Discussion Do you have a chronic debilitating condition or just tired of life ?

[262653]

NO idea, I tried to get tested. They say go to psych, they can go fuck themselves. I complained once about pain in skin and muscles sharping/burning, and seems to be seasonal, and affected by stress, they prescribed me meds that didn't help, then prescribed 5x more expensive meds, then 5x (on top of 5x) more expensive diagnosis in some clinic... I don't have that much money, and I got the impression that they were robbing me, bc nutrition and vitamin/mineral supplements helped me with muscle pain.

 

[Squiddy]

This is the situation with me.. I used to be good at playing the school game as a kid but my spirit broke and I become disillusioned now and now I don't see the point in college. It's such a scam. And the kind of shit they "teach" these days, smh. But I don't have any skills in life so I'd at least need a degree to get a job that's not minimum wage.

My parents would probably let me stay with them but I'd feel like shit because I do want to be independent.

Sadly I've already taken out a ton of debt and some in my parent's name so I don't feel like I can just quit. Even though idk how I'm gonna go on doing work when I feel like absolute shit and that what I'm doing is pointless busy work and time wasting.

Yeah I don't really have any skills either and wish to be independent. If only I could win the lottery, though still not sure if I would ctb in that case

 

[Deformationalplagio]

Born with a head deformity

 

[olieolieoxenfree]

I am just tired of being alone, being a social outcast. I don't really believe in mental disorders, as many of the great inventors and wonderful people of this world "suffered" but they used it in a positive way. I have minor physical ailments, but I never see doctors and when it comes to my physical health, I'll die when I die. I comtemplate ctb, but I've never been low enough.
The strange thing is, when I should have been at my lowest (in solitary confinement in jail), I was super happy. I am considered "off" but I use that energy in the kitchen for my job.

 

[Weightoftheworld]

I guess both. I've always struggled with major depression, but I could fight through the waves. It was when I developed epilepsy, severe migraines, and RLS that it really hit a breaking point for me.

 

[I screwed up]

Just freakn tired of life .. I can't cope with this

 

[Kassender]

Both.

Adhd+cptsd from being bullied or ignored pretty much my whole life have gotten me to the point where i'm just tired of fighting.

I have for so long and nothing changed.
At this point i'm also too lazy to give a damn anymore.

I don't work and my unemployment is running out in a few months. I need to go before i'm homeless.

I could probably go back to my parents' but it won't be good for anyone. Besides, i'd rather not.

So yeah, mostly tired of life at this point.

 

[Isadeth]

Unfortunately, both physical and mental. Physical from accidents and some genetic factors that caused other ailments to present themselves. Then the consequences of those ailments created situational issues mentally which turned chronic... along with traumatic life events.

I feel though, that despite the mental issues, if a majority of my physical issues would reside, my mental health would greatly improve.

 

[WhatDoesTheFoxSay?]

Lupus (SLE). Only got a proper diagnosis last year. Started three years ago with swollen feet and ankles, which then progressed to whole body joint and muscle pain. Loss of mobility and the fear of becoming disabled sent me into a downward spiral of depression. Disease went into remission when I was about to ctb. From then on I get flares-up only every now and then. However, as of now I'm already too far down the rabbit-hole to give a damn about life.

I'm suffering from Levaquin antibiotic damage and possible Lyme disease. , prior to this I was pretty happy and functional. Levaquin ruined my life

I'm allergic to Levaquin. Was prescribed for pneumonia/pneumonitis. Had to stop as it made me feel like throwing up. Developed hives from Amoxicillin/Clarithromycin previously.

 

[AutoTap]

Both but my exhaustion of life is caused by my debilitating agoraphobia, generalized anxiety disorder, social anxiety disorder, persistent depressive disorder, and autism spectrum disorder.

im pretty much really anxious 24/7 and then when I have to do something as simple as going to get a haircut my anxiety spikes to borderline unbearable levels.

sometimes my anxiety is so bad I can't really eat, sleep, shower, and basic things like that.

It sucks because people don't understand that my anxiety isn't as easy to manage like many others. It's more severe and complex as I'm autistic. Along with it being from multiple different sources and causes. Not to mention my mental health and anxiety manifest in physical symptoms as well like heart racing, throwing up, restlessness, stomach flipping, feeling like I have to shit (lol), exhausted, and sadly much more

Im still trying but eventually I will ctb when I can't handle it anymore & have a peaceful and easy way to go.

 

[Deleted member 18655]

(RR)MS and PTSD - both are hell when they flare up. Masks (seeing and wearing them) triggers me terribly so I'm sure I'm agoraphobic at this point. fml

 

[Futile]

I'm just tired. Everyone and everything is against me, this life is simply not worth living

 

[rvsw]

Bedridden with chronic pain pudendal neuralgia

 

[Conker]

Transwoman, klinefelter's osteoporosis, and asthma progressively worse. But on top of that I just dont think I could enjoy life anyway because it just keep becoming more technocratic with widening disparity, authoritarian with draconian lockdowns (what happens with future more deadly viruses). Bad stuff happened to me as a child and a teen too so I have little trust or regard for society but I could let that go if culture didn't feel so fake and in your face. I could think up some ideal scenarios but they are just dreams.

