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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
I've made a few friends on here since I joined in January and almost all of them have ctb.
It's the reality of this website and of suicide in general .
 
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moonflow3r

moonflow3r

Knocking on heaven’s door
Oct 6, 2023
228
Oh definitely, there was schrodingerisded , he left us back in march. I enjoyed the philosophical debates he and others would pull off in the website. I remember talking to him hours before his final act. I'm glad he's at peace now. That is the inherent nature of this site, people come and go yet we can't do anything about it but watch from afar through our screens.
 
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SomewhereAlongThe

SomewhereAlongThe

Goodbye everyone <3
May 17, 2024
466
Yes Alessa :'( Who was a darling and Queer Melancholy who lit up the chat every time they were around
 
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StupidCat

StupidCat

retard
Apr 24, 2025
315
I will miss you if you ctb
 
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DontTouchMeImFamous

DontTouchMeImFamous

Don't Wanna Win
Jul 18, 2024
230
@LastLoveLetter 😢😔💐
 
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ringo99

ringo99

Mage
Apr 18, 2023
536
Vizzy. That guy is a legend here. Made an amazing SN guide and patiently answered questions related to CTB.
 
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Worndown

Worndown

Angelic
Mar 21, 2019
4,196
Metalchik and Cookiedough.
 
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themisfell

themisfell

Member
May 31, 2023
92
@d3c4y for sure. They were one of the few friends I made here, and we were gonna ctb together but they went ahead of me. I hope they're at peace.
 
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TheDevilsAngel

TheDevilsAngel

LetMeFree (I'll never be free)
Apr 22, 2019
852
Yes many good people have left whether by suicide or left the site....
 
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_AllCatsAreGrey_

_AllCatsAreGrey_

An existence transfigured by failure.
Mar 4, 2024
812
@heavyeyes
 
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kunikuzushi

kunikuzushi

sause
Jan 24, 2023
621
Yes I miss ijustwishtodie so much
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
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divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,919
Grapevoid and Matrixprisoner I think was the name
 
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milkteacrown

milkteacrown

suicidal angel
Feb 16, 2025
128
Yes, I do. I sometimes wonder if I have enough of a presence on here for anyone to feel that way about me if/when I CTB.
 
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lamy's sacred sleep

lamy's sacred sleep

what's a way to just be competent
Nov 22, 2024
1,511
@Wezzy777
@darkest
@Wilt-On-High
@Nervous young man
 
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lamy's sacred sleep

lamy's sacred sleep

what's a way to just be competent
Nov 22, 2024
1,511
I didn't know wilt-on-high had passed. Is it confirmed?
I assumed so from their post history and the fact that their profile isn't accessible anymore.
 
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vanillamilkshakes

vanillamilkshakes

Aspiring Corpse
Aug 26, 2024
598
Absolutely, @Plato'sCaveDweller.. contributed so much to this site and was always incredibly helpful.
 
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_AllCatsAreGrey_

_AllCatsAreGrey_

An existence transfigured by failure.
Mar 4, 2024
812
@LonelyKitten
 
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Afterglow

Afterglow

the best geoguessr player ever
Feb 22, 2025
375
I met my best friend on here, @StrugglingSienna

Me and her even met up once, our goal was to ctb together but life got a little too much for her and she left without me.

I don't blame her. I miss her a lot.
 
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Permanoir

Permanoir

Student
Dec 29, 2024
144
@grapevoid
Even though our interactions were brief and limited to the chat rooms, I know they meant something, because she named me as one of her favorite members here.
 
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ForestGhost

ForestGhost

PFP by user ropeburns&migranes
Aug 25, 2024
262
I met my best friend on here, @StrugglingSienna

Me and her even met up once, our goal was to ctb together but life got a little too much for her and she left without me.

I don't blame her. I miss her a lot.
Shit, she must have left recently, right? I noticed her absence from the forum but thought maybe she was deferring CTB based on what she posted on her profile.
 
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Made4TV

Made4TV

A hopeless hope junkie
Sep 17, 2018
575
Tiredhorse, who started the nitrogen/bag mega thread. It's been a few years but we had gotten close before he left.
 
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Xiaojiu

Xiaojiu

cease to exist 不复存在
Mar 28, 2025
678
I met my best friend on here, @StrugglingSienna

Me and her even met up once, our goal was to ctb together but life got a little too much for her and she left without me.

I don't blame her. I miss her a lot.
It's confirmed she's gone? She was nice to me when she was still here :(
 
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Afterglow

Afterglow

the best geoguessr player ever
Feb 22, 2025
375
It's confirmed she's gone? She was nice to me when she was still here :(
I was talking to her as she did it and recieved a text from her family later that day, unfortunately she's gone.
she left the morning of May 26th.
Shit, she must have left recently, right? I noticed her absence from the forum but thought maybe she was deferring CTB based on what she posted on her profile.
 
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angelalexandra

angelalexandra

girl with a caustic halo
Apr 26, 2025
15
this whole thread is making me cry, its really bittersweet that everyone remembers someone else that they miss. i havent been here for long enough for me to have known anyone (and i sure as hell hope no one will miss me when i go), but i always get sad when i hear of other trans people's suicides.

i wish i got the opportunity to meet you janey.
 
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Nobodi

Nobodi

Student
Sep 24, 2024
127
I remember her. The cute little cartoon with the big fluffy ears. She will be missed I hope she found peace. I feel a little shook up knowing she gone even though I haven't interacted with her I hope she in a better place now
 
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ForestGhost

ForestGhost

PFP by user ropeburns&migranes
Aug 25, 2024
262
I was talking to her as she did it and recieved a text from her family later that day, unfortunately she's gone.
she left the morning of May 26th.
Fuck. There are some people I quietly hope are able to recover. I mean I guess I want that for everyone, but I saw that post on her profile and it seemed like things could have turned around for her. She was really sweet and funny and I can't say this doesn't make me sad.

I understand though. Rest well.
 
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