Do you have broken dreams?

[Beachedwhale]

Does anyone else have broken dreams?

I had dreams in my last year of school but due to various personal reasons didn't obtain them... Then buried them deep down when I went off to uni. Just buried the whole past. Confidence meanwhile continued to plummet and now, a decade later, having unearthed the memories of that time and my childhood, my dreams have caught up to me, only I have failed to obtain them and am materially in a much much shittier position than back then.

And it wasnt even that difficult to obtain, but due to my extreme social phobia and depression and ignorance I did what I've always done, just avoided life and its sweet fruits even when they were ripe and hanging low begging for me to pick them.

I could still kind of salvage small bits of them, but it's a bit uncertain, it'll take much more effort and energy now than then as my issues have gotten worse, and I'll have spent my whole 20s unhappy, and I cannot live with my parents anymore but can't move out. I just can't be bothered anymore.

 

[motel rooms]

Do I have broken dreams? Well, duh. Too many to list

 

[glad it’s night]

Sooo many.

My consciousness is riddled with bullet holes of regret.

Life is a hurricane that smashed the crystal menagerie of my dreams upon the dark foaming waves.

 

[Beachedwhale]

Sooo many.

My consciousness is riddled with bullet holes of regret.

Life is a hurricane that smashed the crystal menagerie of my dreams upon the dark foaming waves.

Ouch, I really feel those metaphors.

If not even a morsel of my dreams can be salvaged, or if it tastes like shit, then like your crystal menagerie, I will jump down off the cliffs of beachy head and smash my body before the foaming waves.

 

[WornOutLife]

Mmm, maybe not finding my passion (teaching) before.
I would've been able to save money since then and might have visited lots of countries but here I am, "caught" in Argentina lol.

 

[EnnuiCat]

Moved out to Hollywood to pursue my dreams. Here I sit 30 years later in a dumpy apartment with multiple cats. Yep, lots of broken dreams (due in large part to social anxiety and depression).

 

[demuic]

I do. It hurts to know any dream is more like an illusion or a mirage for how unreal and unattainable they are.

 

[Rayzieka]

All my dreams are broken because I woke up and realized they arent realistic.

 

[Q-Dust]

I don't even know what dreams I have, I can't think of anything I want. Even as a kid I just wanted things to be fine, No big ambitions or anything

 

[losteverthing]

not yet broken
but soon i will find out if it will come true or will fade (which will be the end of my life, i pray to god i won't lose my dream)
i've lost everything
so my dream is to get it back, without it life's not worth living at all

 

[PsychosisGirls]

We only ever had the one. Transitioning into a girl. We are now, but it's too little too late, the C-PTSD has buried itself too deep for recovery to seem possible.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, at times there was things that I wanted from this life but the universe decided to work against me. Most of my dreams have never reflected reality. Now my dream is to find an peaceful escape from this cruel existence.

 

[LivideLamb]

I used to have a lot of dreams when I was a child, they changed throughout the different years and phases of my childhood, but still I had at one point the dream to become a writer, then to make a living out of my drawings, etc. Children stuff I guess? But what could've at one point been possible, just kind of disapeared. Every dreams and aspiration got sucked out by depression and other shitty stuff.

 

[Cherry Crumpet]

Oh yes! So many. I have so many broken dreams.

 

[AloeGarten]

not sure if its just me, but i never really had any dreams. when i was young, i was the average 'gifted' kid, so i assumed everything would come to me on its own, without any effort. now im a neet thats never had a job and about £20 to my name. honestly i wish i had a dream so i had something to work towards, but in school and college i just studied because i was told to, not because i wanted to work towards something. now im just lost and its kinda too late to fix it

 

[happylilsht]

I had some achievable dreams but i lost them, I don't desire anything anymore even my dreams seem pointless

 

[heraclitus23]

I have broken dreams - travelling, seeing the world. There was a short time when it seemed like I would be able to live at least some of them - then, COVID. Everything has stopped again.
Now I just dream of an easy death.

 

[Thatdude]

I always wanted to go into space since I was a kid. In fact, I think it is a huge reason why I play games like star citizen.

Anyway, even with having an aerospace degree, having engineering training from NASA, being invited out to NASA for making rover designs, and so on. I found out simply for being autistic this will never happen. In fact, my backup of my backup was to go into the military as a cargo pilot. Not only did I find out the military in USA has policies against autistic people from joining. But I also found out no company will hire an autistic pilot even if you have all the license needed, and even with the pilot shortage.
Then I wanted to go into IT and even after getting 3 degrees in IT (like networks and cyber security focused degrees) and having FBI cyber security training. I found again autistic is a death nail. The thing about IT is aspie is total BS and companies that are starting to hire some of us (like in single digit to double digit amount) are using experimental programs to test if we can work. It's total BS. And this is even with a IT and coder shortage, and that I have skills in coding to the point I taught people before.

Now my goal is to live a NEET life and enjoy things as long as I can. I hope to make it lucky with something like crypto investments. But I seriously doubt it, and I'm sure I will die long before anything will work out. I'm just so sick of things.

 

[Lost Magic]

My whole life is just one bad broken dream.

 

[logan]

I had many dreams and some of them came true.

Now, unfortunately, things look bleak. I have the feeling that I have lost my connection to the universe.

 

[Scribble Fan]

When I was younger it was my dream to have a happy, non-dysfunctional family. After my Dad divorced my abusive mother and got with someone much better things were looking good... until they kicked me out and I got sent to a mental hospital. Now my dream is to CTB.

 

[killedbypsychiatry]

yes too many, I was actually in my way to peruse them and doing quite well at it, before some pills took away my health, destroyed my life and broke all of my dreams at age 17. Literally a year and a half ago everything looked fine, I was in my way yo accomplish my goals and very happy for the first time in my life, would have never imagined that I would be a year later scrolling through a ctb website everyday, bedridden, and having abandoned school :( reading or remembering my goals makes me so sad, I was finally near, yet a stupid mf sociopath doctor had to ruin my life.

 

[Sprite_Geist]

I would not say that my dreams are "broken" as in they are horrible, but they are definately mixed up and confusing. They usually consist of faces, names and environments all thrown together; even though they are from different parts of my life and have no relation to each other.

 

[goat]

Oh boi… I'll not even start to talk about it
But yeah, and I can't deal with it

 

[Weary Soul]

Yes. I have worked so incredibly hard to get past my childhood abuse, including child sexual abuse, as well as abuse that has occurred as an adult - assaults that left permanent damage, completely inadequate medical care, theft of everything I have worked so hard for, etc. Not to mention other horrible life events that happened by chance.

I have pulled myself up out of the mud other people tried to drown me in so many times... that not only are my dreams broken. I have finally broken.