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tooafraidtodiez

Will CTB before my favourite show ends
Apr 29, 2026
182
I know CTB is not something that can be generalized so feel free to let your thoughts out.
My personal experience: For the first couple of months i felt horrible, nausea, headache, depression and just the thought of CTB makes me want to puke. But after some incidents, those feelings are mostly gone although not completely. I no longer feel headache or depressed about CTB, instead i felt relieve that i can (hopefully) get eternal rest. I've been dealing with pain and disablity for the last 8 years of my life and i couldn't imagine going through 70 more years of that. I'll be documenting my CTB once my SN arrive, currently being sent by fedex. I don't really care about the throat burning or whatever anymore, hopefully it'll be short. Also have all protocol needed except propanolol so hopefully that'll help. I'll be documenting my CTB here on SaSu as the community has helped me tremendously to end my pain. And if i can, i'll also try to give information on how it feels to ingest SN, to give certainty to those who chose this method, although i will be takiing antacid. This is like my pseudo goodbye post before my actual goodbye post. I will also be testing my SN just to be sure it's high purity. And then the rest, is up to mother nature.
 

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