Do you guys dream about ctb'ing

[Mgelanie]

I always do It's either lighting myself up or jumping in the water (I can't swim)

 

[Die.A.Ria]

This year i dreamt about me going on a high building and i jumped off on purpose and i survived with my head just hurting and i was frustrated it didnt work and i wanted to try again but i ended up going home and had a fight with my mum saying i hope she kills herself and i will too and i woke up and my sister was looking at me wierd

I had a feeling i said something out loud while sleeping so i asked her and she repeated what i said in the dream and she said i said it soo loud and she thought i was actually awake

 

[sadbh—itstimetogo🤎]

Yes. I once dreamed of taking SN and it included nausea, salivation, weakness, etc. So trippy yo experience.

 

[kipper]

Commonly, it tends to be located in my bathtub.

 

[Macedonian1987]

I always do It's either lighting myself up or jumping in the water (I can't swim)

I have dreamt a few time drinking SN, and I always wake up after I drink it. In my dreams SN tastes something like table salt mixed with baking soda.

 

[SuicidalCheese]

Kinda? I don't dream very often, but when I do, it's usually just me messing everything up, and then dying. I don't kill myself, but I do die a lot.

 

[makotoyuki]

Several times.
Places like the countryside
Being in a dark room, looking out the window at the city
Walking along the train tracks
There were others, too, but I've forgotten them over time.

 

[DriftingToOblivion]

My first attempt was so peaceful I think about it often. How I would do it and where. And I occasionally rehearse when I am alone.

I don't know how to stop thinking about it but I also don't know if I really want to.

 

[fadedghost]

i don't think so, no, but i don't remember dreams

 

[emuotori]

I had a dream where i took SN and peacefully laid in the grass but then I got chased around by a classmate back from HS who tried to stop me for some reason

 

[Mgelanie]

This year i dreamt about me going on a high building and i jumped off on purpose and i survived with my head just hurting and i was frustrated it didnt work and i wanted to try again but i ended up going home and had a fight with my mum saying i hope she kills herself and i will too and i woke up and my sister was looking at me wierd

I had a feeling i said something out loud while sleeping so i asked her and she repeated what i said in the dream and she said i said it soo loud and she thought i was actually awake

I was also so frustrated in my dream, the idea of ctb'ing is conceuming our whole lives

 

[suncide10]

I recently had a dream where my friend who killed himself told me his method, it was a lie because I know he died from SN. It was weird

 

[Mgelanie]

Kinda? I don't dream very often, but when I do, it's usually just me messing everything up, and then dying. I don't kill myself, but I do die a lot.

I dream every SINGLE day

i don't think so, no, but i don't remember dreams

That sucks dreams are fun at least for me

My first attempt was so peaceful I think about it often. How I would do it and where. And I occasionally rehearse when I am alone.

I don't know how to stop thinking about it but I also don't know if I really want to.

Kinda hard to stop thinking about the first attempt

 

[Aren]

I always do It's either lighting myself up or jumping in the water (I can't swim)

Same i dream about it every morning just before wake up in anxiety crisis because of the nightmare. It's a nightmare but when i dream about jumping, all is anxiety unless the moment i jump. I think my brain see it as the freedom's door and don't really know how it is. The moment when i jump is a relief and makes me so relieve of life and the loss i am living.

 

[Mgelanie]

I recently had a dream where my friend who killed himself told me his method, it was a lie because I know he died from SN. It was weird

Yeah that's weird that's how dreams are

 

[settling]

Yes I get murdered in my dreams too

 

[Mgelanie]

Yes I get murdered in my dreams too

Samee

 

[smirks00ts]

I dont dream often ifs mostly daydreams. but its mostly me driving away. on top of a mountain. and then ingesting SN before laying down and dying. I know its not the most peaceful irl. but yeah.

 

[imagonner]

i dream of not ctb exactly, but of just dying. it feels like im just slipping away, relaxed af, just fading. it feels really nice, like ive taken the most amazing drug. maybe its because i wish so badly that i could just sleep and never wake up again. i wish i could ctb, but without access to a gun, all the other methods seem too risky, as in i might be discovered too soon or i might not be successful and end up being worse off than i am now...

 

[Mgelanie]

I dont dream often ifs mostly daydreams. but its mostly me driving away. on top of a mountain. and then ingesting SN before laying down and dying. I know its not the most peaceful irl. but yeah.

That sounds scary ngl

i dream of not ctb exactly, but of just dying. it feels like im just slipping away, relaxed af, just fading. it feels really nice, like ive taken the most amazing drug. maybe its because i wish so badly that i could just sleep and never wake up again. i wish i could ctb, but without access to a gun, all the other methods seem too risky, as in i might be discovered too soon or i might not be successful and end up being worse off than i am now...

Same situation here no access at all and a failed ctb would only make things worse

 

[SSloth]

only one i can remember was so weird. i was looking at myself in my bathroom mirror, positioning a gun on my temple as if i was trying to get a perfect angle or something. even after i pulled the trigger and fell to the floor, i just got up like nothing happened, no pain or anything, but blood was gushing out the other side of my head. cant remember anything after that...

 

[Fishyfloon]

I had a dream twice where I would sat on the edge of a tall building with a semi-stormy weather. The second dream had me sitting beside a fnaf character for some reason, I don't even like fnaf. But in all of these dreams, I had a clear intention of jumping. So that counts I guess

 

[Mgelanie]

only one i can remember was so weird. i was looking at myself in my bathroom mirror, positioning a gun on my temple as if i was trying to get a perfect angle or something. even after i pulled the trigger and fell to the floor, i just got up like nothing happened, no pain or anything, but blood was gushing out the other side of my head. cant remember anything after that...

We don't die in the dream for me when I jumbed in the water I didn't die and i was frustrated

I had a dream twice where I would sat on the edge of a tall building with a semi-stormy weather. The second dream had me sitting beside a fnaf character for some reason, I don't even like fnaf. But in all of these dreams, I had a clear intention of jumping. So that counts I guess

It definitely does

 

[bloodonmyhands4ever]

I had my first ever CTB-dream recently. I don't remember the exacts but I was paranoid about the police (??) and attempted to CTB by the shallow water blackout method

..in the sink! I didn't go fully through with it though!!

 

[lifesnotfair]

I don't dream about it, which is strange because I think about dying all the time. One would think that people dream to deal with those feelings and memories.

 

[Mgelanie]

I had my first ever CTB-dream recently. I don't remember the exacts but I was paranoid about the police (??) and attempted to CTB by the shallow water blackout method

..in the sink! I didn't go fully through with it though!!

Water is scary! jumping in the water scared me in the dream more than lighting myself up