Venting do you see your life past 50?

[closetoyou]

i've been in a very bad depressive mood for the last few moods and i feel like it all started when someone asked me where i saw myself in the next five years and realized i just had no mental image of what i was supposed to be. i'm studying something but even then - i cant see myself on the other side of that.

i like to imagine i somehow make it out and i'm a just a cool uncle living a small but ultimately meaningful life. but i dont think im working towards that. either i ruin my life or i cut it short.

 

[YandereMikuMistress]

I pray I succeed or I have lost what little of me there is,, no I don't even think about "50"

 

[renaxx]

No, I honestly can't see my life past 50.
I'm not sure I'll make it to 25, so it feels impossible to picture. Even imagining a few years ahead already feels overwhelming to me.

 

[Painismyname]

No fucking way i am. Staying til i am 50...

 

[Merocero]

No, i barely see myself past 20, let alone 30... Living as an adult on your own is scary for me, i still live with my parents as im 18 rn and cant afford a place sigh.. i cant work a 9-5 or whatever to be able to afford rent! if anything, ill be a burden until i die, and for the sake of my family, its better sooner than later.

 

[UnusedGate]

Unless I can somehow fix my chronic pain then no. Even if I fix it, I'm only giving myself a year to sort my shit out. If I can't then I'm ctb.

 

[memento-mori]

no. no offence to people like my grandparents i wish them to continue living a long and healthy life but i just don't wanna get old. even if i recover i will still ctb just much later cause i don't want to be old.

 

[FoxSauce]

Not really, maybe i dont wanna live that long

 

[PI3.14]

Nope, I'm planning my departure already. Can't imagine living another year let alone living until 50.

 

[SchizoPolyGymnast]

I have vague ideas of what my life will be like past 50, but actually planning for it feels impossible. I don't know if that's mental illness so much as living in a society where nothing is attainable and there's no safety net. I'm feeling more and more like my Neanderthal ancestors hunting sabre tooth tigers and surviving day by day.

 

[westerly_merlin]

50 - that boat sailed 7 years ago for me. 60 is coming at me like a rhino charging a landrover!

 

[Scythe]

Fuck no, that would be horrible

 

[royaltybabee03]

nah i don't see it, I'll be lucky to even make it to 23 at this rate

 

[Iamatiredlad]

Seems so far away. Who knows, maybe a lot can change. But to be honest, not really. I want to die young

 

[dearlydeparted44]

I'll be gone in a few weeks. No.

 

[Xiaojiu]

If I die before my next bday, I will be happy

 

[Eternal Disaster]

No way. I will end it all before my birthday day.

 

[badatparties]

I don't think I'll make it out of my thirties tbh.