see' and or 'feel' and or 'have' and or 'be' and or 'explore' and or blablaetcetc whatever/any other fucking 'action'/'verb' etc in general blabla whatever tf 'things'/'something'/'life' in general/'existence' in general and or blabla whatever the fuck yes or fucking yes """uNlEsS i DonT bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN/rEaSoNs AnD tHeReS aN eXpLaNaTiOn FoR tHaT aNd tHeReS yEs oR yEs SoMeThiNg oR sOmEoNe tHaT bRoUgHt Me tO tHaT "dEcIsIoN"/"cOnClUsIoN"/"pOiNt" aNd iTs yEs Or YeS tHe CoNsEqUeNcE oF sOmEtHiNg""", WHY THE FUCK cant i literally simply JUST DONT FUCKING WANT TO 'EXIST' NOR 'EXPERIENCE'/'KNOW'/'ENJOY'/'LIVE'/'DO'/'LEARN'/'EXPLORE'/'DISCOVER'/'CARE ABOUT'/BE 'INTERESTED' IN/'INHABIT'/'BE' 'PART OF'/'PARTICIPATE' IN/'BELONG TO'/'PERCEIVE'/'SEE'/'ACHIEVE'/'VALUE'/'APPRECIATE' NOR BLABLABLAETCETCETC ANY OTHER FCKING 'VERB'|'ACTION' ETC IN GENERAL AT ALL JUST SIMPLY BASICALLY ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL NO 'MATTER' WHAT/HOW ETC TF IT IS/CAN BE OF ANY TYPE/WAY/FORM ANY ANYTHING AT ALL IN GENERAL, RELATED TO/ABOUT/FROM/IN ETCETC ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY TOTALLY COMPLETELY ANYTHING/ANYWHERE IN GENERAL AT ALL WHATEVER/HOWEVER IT IS/CAN BE OF ANY TYPE/WAY/FORM ETC IN FCKING GENERAL AT ALL AND THATS IT WITHOUT ANY FCKING "REASONS" NOR "CAUSES" NOR ANY OTHER FCKING GARBAGE CRAP BULLSHIT LIKE THAT IN GENERAL AT ALL OF ANY TYPE AND THATS LITERALLY FCKING BASICALLY IT??????? WHY FCKING CANT I? just because 'people'/'humans' in general both 'pro life' and not, 'pro choice' and not, 'suicidal' and not etcetc say so and fucking feel like it and have INVENTED that it's """"iMpOsSibLe"""" and that yEs Or YeS there has to be a "rEaSoN"/"cAuSe"/"eXpLaNaTiOn" fOr tHaT or fcking what??????? jesus damn fcking christ IT'S SO FCKING FRUSTRATING that this is a fucking damn obligation and that i cant simply just NOT 'want'/NOT 'need'/NOT want to 'like' [[I NEITHER 'LIKE' NOR 'DISLIKE'|'HATE' ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING, I SIMPLY JUST DONT GIVE A FUCK, I SIMPLY LITERALLY JUST DONT FCKING CARE, THATS IT]]/NOT 'care about'/not have any 'interest' nor 'curiosity' nor 'attraction' nor any other crap like that 'for'|'about'|'in'/not want to 'experience'|'do'|'value'|'admire'|'appreciate'|'feel'|'sense'|'see'|'know'|'learn'|'explore'|'accomplish'|'participate in'|'live'|'inhabit'|'be part of' etcetcetc nor any other 'action'|'verb' etc in general at all [[AND NOT WANT TO WANR TO AT ALL AND NOT HAVE ANY "NEED" NOR "DESIRE" TO WANT TO/TO WANT TO WANT TO AT ALL NO MATTER WHAT WITHOUT ANY SINGLE DAMN REASON IN GENERAL AT ALL]] absolutely ANYTHING/ANYWHERE in general AT ALL of any type/way/form etc NO MATTER HOW/WHAT ETC THE FCK IT IS/CAN BE and that's it WITHOUT ANY DAMN FCKING REASONS/CAUSES IN GENERAL AT ALL AND THATS FCKING BASICALLY