Story Do you hate yourself?

[I can't beat it]

or someone else, please give reasons

 

[BarnabasCollins]

Oh yeh. I was told by my parents from the beginning of my life I wasn't good enough, was a mistake, less than my brother, and was treated that way. It made self-loathing a part of who I am. I was bullied and rape as a child, which made it worse. I've spent years in therapy trying to change it. It hasn't worked.

 

[FuneralCry]

No, I just hate existence instead. I see the existence of life as the most horrific tragedy, it repulses me how existence causes so much senseless cruelty and unnecessary suffering. I certainly hate how I was burdened with the ability to exist, it's a curse to be trapped in this harmful and decaying flesh prison that can cause us to suffer to unlimited amounts and lacks an eternal offswitch where we can instantly cease existing in peace.

 

[I can't beat it]

Oh yeh. I was told by my parents from the beginning of my life I wasn't good enough, was a mistake, less than my brother, and was treated that way. It made self-loathing a part of who I am. I was bullied and rape as a child, which made it worse. I've spent years in therapy trying to change it. It hasn't worked.

Irresponsible parents, I hope life gives you less pain

No, I just hate existence instead. I see the existence of life as the most horrific tragedy, it repulses me how existence causes so much senseless cruelty and unnecessary suffering. I certainly hate how I was burdened with the ability to exist, it's a curse to be trapped in this harmful and decaying flesh prison that can cause us to suffer to unlimited amounts and lacks an eternal offswitch where we can instantly cease existing in peace.

A peaceful ending is the best option

 

[Deicius]

Honestly, I got this messed up thing going on with me. I dig dissing myself, but I also can't stand loving myself, and vice versa. It's a real mind twister.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I hate existence as well as my neurotype. Whether I hate myself or not depends on whether you view me hating my neurotype as me hating myself or not

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I don't hate myself.

 

[ctvunny]

No, hate is a strong word. I think dislike fits more for me. I dislike myself.

 

[unsaiddes]

I do hate myself. I personally think some people on earth are capable of being wonderful people who live happy lives, and that never has been, never will be me. Honestly, my ideation could boil down to "I don't want to be me." If I could wake up tomorrow as someone else, maybe my urges to CTB would go away. Or maybe not, but at least I wouldn't have to live with who I am right now anymore. I don't even see myself as evil, just unappealing and undeserving.

 

[annxietty]

I hate myself with a passion, and people that dont hate me are people that still dont know me fully, my family doesnt hate me because they feel sad for me, soon hatred will replace that sad feeling, I believe.
I dislike many people, but I cant say I hate someone else, because to me "hating" someone is feeling what I feel when I think about myself or see myself in a mirror, and I dont feel like that for anyone else to this day.

 

[traumer]

I don't hate myself, I can even say that I love myself but it's not like a self-love thing. I love myself as a person, I want to discover more about my true self because it seems interesting. What I mean is that I don't like the way my brain and body works but I love myself for being a nice person even though these things don't work properly.

(is my neurodivergency showing?)

 

[underscore_nine]

i hate myself more than anyone will ever hate me

 

[GlutenFreeCat]

Yes, lots of reasons really.

 

[numbed one]

I hate myself because i'm unlucky .. liké .. i can't even have a job or a good brain that Can work

 

[EvisceratedJester]

I completely loathe myself. I don't think I've ever liked myself. At best I've maybe felt neutral about myself. I honestly feel like it would have been better for everyone around me if I had never been born. The only thing I've ever accomplished in life is making everyones lives more difficult. Even when I was younger I would cry over how much I felt like a burden and wonder if I was some sort of abnormality. Like something that wasn't meant to exist but does and is now reeking havoc on the lives of others.

 

[chloramine]

I don't know why exactly. I feel like I'm fundamentally bad and wrong. Like even if I saved a school bus full of kids tomorrow it wouldn't have any bearing on that. Logically it's probably due to how things were growing up, but I don't know for sure. I just. Detest myself though.

 

[Gonnerr]

Yes and everything single atoms that exist.

 

[R_N]

Not myself. I could hate others and sometimes do but try not to. I don't like having excess emotions in me because they cloud my perception and make me act irrational.

 

[ouf]

i sometimes hate myself and sometimes don't. when i do it's because of all the mistakes i've made. all the choices that led me to this point. and i don't hate anyone else.