Do you guys hide the fact that you’re depressed?

[ShadowChild]

I do both I guess. I act like my depression is a joke to most of my friends and just keep smiling. That's probably why they don't think of me as depressed haha. Does anyone else pretend it is a joke when it is actually very serious and not okay?

Yes. Even if I'm dying inside, I'll spin it into a joke. Humor alleviates my feeling of awkwardness.

 

[Shero]

No, i don't care and don't have the energy. I don't talk about my issues either. Im sure that they think something seems off, which is fine. They can see me as a weird guy, which reduces the hassle to have to communicate with them in the first place.

 

[Nem]

It's impossible to hide for the most part, think of death 24/7
Peace/hugs

 

[BPD Barbie]

I try, sometimes I do a good job, sometimes its visible but I refuse to address or make conversation on it. I make jokes about committing suicide and people laugh, it's great in a way, hardly anyone takes it seriously. I cut in places people don't see, I cry in the shower or when people are asleep, I fake smiles and tell everyone things are fine. But I'm personal and private and I prefer it that way.

 

[mayflower]

Not really. I don't really believe i am depressed. As others have said no-one asks or notices anyway.

 

[Soulless_Angel]

See I am a mess when it comes to this, I used to hide it and hid it well, then things went tits up and I couldn't hide it and was told to be open about it, things were still going tits up, so I was open about it, and as a result I got shit hurled at me from every direction.
Now I try to hide it, but wonder if I am wrong in hiding it, people generally think that I am fine again and nothing is wrong, yet deep down I have one vision in my mind that plays over and over, I want to make that vision real and take the next step, I do believe hiding how I feel is the only option, so yes I wear a mask but part of me feels it's wrong and I should be screaming at people, Im not oK but leave me the hell alone
Yea I am a mess!

 

[Ness]

Keeping to myself more often than not helps me hide it because everyone's either used to me keeping to myself or they're just getting to know me and assumes it's part of my introvert nature. So I can hide a lot pretty easily.

 

[beaten96]

Yeah.. dont think anybody would think that of me in a million years.. 20 years with depression.. 15 with mdd.. you just used to living with it and hiding it.. im a pro at it..

 

[WhatDoesTheFoxSay?]

Yes, because I trust no one.

 

[Labyrinth]

For me, yes. I don't think any one knows that I am dealing with a mental illness. On the outside I put on a mask but behind close doors I hate my life. I feel like I shouldn't burden anyone with my problems and I don't want people to pity me because I have a mental illness. I pretend that I'm ok, which I'm not. I give up on trying to get help since I don't see the point. I was just wondering if anyone is dealing with this and that I'm not alone.

You are not alone, everyone here does or has done this. It's a matter of convenience

 

[cryone]

yes...so much so that whenever I talk about my opinion on suicide my friends think I'm being rude. for example, one time my friends were discussing suicide and I bluntly said to let [suicidal] people do what they want, aka kill themselves. nobody liked that one, lmao.

 

[blacksand]

It's impossible to hide it. I walk around in an almost dazed or drugged state most of the time.

 

[Tired_of_myself]

nobody knows. The company I work for has a virtual mood thermometer and every day I say that I'm happy, even though I'm dying inside. I feel like I'm in a bad sitcom.

Last time I tried to k**l myself, my therapist called my family and girlfriend. Nobody did absolutely anything, except ask me to get better. I started lying that I was fine just so everyone would leave me alone.

Honestly, I was so depressed before the attempt that I don't even remember my last year properly. total blank. I just say these things here.

 

[penguinl0v3s]

There's no need to hide it because nobody cares enough to pay much mind to it. And I see this as a good thing, because when people care they act absolutely insufferable. Trying to guilt you into feeling bad about your thoughts, which are not unreasonable.

 

[Abyssal]

I have to.

 

[throneofdispair03]

i don't care. it doesn't matter if I hide it or not, so no.

 

[Manfrotto99]

yes, I hide it. I never use to until a so called friend once told me that I was being completely selfish for being depressed because it impacted negatively on her own happiness and so I deserved to be unhappy. I do not expect people to understand or care. But I'm no good at hiding my feelings, so I tend to stay clear of people most of the time now. Pets are very accepting though, my dog will always comfort and never judge me.

 

[vampyre]

I try my best, but I don't think I do a good job most of the time. I feel really ashamed of the way I feel though and I hate thinking about other people knowing

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

I don't consider myself depressed but when it comes to how suicidal I am and how bad I feel, I have to. When one is struggling so hard in the long term, others begin to place value judgements and cast blame. It's easier to simply become a hermit and isolate myself than deal with yet another case of being misunderstood or judged.