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ohsosleepy

ohsosleepy

Is that something I ought to do?
Feb 9, 2026
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Music is how I plan to try to calm myself when I CTB. Same for my last two attempts. Do you have a playlist or any music you want to listen when you CTB? Is it for a similar or different reason? Is there a mood you're going for? If you do, feel free to share a song or two, or a whole playlist if you'd like.

My playlists aren't a coherent vibe, but more like a selection of my favorite songs at the time. If it makes me feel better, it goes on the playlist. Here are a couple songs from the playlist of my last attempt:

The Sea of Crystal - Yamamo Maya


A heart that has grown stagnant - rujou
 
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Bybye

Bybye

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Sep 24, 2023
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I was going to play all I have from God is an Astronaut, but then I changed my mind about dying at home and discarded the idea of listening to music.
Still, these are some of their songs.


 
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tannhausers

tannhausers

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Apr 23, 2026
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My favorite tracks are all by Hana Stretton.
It gives you this fleeting sense of calm or an incredibly hollow sadness—it's hard to describe. It's that moment when you realize it's all over, everything is finished, and there's nothing left.


And my second favorite is "mu - SEAPOOL" But it's a little unsettling.
 
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GoldenTicket

GoldenTicket

Perhaps the real nembutal is the friends we made
May 5, 2026
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I've thought about this heavily as music is a great comfort, I would like to play something upbeat, perhaps a little humorous, something to be reassuring in my final moments. I have calm/sad songs on my playlist but I if I were truly to have a last song, if I'm positive in my plan to end my suffering and go into nothingness then I'd want it to be something I enjoy.

I have some beatle songs I like, me and my father used to listen to them together so it would be bittersweet (he died 2 years ago bless his heart..), but if not I find this song a good contender, one last "huzzah" before I go. (And yes, I know the lyrics are very ironic for a CTB song!)

 
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