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Wait-Bus

Student
Sep 20, 2022
145
Are you going to leave a note? I have spent a lot of time thinking about it.

I don't want to say I am sorry, etc nor explain anything.

But I have decided that I want to leave a note that just says - this is not an accident or some kind of autoerotic game that went wrong - it is an intentional suicide. I have chosen to end my life. I want people to know that!

Like most of us, who have considered hanging, have played or tested with their equipment.

As I have read, accidently death from "testing" is relatively common. So now when I "test" whatever that really means - I write out a suicide note - so in the event of an accident and I CTB right there, my intention is known.

Any thoughts on that?
 
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Jimblue

Student
Sep 10, 2022
199
I always leave a note. Not sorry to explain why I did. Just state it's a suicide and there is no need for further police investigation, that's all.

Last thing I want is huge gossip after I CTB.
 
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Cheesecake

Cheesecake

҉ Walmart ҉
Aug 28, 2020
83
tbh ill either spill all the stuff i know as a last fuck you or just leave nothing to fuck with ppl. or hannah baker it and leave a gajillion clues to waste ppls time LOL
 
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theboy

theboy

Illuminated
Jul 15, 2022
3,174
yes. the note serves to cushion the pain.
 
On Replay

On Replay

What a day What a day
Sep 23, 2022
279
I've wavered back and forth about a note. More than likely I would. Only for "respect" from my family I guess. I feel like maybe they'd talk even more down about me if I didn't
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,248
I would personally choose to leave a note as for me it's preferable to leaving no explanation at all. A note could act as a form of closure and mean that those left behind are not left with unanswered questions. This could give those left behind some understanding as to why I chose to do this, even know I doubt that they would ever understand no matter how much I explained my reasoning, but I still would leave one.
 
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Hope:-)

Enlightened
Jul 3, 2022
1,120
Just to instruct about how I would like my money split up. I don't really see the point of a note for me otherwise. They're not going to take on board what I say.
 
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Wait-Bus

Student
Sep 20, 2022
145
yes. the note serves to cushion the pain.
I think that is true - and may provide some closure to the people left behind
I've wavered back and forth about a note. More than likely I would. Only for "respect" from my family I guess. I feel like maybe they'd talk even more down about me if I didn't
I am curious - how long of a note would you write.

I have thought about leaving my daily journal in an obvious place, so they could look through it for my thoughts. But maybe not. It's really hard to figure out what your last message will be.

Thank you for your thoughts
I would personally choose to leave a note as for me it's preferable to leaving no explanation at all. A note could act as a form of closure and mean that those left behind are not left with unanswered questions. This could give those left behind some understanding as to why I chose to do this, even know I doubt that they would ever understand no matter how much I explained my reasoning, but I still would leave one.
I am never sure if any explanation would be enough for anyone who is left behind. But I do agree it can provide some closure after a while. And you need to write things that have meaning to yourself before you CTB
 
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evolutionerror

evolutionerror

Corrupted DNA
Sep 5, 2022
46
No, I think it will be obvious suicide. I don't think any apology will suffice for the ones that are hurt by my CTB, nor do I have the words, nor do I think anyone could possibly understand how I feel.

I'll take my shame to my grave.
 
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Wait-Bus

Student
Sep 20, 2022
145
Just to instruct about how I would like my money split up. I don't really see the point of a note for me otherwise. They're not going to take on board what I say.
I have thought at times I would state how I want my remains be dealt with - which is cremation and the ashes spread in the forest. No burial plot. I think graveyears are such of waste of space. :)
 
hopeless302

hopeless302

Student
Sep 11, 2022
123
yup. I plan to leave a very simple note explaining my actions which will hopefully alleviate some of the guilt my surviving loved ones will feel. Nothing dramatic. I need to set up a will as well.
 
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hey.howare.u

hey.howare.u

Member
Sep 3, 2022
17
I would even want to leave a note that contains personal things like saying sorry, there are so many people who like me and care for me even tho' i cant feel happiness...
So yes i would say sry i experienced people i liked and loved ctb and cant let everyone experience the same shit without any explanation.
 
