Do you perform any rituals before attempting to CTB?

[Cockney_Rebel]

Myself:

I completely believe in reincarnation, thus I always make myself presentable before my attempts to CTB.

I usually have a fresh haircut, have a close shave, pluck my eyebrows (metrosexual) dress smartly, put on a new pair of trainers, use product & style my hair, have a nice hot bath … basically, I see myself as going on my journey to my next life, so I like to be presentable.

I'm also celebrating the fact, so I'm "dressing up" for the occasion.

Does this resonate with you?

Do you have any rituals, which you perform before attempting to CTB?

If you haven't made an attempt before, do you have any plans of what you intend to do before going ahead?

Intrigue me …

 

[Snake of Eden]

No not really. Probably will shower thats about it

 

[Nolen]

Same as you, get a fresh haircut and take a nice shower. I want to give the necrophiliac who has to do my autopsy the time of his life!

 

[Cockney_Rebel]

Same as you, get a fresh haircut and take a nice shower. I want to give the necrophiliac who has to do my autopsy the time of his life!

Edited my post: I also have a fresh haircut!

 

[FuneralCry]

I have not made a proper attempt before, but before I do it, I plan to sit and spend some time thinking about my miserable existence and how glad I will be to be free from it. I strongly believe there is nothing after death. Thinking extensively about what brought me to this point is more likely to make me overcome the SI. Maybe I would listen to some music too.

 

[Cockney_Rebel]

I have not made a proper attempt before, but before I do it, I plan to sit and spend some time thinking about my miserable existence and how glad I will be to be free from it. I strongly believe there is nothing after death. Thinking extensively about what brought me to this point is more likely to make me overcome the SI. Maybe I would listen to some music too.

I have made several attempts (not including the self harm ODs) and you do tend to reflect on everything.

At first you get excited, then fear (SI) kicks in, then it becomes spiritual.

Once you get to the spiritual stage, it's a green light & you go ahead.

 

[pulltheline]

i'm similar, though i've not truly attempted. when it comes to self harm and ig what you'd call half-attempts, i make sure i have a shower and put on comfortable clothes. i tend to do some small amounts of cleaning like tidying my room and getting rid of things i don't want people to see.

i dont know what i think happens after death, i guess i'll have time to think about that as it arrives.

 

[Bedrock48]

Pretty similar to you although I don't do as much in terms of making myself presentable. Basically just a shower, brush hair and put some clean clothes on.

Usually tidying happens too, tidy the house, empty bins, throw any nasty food out from the fridge or anything that'll perish soon (although food buying tends to slow or stop in the weeks before an attempt, usually during severe depression my appetite plummets). Make sure gifts are packed and sorted. Last time I also had a little setup of things that reminded me of certain people. A little SI inducing but I'm glad I had those at the time.

That's about it I think, nothing fancy. Sometimes clear my search history too. Not that I've got anything to hide really but I feel weird at the idea of someone going through my phone.

 

[Cockney_Rebel]

That's why I use all Apple products.

No one can get into them.

Very secure.

 

[Bedrock48]

That's why I use all Apple products.

No one can get into them.

Very secure.

Fair, I use Huawei since I like their interface and battery life. Cheaper than Apple too aha.

 

[przeciwwymiotne]

Myself:

I completely believe in reincarnation, thus I always make myself presentable before my attempts to CTB.

I usually have a fresh haircut, have a close shave, pluck my eyebrows (metrosexual) dress smartly, put on a new pair of trainers, use product & style my hair, have a nice hot bath … basically, I see myself as going on my journey to my next life, so I like to be presentable.

I'm also celebrating the fact, so I'm "dressing up" for the occasion.

Does this resonate with you?

Do you have any rituals, which you perform before attempting to CTB?

If you haven't made an attempt before, do you have any plans of what you intend to do before going ahead?

Intrigue me …

Shower, makeup, dress up, clean up, hide a note to my parents

Take a bus to a forest, hang around the town a bit, wait for the evening

Climb up an energy pole and set up the noose, eat sth maybe, watch my favourite streamer and pretend I'm still a kid, listen to an acceptance meditation

Endure 2min of choking

 

[8evergo]

I'll shave, shower, do it, put on my camouflage uniform, do perfume, do it, present myself from my most beautiful side it will be the happys day of my live

 

[Deleted member 847]

I used to spend 1-2 hours meditating before my attempts
I listened to mystical-relaxing music, or binaural theta waves
something to give me a feeling of wonder and thrill

This is my favorite one:


But it wasn't really meditation, which is when you try not to think anymore, I was more like contemplating my thinking instead
I was thinking, visualizing what could happen to my consciousness after my death

Back then I had this conviction that the mind had to be something profound and important in the universe,

Today I believe it's just the product of biological evolution, a function of the brain
that evolved because it helped organisms survive.

Basically you have it
because it helps you eat grass, avoid injuries and run from predators more efficiently.
The brain needs consciousness (sensations) to get feedback from its environment,
(Pain-sensations, consciousness,, tells the organism what to do, not to do and what's important)
If you look at plants and insects, they don't appear to have much complexity of behaviour as you or even your dog.
If you rip the wing of a fly, you'll observe that the fly will keep trying to fly. The fly doesn't feel pain,
so it's not aware that it doesn't have functioning wings anymore.
The fly obviously doesn't have consciousness, since it doesn't have sensations.
That makes it simpler than us, less responsive to its environment, to what's happening around it.