IT. fuck its so frustrating that its so fucking hard to finally die and completely/entirely disappear and just not 'exist' at all, it's so FRUSTRATING that i can't finally leave/get rid of/get out of the 'meat carcass'/'meat suit', all the flesh or whatever tf a 'body'/'human body' in general is i don't give a damn shit, that fucking prevents "me" or whatever tf that 'verb' means from NOT 'existing' at all/NOT 'being' absolutely literally totally definitely completely basically ANYTHING ANYONE ANYWHERE IN GENERAL AT ALL/'DISAPPEARING' COMPLETELY AND ENTIRELY AND ETERNALLY FOREVER FOR ALL 'ETERNITY' AND JUST SIMPLY NOT 'EXIST' AS NOR 'BE' ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING/ANYONE/ANYWHERE IN GENERAL AT ALL OF LITERALLY ANY 'FORM'/'WAY'/'TYPE'/'KIND'/'SHAPE'/'DIMENSION' ETC AT ALL. Im fucking 'trapped' in a fucking flesh prison that prevents me from FINALLY JUST NOT 'EXISTING' AT ALL/NOT 'BEING' ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING/ANYONE/ANYWHERE IN GENERAL AT ALL and that makes "me" have no damn fcking choice but/that forces me to 'exist', 'be' 'here' and 'be' 'something'/'someone' and 'experience'/'do'/'say'/'think'/'speak' etc etc and or whatever/any other fcking 'action'|'verb' in general 'things'/'words' and all that fucking crap EVEN THOUGH I SIMPLY JUST DONT FUCKING WANT TO/DONT FUCKING WANT TO WANT TO AND THAT'S IT ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL WHATEVER/HOWEVER IT IS/IT CAN BE, OF ANY TYPE/WAY ETC AT ALL IN GENERAL AND A LONG ETC AND THAT'S IT AND ITS NOT BECAUSE OF ANY REASONS IN GENERAL AT ALL. Its so fucking FRUSTRATING to not have the 'right' or whatever tf that means to die/to finally completely disappear and not 'exist' at all ffs I SHOULD HAVE IT FOR FUCK'S SAKE LET ME FINALLY LEAVE THE MEAT CARCASS/LEAVE THIS OBLIGATORY THING THAT I SIMPLY JUST DONT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT [NOR ABOUT ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY ANYTHING ELSE IN GENERAL AT ALL OF ANY TYPE/WAY ETC WHATEVER/HOWEVER TF IT IS/CAN BE ETCETC] NO MATTER HOW THE FCK IT IS/CAN BE, NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS/CAN HAPPEN, NO MATTER WHAT THERE IS/THERE CAN BE, NO MATTER HOW IT WORKS/CAN WORK, NO MATTER WHAT ITS ABOUT/CAN BE ABOUT, NO MATTER WHAT TYPE OF X BLAHBLAH WHATEVER THE FCK IN GENERAL IT IS/CAN BE AND A LOOOOONG ETC. LET 'ME' FINALLY NOT 'BE' LITERALLY ANYTHING NOR ANYONE NOR ANYWHERE AT ALL. 