Do you have a date picked out or are you waiting for the "right moment"?

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Agreed, no rush. I don't agree with the "just do it" posts here or in other threads.

I have to agree that a "Just Do It" post would cross a line for me. However I will wish someone Best of Luck or wish them a peaceful journey.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I also wanted to do it in the fall cuz of how much I hate winter but I wasn't able to do it then either.

 

[Kazilium]

I also wanted to do it in the fall cuz of how much I hate winter but I wasn't able to do it then either.

It's fine. Chill. I did it when the pressure was the highest and because of a mistake here n there, got found, ended up in a hospital some days/weeks and here i am. If...you truly feel like disappearing, my best advice is to think it thrice. (Not because life is beautiful and prolife bs, but because you'd rather choose the right way and make it final instead of keeping to mess up like me)

 

[pikassa]

Going to do it in an hour with N. To be honest I'm pretty scared.

 

[Kazilium]

Going to do it in an hour with N. To be honest I'm pretty scared.

Wish you luck... Why are you afraid of?

 

[pikassa]

Wish you luck... Why are you afraid of?

Thank you. I afraid of uncertainty and vomiting.

 

[Kazilium]

Thank you. I afraid of uncertainty and vomiting.

Uncertainty with N... Kinda doubt it to be honest. The vomiting part, i suppose you got some anti-emetics?

 

[pikassa]

Uncertainty with N... Kinda doubt it to be honest. The vomiting part, i suppose you got some anti-emetics?

Uncertainty in a sense of what happened after death. I only 80% sure that there are nothing (I wish so).

And I had anti-emetics for 48 hours. And now had last 60mg of meto as well. Hope it'll work.

 

[Kazilium]

Uncertainty in a sense of what happened after death. I only 80% sure that there are nothing (I wish so).

And I had anti-emetics for 48 hours. And now had last 60mg of meto as well. Hope it'll work.

Take care. I hope you'll be happier.

 

[pikassa]

I have just drunk N... Taste is bearable... Feel a bit dizzy. But emotionad are very strong

 

[Jiva]

I don´t have a fixed date. When i have strong pains, i looking for a courage to ctb. If i will find a courage, i want to go ctb immediately. But also i watch the partner thread, because a right partner can give me a courage for the last step, i think. I have hope, in group it is mere easy, because we can help one other. Anf if a partner will have a fixed date for his/her ctb, i will accept it for me too.

 

[mattwitt]

Every time I have set a possible date or time frame something comes up and cancels it. I think it's going to end up being a spur of the moment thing for me.

 

[FaceOfSilence]

When i finally figure out the sweet spot with partial (or night-night, ordered a ratchet strap) and feel that it's going to work, i'll wait 72 hours as is recommended, finish up some stuff, and do it. I live alone so plenty of time to be not discovered.

 

[Jupiter]

I have just drunk N... Taste is bearable... Feel a bit dizzy. But emotionad are very strong

I hope you are at peace now.

 

[Idorus]

I have just drunk N... Taste is bearable... Feel a bit dizzy. But emotionad are very strong

I hope you are at peace now.

I hope too....

the most real ones / the least striking

 

[Vaughn]

I have just drunk N... Taste is bearable... Feel a bit dizzy. But emotionad are very strong

hope all is as you wanted

 

[cornflowerblue]

I know I want to ctb before May 1st but I can't decide if I want to pick a specific date or just wait until the timing feels right.

What do you all think?

I'm waiting until I get everything in order so people can move on when I die and don't have to deal with any cleaning, financial, or legal procedures. Also waiting on a couple of life events to pass for those close to me such as retirement and pregnancy, so I don't cause them too much stress. I know my death will be stressful no matter what but I want to minimize the difficulty for others so they can forget about me more quickly and so that my death doesn't give them more problems.

 

[RM5998]

I know I want to ctb before May 1st but I can't decide if I want to pick a specific date or just wait until the timing feels right.

What do you all think?

Well, I picked 4th November 2018, and evidently it didn't go as planned. So I'm for the latter. But then again, I might be exceptionally spineless, so there's plenty of room for other conclusions.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

I have to attend a close family members wedding this summer. I don't want my death to be a dark cloud over that. After that, i'll ctb either in the fall or early next year. I haven't decided.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

I know I want to ctb before May 1st but I can't decide if I want to pick a specific date or just wait until the timing feels right.

What do you all think?

i wanna do it before summer will start. i'm just waiting my instinct to burn out

 

[Jen Erik]

I don't have a specific date, and I should probably start thinking more seriously about locking one down, or at least a time frame, as I believe ctb for me should be done at a time where I am not in the middle of some crisis and there is no immediate need to be gone. I have all the necessary supplies for exit bag with nitrogen so it seems like general fear is holding me back – fear of the inconvenience or grief I may cause, fear of some sort of failure despite lots of planning, etc.

 

[Its911]

I know I want to ctb before May 1st but I can't decide if I want to pick a specific date or just wait until the timing feels right.

What do you all think?

In my opinion, when you reach the point where every moment is the "right" moment, the rest just falls into place.

 

[TAW122]

I do have a soft date picked (very dependent on what happens next week - if it goes well, then I may get on a small recovery or temporary peace, but if it goes to shit then dead before end of May this year), but no hard date set. In other words, I have a date but also depends on other circumstances in place to determine my final decision.

 

[Volomori83]

Just as soon as I get over my irrational fear of the process of dying from my chosen method.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

I'm too coward to seriously plan to ctb. I sometimes trained to tie a knot, compress carotid or swallow a handful of pills but never seriously planned anything. Didn't even made a real attempt to ctb.

 

[I am ___________]

I was plan on doing it before my birthday, which is in may. I'll be ordering the supplies today, my method of choice will be sodium azide. Do I need any anti emetics for this? Hopefully I can just starve myself for 2-3 days and then take it.

 

[Sabrina_Iris]

I was plan on doing it before my birthday, which is in may. I'll be ordering the supplies today, my method of choice will be sodium azide. Do I need any anti emetics for this? Hopefully I can just starve myself for 2-3 days and then take it.

I've never heard about this method? I'm rethinking my method so I'm interested...

 

[I am ___________]

I've never heard about this method? I'm rethinking my method so I'm interested...

Sodium azide almost has identical symptoms like sodium nitrite, except from what I hear it gives you a really bad headache. So there is a bit of pain however it is much more quicker then sodium nitrite. You'll have to get past the headache, and then it's pretty much night night. Azide is more fatal then nitrite, so there is least likely possibility of being saved. That is why I chose azide over nitrite, with nitrite you can be saved however there are no long term effects/harm. I want to make sure there is no returning, if you feel you might have some regrets probably should go with nitrite.

 

[justabouttobedone]

I used to think that it will be on my birth day if I can't pull myself out of the pit of being useless until 7th of November. But since last two days, I feel like the bus is coming early for me, calling me to the bus station. I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I will start to gether pills and a rope to prepare myself to catch the bus it seems.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

It's fine. Chill. I did it when the pressure was the highest and because of a mistake here n there, got found, ended up in a hospital some days/weeks and here i am. If...you truly feel like disappearing, my best advice is to think it thrice. (Not because life is beautiful and prolife bs, but because you'd rather choose the right way and make it final instead of keeping to mess up like me)

I can't mess up. If I fail and am found, I may not get another chance.