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Vincent Moraes

Vincent Moraes

Member
Jul 20, 2018
66
Ive been on antipsychotics, antidepressants and lithium for some months now. I see my psychiatrist usually when i feel really bad. Last time I Just went to Tell him I was able to get enough amitriptyline to kill myself. He Just told me to come back the Next week. The Nice thing is that he understands i dont have much money and sees me for Free sometimes
 
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JayZT

JayZT

Member
Jul 12, 2018
96
No, I asked for help once and got none I ain't about to ask again. No mess and no therapy, Suicide is my cure.
 
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Vincent Moraes

Vincent Moraes

Member
Jul 20, 2018
66
No, I asked for help once and got none I ain't about to ask again. No mess and no therapy, Suicide is my cure.
It helped me once, but as a bipolar i got down again. Now i came back to the feeling that suicide is the only cure. I've got everything i need, but i have a good family, and the thought of hurting them is the only thing that still holds me back
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
I have a long history with phsychiatric meds starting around age 24. I started experiencing episodes of severe depression before this though. A friend had gave me his prescription when I fell into a bad depression and couldn't get out of bed. The pills did pull me out of it and after that I tried other ones but most of them failed or I couldn't tolerate them. After I had recognized that a lot of my problems were the result of early childhood trauma and I was being medicated to basically be functional but not to actually help me overcome the problems resulting from my childhood. I decided to stop taking most of these meds realizing they don't help in the long run and may actually harm u worse. So unfortunately I'm still on one of them and I've had a difficult time giving it up because it's very addictive. I'm still on a low dose of adderall to be able to do shit but its not without side effects and downsides. That's the only one I still find useful.
 
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ReleaseMe

I know it's over And it never really began
May 26, 2018
120
Not anymore, but I used to for a long time. (Venlafaxine/Effexor and low dose Quetiapine/Seroquel)
 
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dwimplepeen213

Member
Jun 26, 2018
37
10 years of psychiatrists, been sectioned into the psych ward several times and 400mg Quetiapine which i haven't taken in months
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
 
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Santiago

Mage
Mar 25, 2018
588
I refuse to take meds. I don't want to take anything that is gonna mess around with the most important part of my body.

Either I succeed or I die trying on my own.
 
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ReleaseMe

I know it's over And it never really began
May 26, 2018
120
I refuse to take meds. I don't want to take anything that is gonna mess around with the most important part of my body.

Either I succeed or I die trying on my own.
Imho thats a wise decision. I'll die wondering how my twenties would have turned out out without Venlafaxine.
 
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skyofAuroras

skyofAuroras

Student
Apr 10, 2018
136
I started seeing a psychiatrist right after I got hospitalized in May. I've never taken any meds for depression/ anxiety before then, so I'm still getting used to it. I do hate that taking medication gives me nausea, but they keep me a little more stable than I was before. Plus after years of insomnia I'm finally able to sleep well again.
 
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Weirdoee

Member
Apr 20, 2018
37
Can't talk to a doctor cuz of social anxiety
 
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ScaredOfLife

Arcanist
Jul 9, 2018
441
I've been seeing psychiatrists and therapists since 2001. I've also been on medication since 2001. I'm currently on antidepressants and antipsychotics. They don't help. I still want to die. Therapy and meds do nothing for me. I am treatment resistant. I'm still depressed and I still have severe anxiety.
 
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iwant2die

Member
Jul 19, 2018
15
I do but I've considered coming off of them
 
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Smilla

Smilla

Visionary
Apr 30, 2018
2,549
Saw a shrink who was a lunatic, unethical, and fucked me up badly (not that I wasn't already).

I'm done with shrinks, therapy, meds.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
I've been seeing psychiatrists and therapists since 2001. I've also been on medication since 2001. I'm currently on antidepressants and antipsychotics. They don't help. I still want to die. Therapy and meds do nothing for me. I am treatment resistant. I'm still depressed and I still have severe anxiety.
Yea they aren't a solution to managing life and it's problems. The only time meds came in handy was when I had breakdowns. U know when u are incapacitated, catatonic, can't get out of bed. Meds can at least pull u out of this extreme state, but long term they don't do anything.
 
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ScaredOfLife

Arcanist
Jul 9, 2018
441
Yea they aren't a solution to managing life and it's problems. The only time meds came in handy was when I had breakdowns. U know when u are incapacitated, catatonic, can't get out of bed. Meds can at least pull u out of this extreme state, but long term they don't do anything.

Even on meds I can't get out of bed or take care of myself. The only solution I sadly see to solving my problems is suicide. I really don't want to die but it's my only option. I hate the thought of hurting my husband, sister and cat. Meds haven't helped me handle the stress of life. It would be nice if they could give me courage to live life and to do the things I need to do live life, but sadly meds don't do that.
 
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Jon86

Jon86

Specialist
Apr 9, 2018
369
I've seen a few normally only once or twice. I mostly got prescribed anti-depressants just through a GP and have been on numerous. At the request of my parents, i'm seeing a counselor although I can't say it's helpful at all.

Been on cipralex, venaflaxine, remeron, wellbutrin, zoloft, etc. all with limited success. The ssri's have some unfortunate sexual side effects that are terrible. I think I first took one at 17 and am now 32. I'd say in those 15 years i've been on one a quarter of the time.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
Even on meds I can't get out of bed or take care of myself. The only solution I sadly see to solving my problems is suicide. I really don't want to die but it's my only option. I hate the thought of hurting my husband, sister and cat. Meds haven't helped me handle the stress of life. It would be nice if they could give me courage to live life and to do the things I need to do live life, but sadly meds don't do that.
Do u love your husband and feel like a burden? I would think having a partner and some family would bring joy, but I guess I don't know. I remember living with boyfriends sometimes for a few years and I was still miserable, but then we struggled to resolve issues and things never progressed.
 
