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letied

letied

I tried.
Apr 8, 2021
76
I have a couple of weeks left so I'm making one.
 
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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,163
Yes, some of them are:

-Complete some videogames again such as FFIX
-Visit Japan (quite unlikely but I'll try to)
-Be in shape again (hard but not impossible)
-If I don't go to Japan, I'll just save money and leave it all for my dad.
-Try to fall in love again (not sure of this, but I'd tell that girl I'm suicidal)

And I think that's it!
 
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Futile

Futile

Tired of being lonely
Sep 3, 2020
499
I'd like to visit an escort, but this lockdown is making it very hard
 
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life-eternal

Student
Nov 11, 2020
115
Renting hotel room and getting absolutely wasted for about 3-4 days until the hangovers are so bad that it forces me to end it.
 
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letied

letied

I tried.
Apr 8, 2021
76
Yes, some of them are:

-Complete some videogames again such as FFIX
-Visit Japan (quite unlikely but I'll try to)
-Be in shape again (hard but not impossible)
-If I don't go to Japan, I'll just save money and leave it all for my dad.
-Try to fall in love again (not sure of this, but I'd tell that girl I'm suicidal)

And I think that's it!
Oh, Do you know how being in love is? I never knew that. I always have been the ugly boring one, so I never had a chance.
 
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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,163
Oh, Do you know how being in love is? I never knew that. I always have been the ugly boring one, so I never had a chance.

The beauty standards of this society suck! However, there are some men and women who really value our inner selves so, it's not impossible to find someone.

Yes, I experienced love twice. It can be amazing and give you lots of happiness but it can also make you more depressed and suicidal. It's a risky trip but I think it is worth experiencing it. Hope you and another person can fall in love with each other.
 
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avoid_slow_death

avoid_slow_death

Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
Feb 4, 2020
1,356
-Spending some last time with family members around the country

-Spending a last day with my ex and her beautiful, funny and adorable little daughter. I love that kid and it sucks that she won't see me again. She really loves me. Gets so hyped whenever she sees me....

-Possibly write a letter or maybe record a video explaining why I am doing this and just relating to the many people I love my favorite moments with them. Hey, you have to give them SOME happiness in all this. Only fair.

-Other various things I might think of along the way. Could be anywhere from this Summer to around this time next year when I decide that I can leave without feeling I left something undone.
 
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sadbadpsychogirl

sadbadpsychogirl

sonofabitch
May 29, 2020
725
no just saying a proper goodbye to my dogs and making sure they are well cared for when i'm gone;-;
 
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RedHarlequin

RedHarlequin

Mage
Jul 8, 2018
530
Unfortunately nothing feels good anymore so no.
 
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- crybaby -

its all wasted .
Mar 17, 2021
77
I havent really made a list but here are a few things Id like to do before ;
I want to get high again one more time .
I wish my partner would be in a stable state before I go.
I want to enjoy a vacation with my partner at the beach and so all the cheesy things we cringe at .
I want to cover up a tatto I did when I was young and stupid .
Most of the things I want to do are pretty doable but sometimes considering my mental state they seem imposible .
 
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letied

letied

I tried.
Apr 8, 2021
76
Unfortunately nothing feels good anymore so no.
I understand that. I'm like a roller coaster these days, but there are some things that I still enjoy a bit.

Life hit me a lot since I was born, so I would like to say "fuck off" and try to enjoy some things at least in my last days.
 
mossball

mossball

Member
Apr 6, 2021
49
No... I don't feel like doing anything anymore. Anything that could possibly bring me joy is too energy-demanding. Even if I made a list, I don't think I'm in position to choose when I go. I have to take the first opportunity that comes. I just hope that when I do go my friends are 100% sure I love them.
 
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Celerity

Celerity

shape without form, shade without colour
Jan 24, 2021
2,749
Yep, I'm very organized like that. I dread the idea of limping along these next few years though. I don't know what I'll do if I fail to meet one of my conditions. I guess I'll just CTB later.
 
BandAddict

BandAddict

Specialist
Apr 3, 2019
338
I do, but it's short. First items were to obtain what I needed to CTB and all that, which I've done.

Write a note, check.

I just want to spend Mother's Day with my mom and make it special, maybe sell a couple clothing items that have been in bags just because, clean my room... Kinda wanted to finish a painting, may or may not do that, but that should be everything.
 
charlotte greentea

charlotte greentea

Misery Chick
Apr 2, 2021
59
When I finally do kill myself, I want to visit somewhere. Take a flight, book a hotel room, have a very nice couple of days. Then I'll kill myself in an alleyway somewhere or jump off a bridge. I have a couple of destinations in mind where there are known suicide bridges that I could take my life at which are also in cities that are great tourism spots.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,769
Not particularly. I will need to plan the method and things in relation to that so I will be ready. I don't really have the energy for doing much as my body is broken anyway. I might try to visit some cemeteries, they are calming.
 
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Braindead Atheist

Braindead Atheist

Specialist
Oct 7, 2020
387
I just did. I'm killing myself in June as a birthday present to myself
 
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bloodfallsfirst

bloodfallsfirst

Member
Nov 2, 2021
73
I want to travel to Europe, but how I'm supposed to do that when I ctb asap, idk
 
completely-done

completely-done

Experienced
Jan 31, 2022
211
It doesn't matter anymore. I'm really looking forward to ctb :-)
 
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Zzzzz

Zzzzz

Nothing compares to the bliss of death.
Aug 8, 2018
879
Not really. I think I'd be rather just be dead.
 
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LeapOfFaith

LeapOfFaith

Member
Jul 16, 2020
80
I like the idea of a bucket-ctb-list. However I feel like It would just prolong my suffering. I do not want anything holding me back when the urge to ctb hits me.
 
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_Minsk

_Minsk

death: the cure for life
Dec 9, 2019
1,142
I used to like the idea of a bucket list but the closer i get towards ctb, the more my interest fades
 
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allesistgut

Experienced
Jan 22, 2022
275
i don't really have a bucket list, it's more of a "it'd be nice if this happened before i'm gone" list if it could even be called that.

i'd like to spend as much time as possible between now and when i ultimately ctb with the two remaining people who mean the most to me. and i guess if i end up pushing my ctb further or something changes for me financially, maybe moving out could be nice and would make ctbing easier. i know there isn't a lot of logic in wanting to move out just to likely ctb after but idk.

also if i can't end up ctbing in nature due to the method i choose then i'd like to be able to spend the day prior out in nature.

other than that just sorting out some stuff with my belongings i guess.
 
Kristicide

Kristicide

I am a prisoner locked up behind xanax bars
Dec 16, 2021
330
Just to give my apartment a full deep cleaning before I do it. I want it to look as nice as can be when I'm eventually discovered. I may be suicidal and depressed but I'm still vain enough to want everything to look perfect.
 
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Mr2005

Mr2005

Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
3,621
Mostly complete
 

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