I wish your dreams were a side reality and we could be taken there. I hate this world..

I am just tired of being alone, being a social outcast. I don't really believe in mental disorders, as many of the great inventors and wonderful people of this world "suffered" but they used it in a positive way. I have minor physical ailments, but I never see doctors and when it comes to my physical health, I'll die when I die. I comtemplate ctb, but I've never been low enough.
The strange thing is, when I should have been at my lowest (in solitary confinement in jail), I was super happy. I am considered "off" but I use that energy in the kitchen for my job.

You would love solitude even more up in the mountains. I am extremely introverted as well, so can definitely relate when that need is met our contentment is increased.

 

[whitefeather]

I'm suffering from Levaquin antibiotic damage and possible Lyme disease. , prior to this I was pretty happy and functional. Levaquin ruined my life

Levaquin damaged a colleague of mine .

 

[WhatDoesTheFoxSay?]

Levaquin damaged a colleague of mine .

Sympathies. It's quite the hassle that every body is different. We can never really use the one-size-fits-all treatment approach.

 

[Weary Soul]

Both

 

[Amumu]

Debilitating condition. Depression, BDD, OCD, etc.
Physical stuff as well.
I wish I were just tired of life with no health issue.

 

[Antigonish]

I'm just tired of life in general, and that may be the cause of some undiagnosed disease. My dysphoria kills. Especially when I have a gender flip and am misdiagnosed. I'm genderfluid by the way. People are always I never know. And I'm like me either until you call me the wrong thing. What also frustrates me is, that they're always looking for huge telltale signs when I'm just as normal as anyone. They even go as far to ask me about my pronouns and I'm like just call me by name. Or wait too see how I'm acting. Sorry I ranted.

 

[fent_dnm27]

Chronic debilitating condition (physical).

w/o that i'd still have Complex PTSD from a severely abusive upbringing. I have seen folks manage well enough with the CPTSD though - i think I could've done okay if I didn't have the physical condition, too.

 

[FatalSystemError591]

Both. But mainly the former causing the latter.

 

[TSCursor]

i think both, i have anxiety, depression, ptsd and i dont have any expectations of life honestly, i feel like i dont have to do anything more here

 

[Hurt]

Tired

 

[Sherri]

Just tired of it most of the time, seems like I already lived everything I wanted to leave. Barely anything has a wow factor for me anymore.

 

[daveyc]

No physical health problems or pain, but I've lived long enough to know I cannot live a normal life. I have never had a relationship, a hobby, or a job. I can't even read properly. I'm nearly 24 now. I thought about giving up on life in my teens, and I would have saved myself an awful lot of suffering if I had.

 

[Snatsbats]

Somatoform disorder, atleast thats what they call it because they cant find the cause.

 

[daveyc]

No physical health problems or pain, but I've lived long enough to know I cannot live a normal life. I have never had a relationship, a hobby, or a job. I can't even read properly. I'm nearly 24 now. I thought about giving up on life in my teens, and I would have saved myself an awful lot of suffering if I had.

Lol just realised I made a typo: I'm nearly 25, my situation is even more hopeless. I really need to hurry up and leave this fucking world already.

 

[BandAddict]

More than anything, just fucking tired. I knew better than to think my problems would magically disappear (which seemed to be the case until I realized that my ED numbed all of that and I actually WASN'T suicidal once I got bad enough—oops for currently trying to recover.)

Although, in October of 2019 I started to develop weird feelings in my right hand and leg, which, over time turned into full on involuntary twisting motions that I struggle with every day. Sometimes I can't even speak for moments because my tongue won't work properly, it's really scary. My mom said there's no point in seeing a doctor, and she's probably right. Fuck it, the medical system sucks anyway.

 

[WhatDoesTheFoxSay?]

More than anything, just fucking tired. I knew better than to think my problems would magically disappear (which seemed to be the case until I realized that my ED numbed all of that and I actually WASN'T suicidal once I got bad enough—oops for currently trying to recover.)

Although, in October of 2019 I started to develop weird feelings in my right hand and leg, which, over time turned into full on involuntary twisting motions that I struggle with every day. Sometimes I can't even speak for moments because my tongue won't work properly, it's really scary. My mom said there's no point in seeing a doctor, and she's probably right. Fuck it, the medical system sucks anyway.

I urge you to see a doctor. A medical system that's rife with problems is still better than none at all. What you've described here is worrying.

 

[BandAddict]

I urge you to see a doctor. A medical system that's rife with problems is still better than none at all. What you've described here is worrying.

Thing is, my medical program is really bad, and I had to go from doctor to doctor (pointless referrals and nothing done) for close to 3 years to get an important surgery that's finally happening on Monday. My mom's tired of having to cover co-pays, and my symptoms might be from being on medication for several years, and my mom said that it was my choice to take them. I don't know... Maybe if I ever get a job and it really is an issue, maybe there could be a way.

Edit: I quit all medication cold turkey that same October, thought I'd make it clear I'm not still taking it.

Sorry this was so long, thanks for your concern. Also your username actually kind of made me smile/laugh today, I like it.