'Im' fucking 'trapped' in this obligatory 'thing' and 'surrounded' by 'pro life' (and 'pro choice'/'suicidals' 'who' are also basically literally the right extreme absolute 'opposite' of me lol) "beings"/"people"/"humans"/"entities"/"species" or whatever tf that's called that won't let me die at all costs not even if i wanted to die "bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN", bEcAuSe wAnTiNg tO dIe iS """iRrAtIoNaL""" (lmfao as if i gave a damn fuck if it's """iRrAtIoNaL""" or not or whatever the fuck that damn 'word' even means ) aNd It GoEs "AgAiNsT" "hUmAn nAtUrE" and blah blah all that fucking garbage bullshit crap that 'humans'/'people' have invented. (lmfaooooooooooooo as if i gave a single damn fuck if it 'goes' """aGaInSt""" """hUmAn nAtUrE""" or whatever tf that even fcking means or not for fucks sake. "I" never 'asked' for absolutely anything in general at all and i shouldn't be fucking forced/obligated to exist/want to 'exist' etc and care about etc things/'life'/'existence' blabla etc uNleSs I dOnT wAnT tO bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN just because 'humans'/'people' fucking say so and feel like it!!!!!!!! I SHOULD HAVE THE DAMN RIGHT TO DIE/LEAVE/DISAPPEAR/NOT 'EXIST' AT ALL ANYMORE ANYTIME/WHENEVER I FCKING WANT TO AND IF I SIMPLY WANT TO WITHOUT FUCKING HAVING TI BE ""bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN/ReAsOnS"" FOR FUCKS SAKE!!!!!!! STOP FUCKINF HAVING "ME" TRAPPED IN EXISTENCE IF I SIMPLY JUST DON'T FUCKING GIVE A FUCK ABOUT IT NOR ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING ELSE AND I SIMPLY JUST DONT FCKING WANT TO 'KNOW' ABOUT IT/'EXPERIENCE' IT/'PARTICIPATE' IN 'IT' NOR ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING ELSE IN GENERAL AT ALL OF ANY TYPE/WAY ETC AT ALL WHATEVER/HOWEVER THE DAMN FCK IT FUCKING IS/CAN BE FFS!!!!!!! 'THIS' NOR LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING ELSE IN GENERAL WHATEVER/HOWEVER IT IS WHATEVER TYPE ETC IT IS/CAN BE ETCETC SHOULDN'T BE AN OBLIGATION!!!!!!!!!) ffs i simply just don't want anything ffs don't fucking obligate/force me to jesus fucking christ let me finally DIE, let me finally COMPLETELY ABSOLUTELY TOTALLY ENTIRELY DISAPPEAR, let me finally NOT 'EXIST' AT ALL AND NOT 'BE' ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING/ANYONE/ANYWHERE AT ALL IN GENERAL OF ANY DAMN WAY/TYPE/FORM/SPECIES/SHAPE/DIMENSION FROM ANYWHERE ANYTHING AT ALL AND NO MATTER WHAT/HOW IT IS FFS. sigh. why the fuck this has to be obligatory jfc, why THE FUCK "cAnT" i literally simply basically seriously ONLY want/want to want (and 'wish'/'crave'/'desire' or whatever tf those 'verbs' fucking mean) DEATH/ETERNAL ENDLESS COMPLETE ABSOLUTE TOTAL PLAIN INFINITE LITERAL PURE NOTHINGNESS/ETERNAL ABSOLUTE NON-EXISTENCE and that's it WITHOUT ANY FCKING REASONS IN GENERAL AT ALL??? for fuck's sake why the fuck cant I literally just NOT/DONT fucking 'want'/'need'/'care about'/be 'interested' in/want to 'experience' etc ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL WHATEVER HOWEVER THE FUCK IT IS/CAN BE NO MATTER WHAT TYPE/WAY ETC IT IS/CAN BE ETC AND THATS IT WITHOUT ANY REASONS/CAUSES AT ALL FFS WHY WHY THE FUCK THAT """ISNT POSSIBLE""" JESUS FCKING CHRIST WHY!!!!!!!!!!!

