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hmnow

hmnow

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Jul 29, 2025
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I place a noose around my neck about once a week. I put the other end through a hook in the ceiling and hold it with onc hand. In kneel and feel it pull till I almost pass out

I am hoping one day I can anchor it to something and go all the way
 
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SomewhereAlongThe

SomewhereAlongThe

Goodbye everyone <3
May 17, 2024
466
Practice is so important, because it helps with SI and makes you feel secure. I practice all the time with my exit bag. I sit in the patio chair I got and place the plastic bag around my head and tighten it, and then I just relax and breathe deeply, like I would be breathing the gas. Until I know I'm ready to follow through with the method.
 
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hmnow

hmnow

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Jul 29, 2025
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Practice is so important, because it helps with SI and makes you feel secure. I practice all the time with my exit bag. I sit in the patio chair I got and place the plastic bag around my head and tighten it, and then I just relax and breathe deeply, like I would be breathing the gas. Until I know I'm ready to follow through with the method.
If you are serious about CTB I think you need to go through the motions so its not new to you.
It's hard to practise full suspension, but partial allows you feel what it might be like. Nothing stops you from changing things and going all the way either
 
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Terrible_Life

Terrible_Life

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Jul 3, 2025
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I place a noose around my neck about once a week. I put the other end through a hook in the ceiling and hold it with onc hand. In kneel and feel it pull till I almost pass out

I am hoping one day I can anchor it to something and go all the way
I do my tests by putting the noose on my neck, tighten it and then pull the rope up. I have a question, whenever you get near unconsciousness how does it feel like?
 
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Liebestod

Liebestod

Death is near
Mar 15, 2025
685
Yes I practice with my nerf gun rifle, I practiced today in fact.
 
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hmnow

hmnow

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Jul 29, 2025
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I do my tests by putting the noose on my neck, tighten it and then pull the rope up. I have a question, whenever you get near unconsciousness how does it feel like?
I find the edge of my sight starts to get dark and I just stare at something on the wall. My ears begin to ring and head feels like it is about to explore
 
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Wrath

Wrath

Long live my dead dreams.
Dec 12, 2024
93
I don't really know if this counts, but I have a container of the amount of chemical that I will need to ingest to die. I hold it when I sleep sometimes. I don't think it will help with the end, but that's the bottle that I will be holding when I go. So maybe it will help a little bit.
 
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hmnow

hmnow

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Jul 29, 2025
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I don't really know if this counts, but I have a container of the amount of chemical that I will need to ingest to die. I hold it when I sleep sometimes. I don't think it will help with the end, but that's the bottle that I will be holding when I go. So maybe it will help a little bit.
a lot of things are just finding ways to be comforted, so it probably does count
 
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Terrible_Life

Terrible_Life

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Jul 3, 2025
712
I find the edge of my sight starts to get dark and I just stare at something on the wall. My ears begin to ring and head feels like it is about to explore
Interesting in my case its also a strange feeling on my head but also on arms and legs and that feeling is somehow like an electric shock
 
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