Do you guys have seconds thoughts when u think about ur family or friends?

[SNO]

This is the thought that creeps into my head often. Even during suicide attempts. I generally think my parents would be devastated but why do I always think about how others will feel, when in reality this is what I want? It's a tough battle. I am very lonely

 

[Sageiois]

It used to hold me back but not anymore

 

[plumelo]

It's strange but there is one person I would like to see suffer from my death. To become aware perhaps. As for the others, I don't care a little less, I know it's difficult to lose someone. but it's part of life. It's more for my nieces and nephews that I worry, they are between 13 and 2 years old, which is very young. They are very attached to me because I am the young aunt who does a lot of things with them. This is what makes me most sensitive at the moment.

 

[greebo6]

Maybe , once upon a time , but no , not now/anymore .

 

[Orangee]

Do you guys have seconds thoughts when u think about ur family or friends? I don't want to hurt them but i cant living my life anymore

Yea no they are the only reason I'm alive right now so I totally get what you mean.

 

[Ironborn]

I did before my first attempt but then saw their reaction to what I had done.
Basically fuck 'em at this point.

 

[hopeless08]

Do you guys have seconds thoughts when u think about ur family or friends? I don't want to hurt them but i cant living my life anymore

Yes I'm in the same situation I understand it's so unbelievably hard.

 

[Lost Impact]

no, because no matter what they say, they will be happier when i'm gone. i'm a financial and emotional burden on everyone i've ever met. when i'm gone they will dance on my grave if there even is one.

they're obligated to talk me out of ctb and saying im a good person because if the encourage it that makes them a bad person.

paltry platitudes.

i'll never understand the mindset people have where they don't want to upset their loved ones. you're aware you're loved? you truly believe you're loved?
i wonder what that feels like...

 

[Naatas]

Do you guys have seconds thoughts when u think about ur family or friends? I don't want to hurt them but i cant living my life anymore

Almost all the time. It's the main reason I've stayed for as long as I have.

 

[deletedaccount30982]

If I'm honest I've almost completely lost that feeling. It comes back every once in a while, the feeling of sadness at how this will hurt my family, especially my dad. To be honest I'm not sure if my dad would survive my death, and if he does it will probably only be for my siblings. But I've been suicidal since I was 10. Over half my life. My family were what kept me alive for years and years and years. But you can only stay alive for other people for so long. You can only fight for other people for so long. Eventually the pain of living became more than the pain of hurting them. I feel horrible for it, for no longer having a desire to stay alive for them. I've almost gone numb to the thought of the pain it will cause them and it disgusts me about myself, but I think my mind is too tired to continue feeling.

 

[Mea Culpa]

God yes, thinking of how I'd be hurting breaks my heart, no matter what I try to do it's hard pushing them away. The memories hurt so bad.

 

[ham and potatoes]

The only reason i havent already done it is because of the pain it would bring my family as we are close.
My parents are old, so it would probably kill them, and im not so sure my brother wouldnt do something to himself if i offed myself
I really need to start distancing myself from them so it will lessen the blow if/when i do do it

 

[LunarLight]

My family and friends, not really. I've come at peace with hurting them.
My partner, it's harder.

 

[yearsoflonliness]

I've been suffering for almost a decade. I've only got 2 family members really. Neither of them have noticed or give a shit about me. One is off living his own life. My mom would be hurt but she doesn't have that many years left anyways. She's had a full, quite successful life. I'm just waiting for said other person to come home. Then I won't be needed anymore.

I've never had any friends or partners so nothing to worry about there.

 

[Shadowpriest]

Nope. They'll be fine without me. I'm mostly a burden and my friends are only online so it wouldn't make much of a difference.

Same, family will continue with their lives after some time and about friends, friends are not a problem cause I don't have any and it's good to keep it that way.

 

[gohome]

yeah, but i feel like some would forget about me pretty fast, not even be so moved, move on with others and that takes over the thought of those that would probably be more affected.