I just dont want to 'be' absolutely/literally any "being"/"entity"/"species"/"life form"/"creature" or whatever tf all that is of any type, any way, any 'form', any absolutely anything, with any 'age' nor 'gender' nor 'name' nor 'body' nor 'brain' nor 'iDeNtItY' nor basically literally ANYTHING else in general at all/nor absolutely any other fucking garbage bullshit crap like that and in general. Simply just fucking dont and i dont give a fck if this receives assumptions, I won't read any of them at all lol. And i don't say this """bEcAuSe eVeN aNiMaLs 'SuFfeR' aNd 'tHe WoRlD' iS a "bAd pLaCe"""" lmfaoooo as if I gave a damn single f*cking sh*t if there's "sUfFeRiNg" or not and if 'the world' and or whatever the f*ck in general is a ""gOoD pLaCe"" or a ""bAd PlAcE"" lmfaoooo i simply just don't f*cking care, and if whatever tf in general is """"bAd"""" and or any/whatever other """"""nEgAtIvE"""""" 'way'/'adjective'/type of x blablabla whatever the f*cking damn f*ck it simply literally just doesn't """""aFfEcT""""" 'me' nor """""wOrRy""""" 'me' and never will lmao. I dont say that I LITERALLY SIMPLY JUST DONT WANT TO 'BE' ANYTHING AT ALL NOR 'EXPERIENCE' ETC ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING AT ALL """"bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN"""". I just simply DONT and DONT want to want to and i simply literally just NEVER at all will, that's f*cking it. But well, "I" had no f*cking choice but to 'be' 'born' and 'exist' and 'be'/'become' 'something'/'someone', so that, for 'humans'/'people' automatically fucking means that I'll want to yes or fucking yes and that ill want to care about/have 'interest' in etc 'things'/'something'/'life'/'existence' and or whatever the damn f*ck in general uNlEsS i DoNt bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN. Its so fucking frustrating, why the damn fuck can't i simply basically literally JUST NOT FUCKING WANT NOR GIVE A DAMN FCKING SHIT ABOUT ETCETC JUST LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL WHATEVER HOWEVER THE DAMN FCK IT IS/CAN BE OF ANY TYPE/WAY/FORM ETCETC AT ALL NO FCKING MATTER WHATS/WHERES ABOUT/RELATED TO/FROM ETCETC WITHOUT ANY FCKING DAMN "rEaSoNs" NOR "cAuSeS" NOR "eXpLaNaTiOnS" AND THATS SIMPLY FUCKING IT??????!!!!!!!! i just cant fcking 'comprehend' how the fck that """""iSnT pOsSiBlE""""", just because 'people'/'humans' fcking say so and fcking feel like it and have fcking INVENTED that there has to be a reason yes or fcking yes or fcking what? jesus fcking christ
'I' simply just DON'T want to be absolutely ANYTHING nor ANYONE nor ANYWHERE etc at all of any type/way/form/shape/dimension etc no fucking matter what/how tf it is/can be. "I" or whatever tf "I"/"you"/"they"/"she"/"he"/"we" f*cking means i couldn't give any less of a damn f*ck lmao literally ONLY want/want to want (and 'wish'/'desire' or whatever tf those 'verbs' mean lol) to completely and entirely DISAPPEAR for all 'infinite'/'endless' 'eternity' and just NOT 'exist' at all and simply NOT 'be' absolutely totally literally ANYTHING/ANYONE/ANYWHERE at all, AT ALL and NOT 'be part of'/'participate in'/'experience'/'explore'/'discover'/'know' about etcetc ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL no fcking 'matter' what/how the damn fck it is/can be, of literally any single damn type/way/form etc at all, from/about/related to etc just simply basically absolutely literally ANYTHING AT ALL IN GENERAL whatever/however the fcking damn fck it is/can be and a loooong etc. i simply just couldn't give any fcking damn less of a damn fck for fuck's sake lmao I SIMPLY JUST DONT FFS, I JUST DONT WANT TO AND NEVER WILL AND IT'S NOT THAT """"I uSeD tO cAre bUt NoW i DoNt""" nor that """i StoPpEd CaRiNg BuT i CaReD bEfOrE""" nor that i don't """bEcAuSe Of ThIs AnD oR tHaT rEaSoN""" FOR FUCKS SAKE. NO. THERE SIMPLY ARENT ANY REASONS IN GENERAL AT ALL FFS, I SIMPLY JUST DONT, NEVER HAVE HAD NEVER HAVE WANTED TO AND SIMPLY NEVER AT ALL EVER WILL NO 'MATTER' WHAT ETC. why the damn f*ck is that so fcking hard (even impossible lmao or whatever tf that 'word' means) to 'understand'/'comprehend'/'believe' for literally everyone else in general whether they're pro life or not, pro choice or not, suicidal or not except me???? thats what i DONT fucking understand, i SERIOUSLY or whatever tf that 'word' fcking means just CANT fucking understand why the fck is this """"iMpOsSibLe"""" for 'all' 'people' in general/everyone in general, why ffs and why the fck there has to fcking be a ReAsOn wHy, jesus damn fcking christ.