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Hope:-)

Enlightened
Jul 3, 2022
1,120
I have thought at times I would state how I want my remains be dealt with - which is cremation and the ashes spread in the forest. No burial plot. I think graveyears are such of waste of space. :)
Oh I forgot. I'm also going to add that I want to be buried, and don't want a funeral/obituary. I'm not sure anyone does obituaries for suicides anyway though...
 
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Wait-Bus

Student
Sep 20, 2022
145
I would even want to leave a note that contains personal things like saying sorry, there are so many people who like me and care for me even tho' i cant feel happiness...
So yes i would say sry i experienced people i liked and loved ctb and cant let everyone experience the same shit without any explanation.
I really respect your logic - you recognize that there are people who care for you and CTB will be painful for some.
Thanks for the contribution
 
deadalreadysqc

deadalreadysqc

Member
Sep 21, 2022
15
Are you going to leave a note? I have spent a lot of time thinking about it.

I don't want to say I am sorry, etc nor explain anything.

But I have decided that I want to leave a note that just says - this is not an accident or some kind of autoerotic game that went wrong - it is an intentional suicide. I have chosen to end my life. I want people to know that!

Like most of us, who have considered hanging, have played or tested with their equipment.

As I have read, accidently death from "testing" is relatively common. So now when I "test" whatever that really means - I write out a suicide note - so in the event of an accident and I CTB right there, my intention is known.

Any thoughts on that?
I've decided to leave video entries for each of my siblings and my mom, things I'd like to tell them and something they can come back to and watch if they ever miss me .. I don't think I'll say I'm sorry, either though
 
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spectraltease

spectraltease

When everything is lost everything is found
Sep 23, 2022
317
Are you going to leave a note? I have spent a lot of time thinking about it.

I don't want to say I am sorry, etc nor explain anything.

But I have decided that I want to leave a note that just says - this is not an accident or some kind of autoerotic game that went wrong - it is an intentional suicide. I have chosen to end my life. I want people to know that!

Like most of us, who have considered hanging, have played or tested with their equipment.

As I have read, accidently death from "testing" is relatively common. So now when I "test" whatever that really means - I write out a suicide note - so in the event of an accident and I CTB right there, my intention is known.

Any thoughts on th
Are you going to leave a note? I have spent a lot of time thinking about it.

I don't want to say I am sorry, etc nor explain anything.

But I have decided that I want to leave a note that just says - this is not an accident or some kind of autoerotic game that went wrong - it is an intentional suicide. I have chosen to end my life. I want people to know that!

Like most of us, who have considered hanging, have played or tested with their equipment.

As I have read, accidently death from "testing" is relatively common. So now when I "test" whatever that really means - I write out a suicide note - so in the event of an accident and I CTB right there, my intention is known.

Any thoughts on that?
Not a note. I just think its better to dont leave a note and go in silence. Maybe I film a video in the woods, with a balaclava talking about the end and my thoughts. I would post this vid on yt, its not for my family or some ppl in my life. Just for society I guess. But the vid is just a idea, I think more of killing myself random without a letter or vid.
 
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toasterbath

toasterbath

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Jun 26, 2022
254
tbh no i don't care about leaving a note except for requesting no funeral, cremation. most people in my life know to some degree my life is shit and why i'm so depressed so it's not a surprise if i ctb. words wouldn't even be able convey the pain and suffering i've felt for years so why even bother? the only person i cared about is gone anyway
 
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makethepainstop

makethepainstop

Visionary
Sep 16, 2022
2,029
AS I have stated, they didn't give a crap about me in life. They didn't care about talking to me then, so why the hell should a talk to them when I leave?
 
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ever so lonely

ever so lonely

terry joseph williams
Apr 17, 2022
282
no i dont think so nobody to leave a note to, mother and most of my family are deceased and i have been alone for so many years, and when i say alone i mean nobody to even put as next of kin on those annoying forms when you enter hospital for suicide attempts, i am so done man, nothing to put in a note, i guess when your ready your ready, and nothing much needs said that they could understand from your perspective anyways.
 
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