Laggy

Laggy

Member
Jul 20, 2018
45
Even on meds I can't get out of bed or take care of myself. The only solution I sadly see to solving my problems is suicide. I really don't want to die but it's my only option. I hate the thought of hurting my husband, sister and cat. Meds haven't helped me handle the stress of life. It would be nice if they could give me courage to live life and to do the things I need to do live life, but sadly meds don't do that.
I'm in a very similar situation. I don't want to abandon my family, but meds aren't helping me and I just need to die.
 
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ScaredOfLife

Arcanist
Jul 9, 2018
441
Do u love your husband and feel like a burden? I would think having a partner and some family would bring joy, but I guess I don't know. I remember living with boyfriends sometimes for a few years and I was still miserable, but then we struggled to resolve issues and things never progressed.

I do love my husband, very much. I do feel like a burden because he takes care of me and everything around the apartment because I spend my life in the bed. I apologized to him for bringing him into my messed up life, but he told me he knew what he was getting into because I told him I had mental health issues the first day we met. He's an amazing husband. I also never should have adopted a cat when I was on disability because of the fact that I can one day lose my disability and hence the ability to care for her. I just didn't even think about that at the time... the thought never even crossed my mind. Luckily I have a husband now who would care for her after I'm gone, but because my husband is 71 and she's only 7, there is a chance she could outlive him and then have no one to care for her. I do worry about so much. Life isn't easy and death isn't easy. I worry about living and I worry about dying. (Yes; my husband is 31 years older than me, and he's not rich. His income is Social Security.)
 
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Dead_Inside

Dead_Inside

Wizard
Jul 2, 2018
622
Ive been on antipsychotics, antidepressants and lithium for some months now. I see my psychiatrist usually when i feel really bad. Last time I Just went to Tell him I was able to get enough amitriptyline to kill myself. He Just told me to come back the Next week. The Nice thing is that he understands i dont have much money and sees me for Free sometimes
Ive been on antipsychotics, antidepressants and lithium for some months now. I see my psychiatrist usually when i feel really bad. Last time I Just went to Tell him I was able to get enough amitriptyline to kill myself. He Just told me to come back the Next week. The Nice thing is that he understands i dont have much money and sees me for Free sometimes
I don't have health insurance so I can't afford to see someone. I tried to look for some free help but they said they would help me because I am actively suicidal... which doesn't make sense to me : (
 
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AveryConure

AveryConure

Some idiot
May 11, 2018
437
Been seeing psychs and taking meds for 10+ years with very limited success and now i can barely afford it and my job never offers me the time to see them anyways. I think once I tried to get help for a decade and ended up just being abused by the healthcare system to the point of developing near PTSD I think suicide is my only option.
 
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sadak_the_wanderer

sadak_the_wanderer

An appropriate painting
Mar 19, 2018
243
Neither.

Therapy can resolve some sorts of problems, but other problems (illnesses, handicaps, and so forth) are intractable to therapy, which then shifts to different goal: trying to put you more at ease with your insolvable issue(s). That is more about coping with what you have. I have no interest in learning to trudge onward through life, merely enduring.

Having both gone to a therapist as a child and worked for a few as an adult, I cannot say I have a particularly high opinion of the efficacy of therapy. Due to my health issues, the number of psychiatric medications I could take is quite limited, so the other side of that coin is also tarnished.

On a secondary note, for a number of reasons, I would rather not anyone know that my own resolution to these problems. I do not want to be held for observation, involuntarily committed, or even have to discuss this sort of thing, given that I could only receive more trite advice, which, if I somehow managed to somehow swallow, would only "reward" me with a longer period of time before my inevitable death.
 
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Threads

Warlock
Jul 13, 2018
721
I see a therapist.

A psychiatrist (lol). I'm probably more like a Skyhighatrist.
 
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Somerando

Member
Jul 22, 2018
28
Yes but I'm probably going to stop since I have yet to find a medication that helps with my depression.
 
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Lolie

Lolie

New Member
Jul 24, 2018
3
I am still in therapy but I really don't think it helps. I'm on meds and I don't think they do anything. My psych diagnosed me as bipolar (even though I still refuse the diagnosis and think I'm borderline and not bipolar and he's an idiot).

I feel like I will struggle for the rest of my life with being unstable. I mean I have struggled since I was a kid by feeling like this, difference is that I always thought it was going to go away. To get better. My psych ruined that when he diagnosed me. I'm scared I'll have to be on meds and in therapy for the rest of my life. Thus why I'm choosing to make it as short as possible!

Also I might be going into an outpatient program soon and I really don't want to do that.. but I guess it's better than being completely hospitalised
 
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Gray Wounds

Gray Wounds

A Phantasmagoria
Jun 27, 2018
575
before I see a counselor. but she fucked me up so, to hell with help.
 
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FTL.Wanderer

FTL.Wanderer

Enlightened
May 31, 2018
1,785
Thanks for the first. I'd never before laughed on SS, but when I read the title to this thread, I laughed hard b/c, yes, for years I'd done therapy and pharmaceuticals. I saw psychiatrists, clinical psychologists, licensed clinical social workers. I did group therapy and 1-on-1. I tried... Sometimes someone is just not fit for the world. It's great people exist who want to help others, but that shouldn't mean others have no recourse to just leave.

I'll never see another therapist, from any "mental health" discipline, again. Utter waste of my money, time, and hope.
 
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