I don't give a damn sh*t and simply never at all ever will (and literally simply never at all ever had) if 'life'/'the world'/'existence'/'planet earth'/'humanity'/'society' and or blahblahblah whatever the damn fck in general is """mEaNiNgLeSs""" or """mEaNiNgFuL""", """sUfFeRiNg""" or not, """pAiNfUl""" or not, """bOrInG""" or """eNjOyAbLe""", """vAlUeLeSs""" or """vAlUaBlE""", """iNtErEsTiNg""" or """uNiNtErEsTiNg""", """wOrThLeSs""" or """wOrThY""", """sAtIsFyInG""" or """uNsAtIsFyInG""", """fUlFIlLiNg""" or """uNfUlFIlLiNg""", """fAiR""" or """uNfAiR""", """sIgNiFiCaNt""" or """iNsIgNiFiCaNt""" and or blah blah blah blah whatever/any other """""pOsItIvE""""" or """""""nEgAtIvE""""""" 'way'/'adjective'/'thing'type of x blabla whatever the fck in general and don't give a damn single fcking shit if 'there are'/'there's' """tRaGeDiEs"""/"""cRuElTy"""/"""iNjUsTiCe"""/"""pAiN"""/"""pOvErTy"""/"""cOrRuPtIoN"""/"""hUnGeR"""/"""pRoBlEmS"""/"""iSsUeS"""/"""diSgRaCeS""" (or whatever tf all 'those' 'words' even fcking mean lmao) and or whatever/any other """"bAd""""/""""nEgAtIvE"""" (as if i gave a damn fuck if it's """"nEgAtIvE"""" or """"pOsItIvE"""" or howevwr the fucking damn fuck jfc lmao i literally just couldn't care any less!!!!!) 'tHiNgS'/'eVeNtS'/'cIrCuMsTaNcEs'/'SiTuAtIoNs' (or however the fck to call it lol) of whatever/any other type or not LMFAAOOOOO I JUST SIMPLY COULDN'T FUCKING CARE ANY FCKING LESS!!!!!!! i literally just dont fucking want/don't give a damn fuck about/don't and dont fucking want to have any damn 'interest' nor 'curiosity' etc for|about|in/don't want to 'experience' nor 'know' nor 'do' nor 'learn' 'about' nor 'explore' nor 'participate in' nor 'enjoy' nor 'discover' nor 'be part of' nor 'inhabit' nor 'perceive' nor 'live' nor blahblahetcetc absolutely any other 'verb'|'action' etc in general at all ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY TOTALLY COMPLETELY ANYTHING FOR FUCKS SAKE, and simply NEVER at all ever fucking will no 'matter' what etc. ANYTHING. A N Y T H I N G. THATS IT. ANYTHING AT ALL IN GENERAL. Absolutely ANYTHING at all in general no fcking 'matter' what/how etc tf it is/can be and no fcking 'matter' what type/way/form of whatever tf in general it is/can be etc no fcking 'matter', 'related to'/'about'/'from'/'in' etc just basically ANYTHING/ANYWHERE IN GENERAL AT ALL no fcking 'matter' what/how etc it is/can be of literally any type/way etc at all in general. and i don't say this because of a fucking reason/reasons (jfc why the damn fck there has to be one yes or fucking yes lmfao why cant i simply literally JUST FUCKING DONT/DONT WANT TO WANT TO and thats fcking it i just cant fcking comprehend), there simply ARENT ANY. it's not a """pHaSe""" nor """tEmPoRaRY""" nor """nIhIlIsM""" nor """aNtInAtAlIsM""'/"""eFiLisM""" nor """dEpReSsIoN""" nor any other """mEnTaL iLlNeSsEs""" nor """aPaThY""" nor """bAd LiFe""" nor """bAd cIrCuMsTaNcEs"""/"""bAd SiTuAtIoN"""/"""bAd eXpErIeNcEs"""/"""bAd LiViNg CoNdItIoNs""" nor """dIsApPoInTmEnT""" nor """eMpTiNeSs""" nor """bOrEdOm""" nor """nUmBnEsS""" nor literally absolutely ANY other fcking damn ReAsOn/cAuSe in general at all. It's simply literally just NOT because of ANY rEaSoNs/cAuSeS at all ffs i simply just fucking don't ffs and that's it jfc, it's so fucking frustrating that this is an obligation. I JUST DONT GIVE A FUCK FOR FUCKS SAKE AND I NEVER WILL NO MATTER WHAT ETC AT ALL. THATS. IT. Just because "i" had literally no damn fcking choice but to 'exist', 'be'/'become' 'something'/'someone' and 'be' 'brought' 'here'/'come' 'here', that DOESNT fcking mean that i have to/that I'll 'want'/'care' about/be 'interested' in etcetcblabla 'things'/'something' yes or fucking yes and if I don't """iTs BeCaUse Of A rEaSoN""" FOR FUCKS SAKE I SHOULDN'T BE FUCKING OBLIGATED/FORCED TO. I SIMPLY JUST FCKING DONT AND DONT WANT TO WANT TO, ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL AND THAT'S IT AND I NEVER AT ALL WILL AND THERE SIMPLY ARENT ANY FCKING REASONS/CAUSES AT ALL OF ANY TYPE. I simply just fucking dont and that's basically it FOR FUCK'S SAKE. i literally just never will understand why the fck that is """"""iMpOsSibLe"""""", """""impossible""""" why? Because 'humans'/'people' fcking say so and fcking feel like it and have fcking INVENTED that """"tO nOt WaNt eTc AnYtHiNg tHeRe HaS tO bE a 'ReAsOn'/'eXpLaNaTiOn'/'cAuSe' WhY and all that fcking INVENTED garbage crap or what?????

