It depends for me, on one hand; I technically can't since I'm on such a purposely high dose of anxiety medication that, alongside health problems, doesn't mean I don't have the energy to do most things of CBT. Still, on the other hand, if I keep on living this highly medicated life, I can feel the stuff that I love, which keeps me alive, I can't do anything else, which will keep doing the cycle.
I don't understand what people want, for me to be full-fuctoning yet unstable, or for me to be crippled but complacent.
I'm just tired.