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closetoyou

closetoyou

Member
Aug 19, 2025
41
i've been in a very bad depressive mood for the last few moods and i feel like it all started when someone asked me where i saw myself in the next five years and realized i just had no mental image of what i was supposed to be. i'm studying something but even then - i cant see myself on the other side of that.

i like to imagine i somehow make it out and i'm a just a cool uncle living a small but ultimately meaningful life. but i dont think im working towards that. either i ruin my life or i cut it short.
 
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YandereMikuMistress

YandereMikuMistress

you say falling victim to myself is weak, so be it
Apr 26, 2023
1,116
I pray I succeed or I have lost what little of me there is,, no I don't even think about "50"
 
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renaxx

renaxx

Member
Jul 30, 2025
32
No, I honestly can't see my life past 50.
I'm not sure I'll make it to 25, so it feels impossible to picture. Even imagining a few years ahead already feels overwhelming to me.
 
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Painismyname

Member
Aug 20, 2025
14
No fucking way i am. Staying til i am 50...
 
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Merocero

Merocero

Tired.
Jul 29, 2025
48
No, i barely see myself past 20, let alone 30... Living as an adult on your own is scary for me, i still live with my parents as im 18 rn and cant afford a place sigh.. i cant work a 9-5 or whatever to be able to afford rent! if anything, ill be a burden until i die, and for the sake of my family, its better sooner than later.
 
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UnusedGate

UnusedGate

Member
Aug 12, 2025
63
Unless I can somehow fix my chronic pain then no. Even if I fix it, I'm only giving myself a year to sort my shit out. If I can't then I'm ctb.
 
rainatthetraintrack

rainatthetraintrack

inexperienced
Jul 1, 2025
345
no. no offence to people like my grandparents i wish them to continue living a long and healthy life but i just don't wanna get old. even if i recover i will still ctb just much later cause i don't want to be old.
 
FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotionally unstable like an IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
811
Not really, maybe i dont wanna live that long
 
PI3.14

PI3.14

what is chaos to the fly is normal to the spider
Oct 4, 2024
388
Nope, I'm planning my departure already. Can't imagine living another year let alone living until 50.
 
SchizoGymnast

SchizoGymnast

Wizard
May 28, 2024
694
I have vague ideas of what my life will be like past 50, but actually planning for it feels impossible. I don't know if that's mental illness so much as living in a society where nothing is attainable and there's no safety net. I'm feeling more and more like my Neanderthal ancestors hunting sabre tooth tigers and surviving day by day.
 
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westerly_merlin

westerly_merlin

Low social battery 🪫
Aug 13, 2025
177
50 - that boat sailed 7 years ago for me. 60 is coming at me like a rhino charging a landrover!
 
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Scythe

Lost in a delusion
Sep 5, 2022
706
Fuck no, that would be horrible
 
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royaltybabee03

royaltybabee03

New Member
Feb 3, 2023
4
nah i don't see it, I'll be lucky to even make it to 23 at this rate
 
Iamatiredlad

Iamatiredlad

Member
Aug 23, 2025
19
Seems so far away. Who knows, maybe a lot can change. But to be honest, not really. I want to die young
 
Eternal Disaster

Eternal Disaster

IHaveDemonsInMyHead
Aug 3, 2025
112
No way. I will end it all before my birthday day.
 
rustcohle4life

rustcohle4life

I'm bad at parties
Mar 16, 2025
276
I don't think I'll make it out of my thirties tbh.
 

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