Say Whaa??

cytoarchitectonic said:
And at least i have have consciousness though to be able to figure out what i just wrote and a 1000 pages more (that which no one talks about : suicide , death, the badness of life).

i see this as a double edged sword though. this consciousness ability to think in depth also causes suffering more so than any other animals. animals are content , they dont regret, they dont think of the past, they dont think of mistakes , they dont suffer anxiety about the future like us. they live in the moment , they dont wish thye had more or said this or done that or were born a certain way/ it is this ability of in depth thinking imo is what causes human suffering. i dont think humans can ever be content.

aqish · Feb 8, 2021

Pravesh said:
lol how can you even make sense of what that person said?

It makes sense when you think the same way. Sincerely, i felt it too. I didn't choose to be born, what makes you think I would choose to clean these table 8 hours a day, to pay for a room with no window? For the rest of my born-ness?

lugerepair · Feb 8, 2021

I wish I was born a dolphin, because dolphins are not automatic breathers, every breath they take requires a conscious effort, so when they want to die they can just decide to stop breathing. There have been documented cases of dolphins committing suicide in this exact way.

Jumping_realms · Jul 22, 2021

A raven 100%.

FuneralCry · Jul 23, 2021

I do wish I was never born at all. I would rather be an animal than a human though. I think I would choose a cat, as they spend a lot of their lives sleeping. If a cat is suffering to a great extent it can get euthanasia.

do you sometimes wish you were born another animal?

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